goodbye, halcyon days.

        Just few more weeks then i will be officially saying goodbye to my school life. I thought i was going to be happy, but in the end, i feel lost. I don't know where I'm heading to after this, it's like heading to the road of uncertainty. Afraid of changes, afraid of meeting new people and afraid of losing someone who's really important to me. Sooner or later we all will part on our own ways, and throughout the journey of life we meet new people and tends to forgot the old ones. i hate saying goodbyes and i hate separation more. Time flies, and one and a half year just gone, like that, in a blink of an eye. it's really annoying to say goodbye, but still all the best for all of us. Do not lose hope easily throughout the journey of achieving success. Do not lose yourself to obstacles. and i will always remember the time we spent together :) lots of loves.

back to reality

    when someone give u a slap in the face and ask you to wake up, don't hesitate to wake up. Because there are times u need to stand up and face the reality. It is cruel, but it teaches you to be strong when nobody else is on your side. you might feel like crying, so it's okay to cry, as it is a process of growing up. There's always a huge gap between ur world and fantasy and reality, and it's always there. Im the one who's stupid to ignore what's already there. i have no one to blame, it's my fault for being so naive.

heartstrings

      you pull on my heartstrings, and yet you never realized it.

      you are the one who make my everyday special, and yet you never realized it.

      you mean the world to me, and yet you never realized it.

       i have been dying to let you know, but afraid of knowing the answer, i stepped back.

      courage is what i need, but still i am too timid to say it out loud. so here i am, writing to you and knowing that you probably never going to read this, but still  : hey, i think i like you. <3

     

tired.

     Never thought that the time is passing so fast. It's almost year end already. I still remember the time i first got in this school and couldn't stop cursing at everything about this school, but now that my journey has almost come to an end already, and i think I'm going to miss my school life. the exams is just around the corner, and as much as i hate it, i need to face it anyway. ggrrrr. am so mentally exhausted. :-(

“人，总是要到了失去的时候才懂得珍惜。而有些感情，非得等到那个人不在了的时候才懂得领悟。”

examsssss

what's the last thing u want to face in your list? for me, it's definitely exam.Nobody likes exam im pretty sure of that, and i hate it to the max. i feel burdened and under pressure. That shitty feeling when u feel like u have plenty to revise and yet the exam is just around the corner. God damn me, i should have revised earlier. GGrrrr, i have no one to blame on except myself. what to do, this is what u get once u do not learn how to discipline yourself. k, need to do some revision now.  byee