_那又怎样？？_

哈咯~
我有上来了~~
最近一直忙k偶像剧
结果没时间上来坐坐。。
哈哈， 如果给级任老师知道我假期里是那样的relax的活
那么我是真的不用指望可以活下去了
哈哈！！

今天的标题是 --- 那又怎样？？
想这个标题想到好久一下咯， 因为实在是想不到有什么更好的标题了
erm, 其实有一些事情在我的脑海里， 不管我怎么去思考都不会想得通 ==|||
所以， 就决定不管结果是怎样， 往简单的方面想就好， 不要想那么多

哎，这世界上人都会有讨厌的人，你讨厌我， 我讨厌你
你不爽我， 我不爽你
就这样不爽来不爽去， 讨厌来讨厌去， 这些 ‘恩怨’ 是不是要到我们死了， 才会化解？？
与其讨厌， 不如选择不管来得好， 就当自己比较不幸运会遇到这种人咯。。
当然该发泄的时候就发泄， 不要把自己的气憋着， 会很难受的， 说不定下一秒就进医院
哈哈！ （冷， 一点都不好笑）

当然， 你讨厌的人， 可能是在朋友之间所发生的
可是， 你在她/他的背后说她/他的坏话， 你感到很满足吗？？说不定自己的罪恶感还会增加哦
最算你再讨厌那个人，那又怎样？？ 那个人还是你的朋友
“因为一日为友，终生为友”
做得了朋友是一种缘分，也许你会不爽他/她，但是大家依然是朋友的事实， 依旧没有改变
谁叫大家都是朋友呢？？ =)
先了解彼此才来下定义， 不然可是会后悔一辈子

好了， 今天就到此为止吧~~要去温习功课了~对了听说朋友今天有跳舞表演， 加油加油


*p/s 觉得自己伤害了朋友的人， 赶快跟他们道歉+自己反省吧
（我也要反省一下, paiseh） (n.n)'''

仔细想想能有朋友这种感觉真的很不错

_原来_

原来
有些时候
事情会比我们想象的复杂

明明说不在意了
可是心里面却很在意

明明说不喜欢了
可是心里面还是很喜欢

明明说不管了
可是自己的心却在不停的挣扎

想骗自己说 一切都是假的
可是 事实就是事实 没得好辨了

有时候
幸福已经敲门了
可是我们却不知道
至到它走了
才会懂得什么叫后悔

有时候， 不要忽视身边的人， 也许他们的出现与存在对你来说是再也平凡不过的事情
但是， 也请你学会珍惜吧
适当的时候给予他们一句适当的问候， 也不错
因为他们心中想要的就是你的关心， 你的问候。。。

学会珍惜， 就会发现自己其实拥有不少珍贵的东西。。。

_wtf_

saturday~
normally. i wouldn't have to wake up so early..
but just because of the stupid sucking and no use test..i have to sacrifice my bed time and have to wake up so early..
the test is really sucks man..all so hard..sienz..
and guess what? that stupid fucking no use fat ass principle will call the parent of those who get C in each subject..
what the fuck la..who do you think you are??
i know i am rude..but you are the who turn me up like this..
i really can't control myself anymore..i try to convince myself that whatever you did..
is for my own good..
but i just can't do it..never expect it will be so hard for me to accept the way you are..
cause i hardly can see there is any benefits for us if you do like this!!
wtf...
just hope that i wasn't belong to here..shit!!

_my heart is gonna explodes_

test is coming soon..
and we have received a bad news..
totally a bad news for us..
for the chosen one..
we had no choice but become the chosen one..
we have lost our freedom..
why you want to tied us up??
we are just like the birds that lost their wings..
unable to fly and have no right to fly..
being control by the evil fat nanny.. v(=.=)v
this time..
if we could not "fly" successfully, the evil fat nanny is gonna shoot us using her gun T.T
pity us..
do you have the right to do so??
no..you have no right at all..
sigh, but what can i do?
the gun is in her hand..
she can do whatever she want...
shoot us..??maybe.. (lol)

anyway, gonna try hard for the coming test..
or else the evil fat nanny is really going to shoot me..lolx

_i see your true colours_

i wonder doesn't a friend..
is always the one who will support you...
the one who will always stay behind you and supporting you?
friends, is like a four leaves clover..
hard to find, and lucky to have..
some people say that, friends are the siblings that the god didn't give us..
well, somehow, i find this sentence is very meaningful and somehow it is a quite reasonable answer for me.. to answer the question : what does the term "friend" stand for..

if you are asking me this question, my answer would be like the one i have stated above...
but somehow, there is a few types of friends in my life, maybe it does appear in your life also..
well, depends on your luck..0.0

some friends are really a true friends, the one who will never abundant you no matter how bleak the situation are..

some friends are just like the people who are using the mask to talk with you..
who are using you as the tool to do something..
some might use u as the bridge to cross the river..some even like viruses, harmful and dangerous...

some are the people who would say something bad about you..like me..i have met so many people like this before..ignorance is the best way to avoid this kind of people..some people thought that as if they are the king/queen of the world..all must obey them??sorry la..i wouldnt do this for you, everything is worthless...don't think you have the right to do so..you faker and B*tch..just get off and go away from..

i will never lose something even you have gone or die~~

and finally i see your true colours..

i wouldnt mix up with you anymore...!!! b*tch

_faker_

ever since when...

the people around me turn out like a doll..

a doll that would never talk with me..

everything is like an illusion..

i choose to not believe anyone..

there is a huge wall between me and you all..

and wall that you could never break..

is there anyone that i could really believe??

everyone is using the mask and talk with me..

everything is just a lie..

the promises that we had made..is DEAD and Gone..

Gone away like the wind..

and i could see no more..

_gloomy_

if you are standing next to me right now..
you will definitely know that i am feeling blue and depressed..
the exam is coming soon..
i am not well prepared..
so what should i do??
and time is unwilling to wait for me..
a girl who just want everything in her life perfect..
=(
but due to many reasons...
life wasn't going the way i want...
but i know that life is like that...
what can i do??
wait at there and cry like a baby?? =='''
*sigh*
i dont know...
i am searching the clues which can make life much more easier..
but i knew that people would always said : smile make life easier..
really?? is it dependable??
there is a big question mark in my heart, a question that people will never know..
because i have treasured it in the deepest place in my heart..
no one is gonna find out, what am i curious of...
friendship?? exam?? life?? personal matter?? or love??
just guess yourself..
anyway, i will just enjoy the life i am having right now...
and i should complain no more about this..
let the life keep going on its own..
and life doesn't always work out the way u want..
it was just like a boat..
sometime you can travel all around the world without any problem...
but sometimes, there is an enormous storms or waves which will turn the boat over..
well, that's the way it is...

_if i am given a choice_

if i am given a choice,
i wish that..
i would become a bird..
flying in the sky..
worry about nothing..

if i am given a choice,
i wish that..
i can travel all over the world..
and enjoy the happiness..

if i am given a choice,
i wish that..
my heart is gone missing..
so that i would love no one..

if i am given a choice,
i wish that..
i never met you..
so that my heart wouldn't feel itchy like this..

if i am given a choice,
i wish that..
i can have a special place in your heart..

if i am given a choice,
i wish that...
i can become the princess in your heart..
the most special one in your heart...

only that..
i don't have any choices..
but only stay calm at here..
and wait for you to seek for me..
now and forever...


written by _QiAnz_

_be appreciated_

today, i opened my mail box and checked whether my friends have send me something
or not..but then, i received a mail, a touching mail..

it is about people's attitude towards some issues..
well, let me tell you..
if you were complaining about you were unhappy about these and that,
why don't you think about other people??
do u think that you have any right to complained about this??
there were still many people who was more unlucky than you, but did you ever heard them to complain?? but instead they worked very hard in order to 'survive'..have you done this??
i guess no...but i know you are now non stop complained about it..

well, if you were complained about your parents were making you annoyed..
did you ever know that, some people in the corner of the world don't even have a chance to
speak with their parents or sibling?? why??if you asked me, my answer is
MAN-MADE DISASTER...

if you were still complained about this and that after you have read this article..
i think you are really cold blooded..don't ever think that you are the most unlucky people in the
world, they were still many people who faced the same problem with you..
if you have time to complain, why don't u use your brain to think a way to solve it??

=) PLEASE BE APPRECIATED

10-04-09 friday

the bookmark that i received =)

before going out lor =)

at da tou tie shop with yi ying

sorry, i know something has went wrong here..lol
actually this post was supposed to be down there, but i made it wrong already, anyway..
it' still the same thing isn't it?? =)

today went out with yi ying lor..we go watch cinema at parkson there =)
race to witch mountain..
a nice movie..=) and it was very touching when it goes to the end hehe almost cried out..
but i managed to hold my tears >< buy ="="''" hmm ="="'')">

Saturday 11-04-09

zi lian si =='''

at the airport toilet =x

today my big bro go to KL

a bit heavy hearted =(

no more laughter will be heard anymore when he went to KL

*sigh*

anyway, hope that he can finish his course successfully =)

jia you =)

my life is ruined ==

my life is totally ruined ==
ruined by homework, ruined by a lot of complained, my life sucks man ~ SUCKS~!!
i can tell you that, even in my dream, i will still dreaming that i am seating for PMR, pity me.,
very depressed.. ==
sigh, that stupid principle, still want to held a lot of seminal..
use your brain a bit okay, we can use the time to do our own revision, and not sitting in the music room and doing nothing..!! wth
i am totally speechless, my life is occupied by those no use thing..
everyday study study and study, but well, i have no argument with this since i like to study..
well what i don't like is wasting my time with those useless activities...
i hate it = =
and one thing i want to complain is my eye bag is getting bigger than before TT
wth..==

TT

_one-way flight_

hey, i come here again =)
this week was definitely is a tiresome week =( we have to study even for today =( that stupid principle, please used your brain a bit okay?? you are causing me going crazy!!!

okay, as you can see the title for today is one-way flight...well, it's not the flight i am talking about..
well, what i am talking about is love..
love is a one-way flight when you fall in love with someone you are not supposed to love..
love is a one-way flight when you love him/ her, he/she don't know about that..
love is just like one-way flight when you are broken hearted..

it was just like no matter how hard you try, no matter how big the crush is, there is no reward back at all, i mean NO REWARD BACK AT ALL..
especially, when you love him/ her, he/ she don't know about that, it was very painful and silly..but that's the way it is..=(

okay, that's all for today..erm, before i end this, don't forget to turn off the light today as well as the other electrical appliances..=) save the earth, for the sake of the earth and as well for the sake for your loves one =)

happy earth day..=)

_what's wrong with mie??_ =(

it's had been a long time didn't come here..
what can i do?? there's "thousand" of homework i have to finish..
sometime even have to burn the midnight oil =(
*sigh*..
luckily i have finished some of it..==v
found that i am a bit out of community..erm , i know my description is sucks, so please ignore it ==
get it what i said just now?? i said i am a bit out of community!!
sometime, somehow i feel that i want to be alone..i hate other people interrupt my world, i just want to be alone! but somehow the "taste" of being alone is not that bad =)

i love to do my homework alone, singing the song i like myself, hey don't think that i have mental problem ok?? i am NORMAL~~ don't ever misunderstand =)

each day passes in a blink of an eye =( PMR is coming soon..=( haiz

_first day after my birthday_

today, nothing special happened..
and then suddenly i felt like wanted to turn on the phone..
and then suddenly i received 7 messages..
haha..
the message was all about my birthday..
thx again to those who sent that..=)
Su fang, sharon, xiao bai, daphne and sze yin and still got two more i forgot le..==''' [thx =)]
hehe =) the happiest birthday ever..=)
yesterday Yuen Ting went to my house to return the disc that i have borrowed to her..
and she still remember my birthday, very unexpected lor..hehe =)
she gave me a small cake..nice ^^
thx ya Yuen Ting, best friends forever..=)

and today buzy doing my homework and projek..hehe..
and then 6pm like that, i went out of the house to have a day dreaming outside the house...><><'' very geli..hehe.. well, that's the activities for today..hehe.. _a nice and wonderful day_

_happy birthday to me_**thx friends, luv you all**

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME~~
hehez, i have grown one year older..^^ didn't receive any gift or present which is very expensive or made in any well-known brand, but instead i have received a lot of meaningful present and gift from my beloved friends, thanks friends, i really really appreciate it..i really do~^^


First, Corina, i want you to know that, thx friend..you were the first one who wished me happy birthday, you were the one who always said that:Qian, your birthday is just in the corner..and you were always the one who cheered me up whenever i feel sad, you were always the one who lead me to the light whenever i was trapped in the darkness, you were always the one who i would share my top secret with..thx, friend, you are my best best friends forever, since i was born, i really hope that there is a people who can understand me like you do, and you had fulfill what i wished for..=) thx..

second, to my beloved friends, kelly, Daphne, Mavis, Sze yin..=) thx for the lollipop, maybe for other people who don't know how to appreciate, it was just a small present and gift, but for me..i really like the lollipop, it was very meaningful to me...and i liked the flavor too,it tasted very sour and sweet..like our friendship..maybe sometime we quarrel,that's when it tasted sour, when we were happy, that's when is tasted sweet..i like the moment we share with each other, i like moment when we laugh together, when we study together, when we were gossiping together..and thanks for singing the birthday song outside the school, you guys really make my face blushed to red..hehe..=)friends, really love you...

at last, friends, i want to let you know that... friends, you are the apples of my eyes.. friends, you are the loving companions at all time.. friends, you are the people who always cheered me up.. friends, i want you to know that, when we graduate, i will remain fresh the memory we used to share with each other inside my heart, always and always..and there will always be some special places in my heart for you guys, for my beloved and trusted friends..=)
i won't forgot you guys..i will always remember you guys are the one who made my face blushed into red outside the school..although i didn't received many present like other people did..but one things for sure is, the gift and the wishes are surely the most meaningful things in my life..=)
although words cannot express what i feel now, but lastly, friends i would like to let you know that..
..THANKS FOR BEING MY FRIENDS..

_don't be too proud of it_

today
is a tired day..because today my school has organized a parent's day..
tiresome day..=(
feel a bit sleepy now..
erm..as the result for the parent's day..
i did some little improvement, and some of my subject result drop..=(
sigh, what a trouble..very bothering..=(
and i really hate ____
always treat other people like servant as though they are the richest, the purest, and they are elite..!!
don't be so proud of it..~!! you still don't know what actually happened in school..don't always looked down at people okey??not all people are born to be rich and beautiful..!!if i am given a choice, i wished i was born like that~!but what different is, we do not have to choice..this is the way we are since we were born, there is nothing you people can laugh at..><,beside have you ever hear that goodness is better than beauty..??so what if you were born rich and you have the beauty?it doesn't mean that you have the right to judge people with their appearance and laugh at them??of course you don't have the right..!!so its better you just shut your mouth tight and don't ever laughed at other people..!!
finally i feel a bit relieved after i said whatever i want to said~~

_a black friday_

today, it's totally a BLACK FRIDAY~
a lot of things happened...and i really frustrated~
love, friendship, study...and lots more...
very frustrating..=(

lots of people cry..
there is a scar carved on their heart..
and this a day we definitely won't forget..
struggled against your mind, friendship and as well as love...

i really can't take it anymore..
and during our difficult time..
there was a girl who is big mouthed really making me angry and disappointing!
how dare you made the things get even worse??
if there is anything happened to them..
and you!! are responsible for it...
thick face!~

someone help me please..

_daily activities for today_

today..same as usual..nothing specials happened..><><''haha.. today.. one of us have been missing....><><''ngek ngek..miss you much..~ =) haha..sorry ya for didn't reply your msg, my phone was out of credit..i haven't reload..sorry...>< =) hope you understand..erm.. for soi po=) :
today u asked me got any news in the school..well i already mentioned at the beginning of this article..haha, i forgot to bring my own T-shirt le..haha, and our form teacher already know the reason why you absent..but only that she haven't know the details of this problem..guess she will ask us tomorrow, and we have to tell her the truth..>< fine =")">钢管舞娘 aka the strip dancer~lolx, very funny isn't it..we all laughed until our stomach beh tahan..haha...^^lolx, she got her own "sexy"pose,different kind of poses o.. surely u will "nose bleed" if u see that...^^lolxx...hehe...=)

haha, thats the activities for today, i will keep on writing the daily activities everyday (if i have the time to do so..haha)don't forgot to view my blog everyday lor..=) miss ya..=)
p/s: i love sunset!! (lolx, i just wan to express wat i feel now, lolx, this doesn't related to with the things above..haha, crazy me><><)

**when one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.**

i'm not wishing for anything.....

i'm not wishing for anything..!!
i'm not wishing for your sympathize~
i'm not wishing for your love, i'm not wishing your caring, i'm not wishing for anything from you..
because you are just untrustworthy!!..

i don't even know whether there is a place SPECIAL for me in your heart..
time had gone, and you had change..a big change..
i'm not saying anything offensive, im telling the truth..!
when u are expecting something to happen, u will sooner realize that, you will disappoint more..
so..
i'm not expecting anything from u ever again..!!
yes, u can say me selfish..
so what being selfish?? human beings are selfish..!!
don't u dare to tell me day u don't behave selfish??of coz u did..
your words had crush me...my heart broke into pieces..
this is very discriminating,okey?? maybe you didn't realize what had you done on other people..
but this is a sin..but i'm not willing to tell you about what fault u have done..u gotta understand yourself..==~!!!
but i won't regret on my decision, since this is my final decision..
i won't interrupt your life again..you have your own dreams..i have my own life!
goodbye then.....forever..

``~~**++frustrated++**~~``

frustrated~
this few day is really boring...=(
study->tuition->revision->bedtime->call it a day =(
tired eh..haiz..
anyway, i enjoy my time at school with my friends
haha..
today, got a lot of funny material to talk about..haha..
my stomach is almost explode...><
and we also kepo with with others ppl matters..kepo =)
haha..
and what the hell is going on, they keep sending me some useless link in my msn..=(it's bothering..
haha, that day caught someone red handed, i know sometime that are not supposed to be know actually..
but anyway, i still not sure whether it is true or not...it's just my opinion, nothing serius..haha, mayb i am a bit too concern ler..haha..=)
okay, stop here..=) i am knocking off..haha..

x X QianZ X x

_情人节快乐_

情人节快乐 =）
祝大家有个浪漫又快乐的情人节哦。。
今天跟朋友在电话聊聊天
他生病了，最近很多人生病哦，连我也生病了。。
最近，考试弄到我们都很心烦
因为老师老是将我们跟别班比较，哎。。
因为考试都弄到心情不好，总有一种不好的预感 =(
最近都对未来有一种期待
即期待可是又害怕
因为在前面等着我们的， 不懂是美好的还是不好的。。
毕竟未来是不可预测的。。
每当遇到失败或不开心的事情的时候
人总是会灰心。。我想我也会一样。。
每当看见人家这样的时候，总会理直气壮的认为为什么要这样
可是当自己经历的时候才会知道真正的滋味
虽然会说服自己不可以这样，可是还是控制不了自己的想法
哎，真不懂这种感觉怎样才会消失
哎，人就是这样。。
生活到那么消极
倒不如活到开心一点 =)

加油

-lifes doesn't always work out the way u want-

today..our class are being compared with other classes again..=='''
"you guys are elite class, you don't call yourself as elite if other people come from other classes get higher marks than you.." yea, that's it, it just happened..==

"elite class must get straight A's"
"elite class must perform.."
"elite class must not let your teacher down.."
"u guys are really making me disappointing..."
elite, elite, elite and elite..
all elite, i think i should change my name already, u can call me elite then..!! ==''
we are humans, we need time to relax, we need time to study, we are not as perfect as u can think..and don't always count on us!!don't always expect things on us!!i know all the things school plan for us is for our own good, but can't you let us take a breath for a while~!!!

hate that i m in this class..haizz, i only can said that " lifes doesn't always work out that way" TT

_we come from different world_

today, a nice day for sure~ ^^ totally wicked~

but it just something bothering me..=(

tomorrow is already Chinese New Year, i really hope this matter won't be bothering me anymore, if i am given a choice, i hope i can erase my memory about this =(

well, maybe it is just my feeling, but how come i feel that, you are far away from me =(
something that aren't easily to approach =(
well, i know u got a lot of friends, but do you treat me as a friend too, it's not like i want to angry with you, the matter is : do you really treat me as your friend?? (i feel very sad about it)

i am persuading me i shall forget about this, but my stupid mind just won't let it be..=(
at least you tell me what happen to you, are u angry with me i wonder..
if YES please tell me i beg you , if NO please tell me too..=(

someone please help me =(

well, maybe we come from different world, different life~ =( i am always the one who being abundant, am i always the one who eat dust =(

_wicked_

ahahahahaha!!! wakakakakaka!! muahahahaha!!
two days more~~Chinese New Year is arriving~ LOL =)

Gong Xi Fa Cai~ ^^
hmm, just finish having my dinner and straight away on9 =) of coz i already take my bath =)
today got a bit tired and a bit too rush, come back from school, relax a while, and the take shower, and then prepared my stuff and books, and then accompany my mom go fetch my sis and straight away go tuition~ 2pm-6pm TTv tomorrow still got tuition, hehexx..
==''shit, cannot log in the game..=='' wth..

today, it's a different day somehow..guess what..hehex our class is celebrating the JANUARIAN (lol, our class word, yea, that's us, creative,lol)~and we all celebrate together with teacher, haha, Thank You very much to our form teacher ^^ gotta study hard to pay back for teacher, lol..=)

something is perplexing me ~ =( but don't know how to explain, it just something boring, and, you know, it just boring, that is, its all i can explain..=)
anyway, hope this problem will go out from my mind and stop bothering..

TT still haven't recover from the incident..heart aching.. TT

totally disappointed..

nothing special happen during this few day. Study, study and study, nothing else than that.
and i feel a bit disappointed with someone..

well, it's a long story, something unhappy...
it was a misunderstanding, no one know what actually was happening behind the truth..(except for somebody who witness the whole thing happen)
and i was the who who being blamed now..
it's not like i want to proof that i ain't the wrong one..
but i was totally totally disappointed, totally totally disappointed...

and the others, can do whatever they want to, this is just unfair, totally unfair! unacceptable!
i hate it, there is no justice in the world, the world is cruel..i am living in the darkness now, i am very ashamed eventhough im not the wrong 1..

i hate it!

chinese new year is just in the corner~!! ^^

yeah~chinese new year is driving nearer~ ^^ wakakaka~

i had helping my mom for two day~lolx, guess what, i was trying to help her to do some cakes, and biscuits~ looks like i can be a "professional" chef already, lol, just joking anyway~

now studying Geography, while waiting for the video to loading~lol, nice idea eh, lol, u can relax for while, and no need to worry about the homework..lolx~

a bit boring this few day, doing nothing at home, being a lazy pig..study, sleeping, watching drama, online~thats all...

yesterday was raining cat and dog, the whole day was just kept raining, some of the places in Miri even flooded~but luckily my house wasn't like other place, it still safe so far, lol, hopr nothing dangerous will ever happen, and now the sky is turning "black", looks like it is going to rain again..TT and the wind is blowing so strong, i think if i ask my little sis standing out side, i guess the wind will blow her away, lol (try to imagine it)lol..better don't let my little sis find out that im talking about her, she definitely will chop my head down..lol..

ok, gtg now, wish me good luck for the stupid diagnostik test..lol..

bye~

_reLaxing_

been a bit busy this few day, after come back from school, and then i have to straight away take my shower, cause i need to accompany my mom fetch my little sister, guess what, i even having my dinner inside the car, lol, it's your fault (my little sis),lolx, im just kidding anyway..and then after fetch her from school, i need to go tuition...=='''

just imagine u have to do this everyday, it is extremely tiring~!! =='''
and guess what now??i am falling sick~!! well, it's not a big matter anyway, i always falling sick..== lol...

im seating for PMR this year, the pressure all over my head..=( BLOODY HELL~
and then i wonder WHAT THE HELL is happening to my school, just come back form school and then we have to seat for the stupid diagnostik test, what the hell, it is causing me a lot of pressure..==''stupid school and stupid rule..we have no time to prepare for this!!and guess wha some of our classmate try to remember the past year's test answer, and i guess they will get a higher mark than before, this is just so unfair...!!==

its weekend today, so i will relax a bit while i can, and then after the test have finish ,i definitely will buy an ice-cream for myself..lolx..

再见，2008……farewell~

再见了，2008~
一个对我充满意义的一年~
这一年，发现自己做了很多很多的傻事，
比如说老师在骂人，结果自己还在那边傻笑~还有，跟朋友们讲笑话，笑到像个疯婆子~
总之，有很多很多值得纪念的事情都在这一年发生……
老师离开，去别地教书~这几天，都一直想到六年级毕业的事情，事情都过了两年，可是现在想起来好像是昨天才发生的事情，只可以说时间过得真得太快了，哈哈，我一时之间都还接受不了，2008年已经成为过去式的了~今天还差点以为是2008年呢~ ==老糊涂~

新的一年，新的自己，要对去年那幼稚的自己说再见了，新的一年，就要好好的读书（好像老头子说话似的），今年要考哦PMR乐。不努力一点是不行的~是时候为为自己的未来着想~

2008~再见了~

-lazy pig- =)

hehe...today same again..just "trapped" inside the house and do nothing as usual..=)
hehe..my mom got go out today, but i decide to stay at home and do nothing, except for watching MYSTERIOUS INCREDIBLE TERMINATOR at youtube..hehe...OMG, the whole series is getting more excited and interest than i expected~ =p

then after that, i continue watching the Korean Drama that i had watched yesterday...XD...
still got 1 week to enjoy, then i have to study very hard..TTv..goodbye my precious holiday..
my uncle and my grandfather come to Miri yesterday..hehexx..
n my stupid sis get her phone..and this is just soooooooooo unfair and unacceptable~~
she get a phone and her phone is better than mine..TT..~
haiz.. nvm then, i'm very satisfied already..hehexx...

and i already finish reading the stupid BM novel...but still got some part im still very blur and not so remember about it...nvm then, as long as i already finish my "task"...
and still got 1 task haven't finish, my English holiday assignment~...
gosh, i just start to do it today..but will the teacher still remember that she had given us a holiday assignment before the holiday..you know..err..well, sometime the teacher is forgetful, so should i just leave it aside and continue enjoy my holiday before the holiday end?hmm, it's better i just finish it, this is for my own sake...==besides, if the teacher really forget about it, nevermine then, at least i can know a bit about what the story is actually about...haha..

gtg now~ bye~

-tired-

today..wake up quite early...TT
because Christmas and new year is just in the corner..
so i have to help my mom to clean the house..
being a free charge kakak for this whole day..lol..XD

it's so tired..but then we only spend 2 hours like that to clean the house..i'm sweating like i juz coming back from swimming..XD..
hooray, no need to wake up so early tomorrow..lol..
*sigh* i didn't even read the BM novel for this whole holidays..
dugong surely will scold me this time..
no idea..will read it later..but feel so lazy to do it..
i have no interest in the novel, but still have to read it..or else, i think i'm gonna fail in my exam...

yesterday kept telling ghost story during tuition class..
lol..trying to scared the small kid inside the classroom, but i'm afraid the principle will scold me, so i just kept quiet and doing my homework...and listened to the teacher's ghost story..got 1 story was really horrible, and it just happened to one of the student which was also the student of the tuition center, but he/she is in night class one...-.-

the story is like this, the student went to Tanjung Lubang (one of the Miri's beach)..and it was sunset at that time..then the student want to take the photo of the sunset before he/she went home..and then something horrible happened..!! ><'''the student used his/her handphone to take the photo, and the when the image come out, something that are not supposed to be in the picture come out..guess what??? inside the photo there was a head floating at there and the things seems like want to hug the student or whatever i don't know..my gosh..!!bloody hell..-.-'''..and then the student wanted to delete the photo but the she/he cant, she/he kept pressing the 'delete' button, but it didn't worked at all...almost one week like that he/she trying to delete the photo, but it just didn't worked..(bloody hell..)then the student just threw away the phone..*end of the story* well, for me this is just...u know, enough to make me cry 4 a whole day, no, three days i guess...this is just..you know..unbelievable...><

and after that...me and my primary friend Yuen Ting, keep talking about instrumental and music..this is the topic we can discuss for whole time during the tuition period..haha..XD..she said that she want to bring her keyboard to my house and learn together like that..haha..my pleasure..^^but don't know when will she come to my house...feeling very excited..hehe..because i never learn to play a piano or keyboard before..XD...hehezz...got to go now..and i smell some unpleasant smell..yuckxx.. ==''~bye~

X x Lovez, Qianz x X

untitled again..=)

a very nice day though i just staying at home for this whole day...^^
hmm...wake up at 8am like that..and then having laksa as my breakfast..yummy..=)
and then watched MYSTERIOUS INCREDIBLE TERMINATOR..hehe..MY GOD..Aaron is so hot~..=)..next episode is getting more excited..^^

and then..have a long chat with my childhood best friend..she want to cut her hair short..hehe..i bet it must be very nice..she is natural pretty 1..hehe...*sigh*the holidays almost end, still not enough eh..wish this holiday never end, then i no need to face with school, uncountable homework, teacher and that stupid principle..=='''

been worrying about my future a lot during this holidays..3 years later i'm gonna finish my secondary life and achieve my own dream..doubt that whether i can do it or not..u know, it seems like impossible..i don't have self confidence, this is why i don't like myself..hope myself can be more braver than i was..TTv..

Christmas is just in the corner..Merry X'mas to you all~all of my friends..have a nice and sweet Christmas with your dearest one and happy always~ *HAPPY GO LUCKY*
keep smiling and happy everyday then you will be more lucky..hehe...

X x Lovez, QianZ x X

my own world...

this is what i am talking about..this is my dream house, this is the place i like!! full of grasses, but i would like the house be more simple, a wooden house of course..^^well, I DO NOT OWN THIS PICTURE NOR THE HOUSE..and i like this picture so much..and this is my dream house..^^its like you can have a peace when you live here..haha..^^i juz love it..^^

Sashiburi desu~being a lazy pig just now..haha... hmm..nothing important happen currently...just feeling a bit out of mind... lol...yesterday learned Science chapter 4 about reproduction one.. lolx...want to laugh whenever i read this chapter but i don't dare...well, you know..its like don't respect our body..haha.. ^^v peace~ a bit tired now..just back from tuition and practice my violin skill just now...hehe.. now the thing i want to do the most is lie on the ground which is full of flower and grass and look at the sky...the fresh air approach my skin..looking at the bird flying freely..wow..it must be very nice...**i've been imagine i doing this a lot of time...**sigh, but there is no place like this in Miri..TT when i grow up..i want to live at the place which flowers are planted all around the house..^^ like the place where Bella live..haha..this is the life i want..no war and peace...but izzit impossible to find a place like this??i mean, now the world is no longer peaceful already...when we were enjoying our life, somewhere in this world, maybe something bad is happening...like people lost the people they love the most...or maybe war is happening somewhere around the world...our world can't be definitely peace..once we still desire for something, war will still happen.. hmm..thinking about which country or place i want to travel the most..haha..of course Japan is the 1st 1 in my heart..haha..then Scotland, England, Paris,Texas,Greece, Italy, Glasgow, Africa(well, i like here coz a lot of animal live at africa~yea~i want to see elephant..^^), Australia (Sydney), Korea, Taiwan..wow..a lot of place eh..lolx..not sure whether i have enough budget to travel to these place or not..lolx..gotta work hard eh..and find a nice occupation for myself..^^ ok..got to go now..bye~
Xx Lovez, QiAnZ..xX

what hurts the must~ **Cho Chang and Cedric Diggory**

hehezz..my favourite scene in harry potter and the goblet of the fire...cedric was having a dance with cho chang..^^.Hermione was dancing wif Viktor Krum at the back there..hehezz...

yes~a day passed again...~ ^^
today..my mom is going out to buy my sister's book ..i didn't went out~
guess why??hehe..coz wan read harry potter and the goblet of fire~ ^^
i skip reading prisoner of azkaban coz i oredy read it b4..n i feel very rush 2 read it..
but in this episode..my most favourite character- Cedric Diggory died~ TT
it was very sad~ eventhough he was just the minor character in this series..but i reli admire him very much..hehe...well one of the reason is he is so handsome..n im the big fans of cedric and cho chang~ ^^ they look so adorable together..sweet and cute..but unfortunately something happened in the end..sad...**tears**

i watched a lot of cho chang and cedric video in youtube..
im having my tears come out a lot of time whenever i watched the video..TT
this is really pity...TT

it must be REALLY SAD if someone u love was dead...separate with you...
TT..my heart is aching right now...TT...feel so sad now...

owh..it is so romantic..when cedric was having a dance with cho chang during the yule ball...
i hv the pic up there.....some scene i really like it...hehezz..i think when i watch haary potter and the goblet of fire..i think i will cry until my eyes turn red..like rabbit..i hate it..when the characters tat i like died in a movie..this is really painful eventot i wasnt happen in real life..but i juz hate it..i dun think any1 will like it..

what hurts the most by cascada (a really nice song..down there was part of the lyric i think is meaningful 2 me and 2 cedric and cho...TTv)

what hurts the most
was being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
and never knowing
what could have been
and not seeing that loving you
is what i was trying to do

and having so much to say
and watching you walk away.....
(this sentence reli make me heart broken..oucch...my heart is aching..) TT

TT...tears is coming out now... TT

_the latest me_

well..found out myself is a bit different from b4..so..nothing 2 do...writing down a list about me..c how im different from b4..hehexx~..

** i like~ **
-laughing-
-smiles-
-family-
-friends-
-money^^ (well..i like moneys..^^hehezz..i admit..)-
-hot chocolate-
-double chocolate-
-chocolate with mint-
-my idols-
-all Harry Potter books-
-day dreaming a lots-
-laugh with no reason..maniac-
-gossip-
-spying ppl-
-hang out wif friends-
-lying on the bed n imagine something-
-lying on the bed and read books, play with my sutff-
-play violin (i enjoyed doing this a lot..whenever i feel angry..oni music can lower my bad temper) =p)
-play psp-
-play ps2-
-messaging-
-listening 2 radio / song-
-twilight=) -
-new moon-
-playing at beach and shout-
-sunset-
-sky-
-ocean-
-windy day / rainy day-
-love spring-
-love korean drama,hong kong drama, taiwanese drama, japanese drama-


** I hate~ **
-people ignore me-
-ppl don't reply my msg / call (eventot sumtime i do so..hehe..)-
-war-
-boredom-

** I cry~ **
-when the characters tat i like died in a movie-
-when sum1 i love is leaving-
-when i watch touching movie / reading touching story-
-imagine something sad-
- my mom scold me terribly-


tats the latest me..hehe..easygoing..easy get mad..easy went upset..XD no offense~

_boredom is killing me_

feeling a bit tired now~juz now helped my mom 2 do some house work~...
my bro keep on calling me 2 help her...shit..i was reading HARRY POTTER AND THE CHAMBER OF SECRET on tat time..until chapter sixteen i guess..coz forgot oredy..THE HEIR OF SLYTHERIN~^^hehezz..cant take my eye off harry potter XD...addicted~ wakakaka~..==..laugh like a maniac..lolx..

hmm...yi ying juz arrived at kuching yesterday around 7.12pm like tat..
hmm..i was on9 on tat time...n searching 4 some information about artist..hehezz...i search a lot about robert pattinson~..hehezz..he look more handsome in TWILIGHT~ XD...but no chance 2 watch it..pity me...

hmm...wonder wat r otherz doing right now?? watching tv? hang out wif frenz?? spying ppl?? (well..i enjoyed doing tiz...n i hvt do tiz 4 ages..hehezz)well...watever...realize tat i grow fat a lot during tiz holiday~...should exercise regularly..or else..haha..i guess u all noe wat i mean~.. =p
my leg grow twice amount than usual ppl hv~..my gosh...dun wan 2 become goyle in harry potter..TT

wonder will some1 was thinking about me during tiz time..haha...no offense...
thinking about sumthing tat never ever will bcum true..well..i like 2 imagine..same word..no offense...hmm..i bet it muz b veli bitter when u luv sum1 hu u shouldnt love...

well...i been through tiz b4..veli sour..bitter..but somehow got abit sweet~ ^^


hehezz...gtg now...^^

love,
_QiAnZ_

FREAK out of my life ~ u weirdo!!!

shit~things unlike i expected....u weirdo ..juz FREAK out of my life!!!
bet u never appear in my life...
so wat..primary 3 until primary six ...the things we been through this all...seems like doesnt important 2 u..so wat m i looking for...no reward back!!! worry 4 nothing!!! its not worth!!! for wat im doing tiz..!!! for nothing !!!

hate u forever...oh yeah..u got u own friends...so old friends doesn't important 2 u anymore..
HAHA..i reckon tat u never treat me as ur friends..u b*tch...
better dun c u...hate u...hope tat i never ever meet u..
friends u cant live without..?? theres nothing u can predict in future..well...things owez don go like the way we wish for...drop off the thing u dun wan...n den choose a new 1 again~ hate!!!...F*ck off...!!!! better dun appear in front of me...

someday ur friends will suffer like me... !!!
what on earth are u thinking of !!! a qian jin dao xiao jie hu dont even noe how 2 use bas...dun u feel ashamed for urself!!! weirdo~!!!

a NICE~ WONDERFUL day~

hehez..today go out wif my dar all them~ ^^
we din go watch movie~ coz fang wan work~lolx..Daphne~im soli about tiz.still tot mayb i can tell u abit bout the story~hehezz..nvrm..plan 2 buy the cd~XD...i met yuen ting at the ground floor..then we go 2 shop 2 c whether got things 2 buy or not..hehezz..
about 11pm like tat...cai en call me said her and fang arrive ler..hehexx..
den we go union bookshop meet wif them..hehezz...cai en ask me whether she can hug me or not..n den we hug each other..she hug me till veli tight..seems like she veli miss me..XD
n den we go xiao mu chuan there buy drinks n sit at there n GOSSIP..lolx...
most of our topic is about XX de ler..hahah~XD...try 2 guess if u can..XD..hehezz.n den i share my sad things wif themm..hehexx..n den they all misunderstood me..WAKAKA~~tiz is so funny..hehezz..they misunderstood tat i like a wrong guy~..hehezz...veli funny o...till the veli the end they all suddenly realize they misunderstood ler..XD...funny dao si...XD..wonderful day..
n den we go take da tou tie..but b4 tat we all go toilet 1st~n den take some pic inside the toilet~hehezz....i look super duper ugly in the pic~ TT
n den we go take da tou tie lor...after tat having lunch at the food court there...we meet hui ying~~miss her so much..she didnt change at all....she work at union shop there..hehezz...she ask us whether can go out on 1/1/09 or not..coz tat day she go back 2 bintulu ler..TT...she is soo hardworking...hehezz..^^
having a nice lunch at food court~cai en and fang eat fried noodle..n den me and yuen ting eat salad chicken rice~nice~im so full..hehezz...haiz..its pity sze wen come so late..su fang ady last night told her we oni go boulevard..but she go imperial mall..=='''about 2pm like tat she arrive lor..hehezz..then we go play game...hehezz...i like 2 play cooking master 2~..nice~..hehe..

about 3pm like tat i go home lor...n den me n yuen ting oso got buy some ji nian ping b4 back home..its a cute ring..we buy it at SINMA~hehezzz...quite she bu de.~~TT..hehezzz...today is the BEST day in my life~

**BEST FRIENDS FOREVER~**

frustrated~ TT

whooa... long time din update my blog lw..
currently feel very tired.. TT becoz of an unexplainable reason..
juz feel tired becoz of nothing..ceh..feel like im a weirdo.. TT..

yesterday sumthing change my life..hehexx..guess wat??
lolx..try 2 guess if u can...wakakaka~...din expect this thing will ever happen in my life...hehexx..
haiz...yesterday my mood got abit weird la..sumtime happy sumtime angry..dun noe oso..mayb i need 2 consult a doctor lw.. P/S: mental doctor..lolx..i guess i am having a severe mental problem..hehexx..mayb will go rambutan soon..XD

when i feel angry i will do sumthing tat are not supposed 2 be done..dun like 2 sms or toking on tat time..
juz wan 2 be alone myself..n ppl better dun disturb me..or else mayb i will do sumthing tat will eventually HURT u...
well cant helped oso..hu ask me hv tiz weird behaviour???but will change tiz attitude 1..
dun worry...

realize tat..sum1 hu u rely on so much..doesnt like wat u expect...wat i think b4 wasnt correct at all..n i will ask myself dun b so kepo..!!i think tat me in ur heart muz b veli important..but it juz wasnt like wat i think..hah...wat izzit call?? destiny?? fate??or traitor..
well..no need 2 explain so much...juz b myself..and no need 2 kepo so much...u've got sum1 much more important than me~


SIMPLE IS THE BEST ~ yeah..going out tiz friday wif shy hui~ su fang (my dear)~ cai en (my lover..lolx..quite rou ma hor..lolx..XD)..annie can go wor..miss her so much~ TT

hehexx..feel so excited now..tiz is wat BEST FRIENDS called~..yeah cheerss~

P/S: to daphne if u read my blog..yeah im going 2 watch TWILIGHT tiz friday..hehexx...im feeling so good now..feel pity 4 u~ dun b sad...if cannot watch we all go buy a twilight cd 4 u..hehexx...4 a christmas present 4 u??how do u think?? XD (but hv 2 c whether got sell the CD or not..^^)..lolx..i noe u're the biggest fans of edward n bella..wakaka~

~无题~

假期真的很闷的说~
除了去补习之外, 真的没什么事情好做叻..可是读书的时候又盼望假期的到来..
假期来了, 却又嫌闷..XD
最近朋友都没来找我~都是我找他们~几可怜一下~.. TT
不过还好有老朋友~ 他们有时都会send一些好笑的信息给我..
哈哈..谢啦~ 祝我们友情不变~ ^^ 友情万岁~ ^^
记得有一次被朋友的信息给骗了..XD..都怪我没吧信息看完..出丑~ XD
哈哈..明年就要考试了, 虽然说还有时间做准备..不过还是会有一点点的紧张..TT

时间过得真快, 不知不觉, 明天就要迎接十二月的到来..真是快到不能再快..
我已经从小学毕业两年了, 快吧..小学所发生的一切, 就好像昨天才发生一样, 可是那已经是几年前的事了..
该说些什么呢??那时的时间真的很快乐, 有事情大伙儿们一起分享..
很想念那时的日子, 虽然那时不怎么喜欢级任老师, 不过跟朋友在一起的每一天..
几乎都是在欢笑声中渡过~..现在, 每个人都朝着自己的方向走去...
以前的日子..不知道还会有没有人记得??? TT

现在不能怀念过去, 只能往前看...只能期盼明天是美好的一天...
只要心中期盼是美好的, 相信明天将会是美好的一天..加油~...

气死我!!!

什么嘛~什么鬼补习中心..真是的..我呸~!!
真是气死我..只不过是玩个电话罢了..
有必要发那么大的脾气吗??
神经婆~!!!
大班的人玩不见得你去骂!!
根本是胆小鬼..
我根本不怕你~~ 要骂就骂咯..
讲话问问题都不可以..~!!
简直霸道到顶点~~~!!!

气死我!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

untitled~ XD

it has been a long time didn't update my blog ady..lol~
currently veli buzy~ buzy of tuition~ TT
anyway..i learn a lot of things too....need 2 study heard for my PMR next year..
time will never wait 4 us..TT
i hope i can have a time machine..lol...
but it oni happen in my dream..lol...
yeah~~next month mayb can go out wif my fwenzz..~^^
happy happy~ long time no c ler..
can meet next month..hehexx...
erm...i decided 2 gib up ady...gib up my hopeless dream...
there is a lot of thing we can do~ cant admit tat life is reli painful without love~
but i will go on living even wif the pain..
+ u + u~

^^

不一样的一天..^^

今天真的很不一样..我也不知道是哪里不一样..就是感觉很不同就是了..哈哈..^^
早上起来时..就赶快准备好一切需要的东西..然后差不多9点那样从家里出发...
哈哈...到了之后..我发现tanjung跟之前真的很不一样了..应该是涨潮的关系吧...
然后就进行一连串的游戏..该死的, 我被要求扮猴子要小便的样子..=.='''
我的天, 没办法, 只好照做..==我的形象完全毁了..TT
daphne还在海边拾到一个很大很大的蚌呢!!真的很稀奇呢..
那个蚌就在我的前面, 不过那时是被泥土覆盖着, 然后眼镜锐利的daphne 看到了..
这么大的地方既然给他找到了, 还真的很幸运..哈哈..之后我也有找到一个..
不过是小小个的, 差很多.. =='''
今天英文老师本来要来的...不知怎么到后来就没来了, 信息给他也没有回...不知道发生什么事...哈哈..
之后呢, 我还看到一个心形的叶子呢, 拍照留做纪念..呵呵..我们还在海滩上写了 :老师 I Love You ~
并拍了下来, 打算E给老师看...哈哈...^^算是给老师一份礼物..^^
然后呢, 我还有在海边许愿了呢...许愿方式是采恩叫我的, 还记得那年我们才六年级, 是她交我的许愿方式..^^谢谢你...
呵呵..希望我心中的那个愿望会实现..^^然后呢, 下午的时候, 海风真的很凉~
吹着吹着..让我想起了一些伤心事..说起来也不算是伤心事啦..只是事情是没有发生在我身上..
事情总是发生在你的意料之外的.. TT..
唉...在这里怨天尤人也是没有用..一切只是看缘分了...

好了, stop here~改天再来..bye..

**world is cruel, love is blind, lost in sadness, blur in mind..heart is broken, flame had died, time has passed but why is he....still not mine....**

老师..保重~!! TT

昨天去了老师的欢送会...原以为自己不会哭的..
哪里知道自己确在要回家的时候, 第一个哭的就是我自己..TT 我自己也控制不了, 眼泪要掉就让它掉, 可是想不到我会在我朋友里面第一个先哭..TT 要回家的时候, 老师还给我一个大大紧紧的拥抱,
就在那时候, 我脑子里想到的是: 几时我还能在次得到这样的拥抱..TT
就这样我哭了..TT..还有最近的心里很乱啊..我真的不知道我该怎么办???
我会对他动心是因为他长得像他吗??可是我是不应该这么做的啊!!!哎哟...乱死了..!!!

今天的时候, 才发现..一直以来跟我们感情很好的数学老师也要转去另一个学校了..
什么嘛!!根本就不公平!!为什么对我们很好的老师一个一个都要去别的地方~!!!
我不要!!!可是..该走的的还是要走..要留的还是要留...
我们无法挽回..只能珍惜我们之前美好的回忆... TT老师我会永远记得你们!!!
你们永远是我心中最好的老师!!! 我会永远永远永远永远 记得你们~~ TT

今天是放假之前的最后一天...朋友们都哭到好惨..之后..大概是眼泪流干了, 就不大有眼泪了..
老师们!!你们要保重啊!!! 一定不要忘记我们哦!!

明天要去班的class party了..很期待..因为打算给老师们最后的礼物... ^^
好啦就此停笔..还是一句 : 老师珍重~

要放假了~XD

今天真的是超级闷的一天..一整天都是那个什么ceramah..厚..真的是不耐烦!!!==
真不想去学校..甘愿去帮老师的忙也不要去听那个无聊的讲座会...!! =.='''
然后..最近发现某某老师很针对我..
哼..她要针对就针对..反正班长又不是我要当的..
最多明年不要当咯大不了..==..我不稀罕!!!
每一次我做事情你没有看到..我没做工的时候..就当我是一整天没有做工样..!!
算了..你要针对就给你针对..反正我又不会少一块肉~~...
明年绝对绝对绝对不当班长了...当了不见得有好的回报~ ==
消气消气....~~
拜四要去老师家哦..欢送会..说真的很舍不得华语老师..虽然老师有时是对我们是过分了一点..
不过一日为师, 终生为师...她还是我们的老师~老师...一路顺风~千万不要忘记我们啊!!! TT

这个拜六要去班级BBQ了..很期待哦..因为好久好久没有去海边了..呵呵..双鱼座的地方~^^
可以在我喜欢的海滩上玩了..不过..如果是跟我喜欢的人去的就更好~^^

哈哈..目前专心读书就是了~..
好了..就此停笔~希望明天会更好~^^加油~

friends....

while we were the same smiles,
we passed through the years together,
the sceneries kept changing
and we struggled to accept it....

I throw away my useless pride..
may kindness come to this world..

I gotta say
friends..if i show off my bravely and my strength..
i cant survive alone..
our promise from that day..
it remains firmly in my heart..even now...

new encouner come after each farewell..
i find light down a new path, and move on...
since that day i was born..
that has been the way my life is molded..

through the changing seasons, and this fleeting moment,
i listen to this nostalgic melodies..
even when i become an adult..
some things won't fade~
like our precious memory..^^


its not my creation anyway..hehexx..its a japanese song..which is sang by a quite popular singer--stephanie..
the lyric is so meaningful..so i just write it in my blog..thx 4 my frenz hu owez cheer me up when i'm very down..^^thx fwenz..

痛~!!! TT

今天..起身时...腰真的是痛得要命...
==..故事得从昨天下午六点时说起...补习好了..
就跟朋友从楼梯那边下去..然后..那个楼梯不懂有什么东西湿湿滑滑的..
结果我脚踩下去时, 可能是太滑的原故..结果从楼梯那边摔了下来..!!!我的天!!
结果我的屁股就"代替"我的脚帮我 '下' 楼梯..真的是痛死我也!!!
如果无法想像我跌倒的样子, 就请你想像那个笨重的大象从楼梯滚下来的样子..虽然跌倒了, 我还得走路回家..
真不知道我这是什么命!!!回家的时候..跟妈妈说我跌倒的事情..
结果!哼~他自己也在那边笑!!真是气死我啦~~TT
不过虽然如此..我自己也在那边笑..哈哈..因为自己跌倒的过程真的很好笑..结果自己也跟妈妈一起笑起来..
=='''beh tahan..哈哈...我就是那种会自己笑自己的大笨蛋..哈哈..发觉自己真的很蠢...哈哈....
啊..我的腰又痛了起来...TT
今天不大有心情帮老师做东西..都在那边坐着睡觉..因为我的腰又痛了..不能做工啦..勉强做一点还可以啦..
然后今天他真的很幼稚在spbt room玩企躲猫猫..不过他跟他的朋友的躲功还真的很利害..
真的很难找到他们叻...==哈哈..幼稚又可爱..呵呵...
之后在接近放学的时间时..我们玩了一个新的游戏..叫做"杀手"...
很像是他自己自创的游戏还是什么我不大清楚...
结果在里面我的牌是spiderman..在这里面我的工作是猜谁是杀手..
结果我随便乱猜..杀手真的给我猜出来..哈哈..这还是我第一次跟他说那么多话呢..
心中真的很快乐..
以前..我心中期望的很多..结果我什么也得不到..
其实, 当你不再要求那么多时, 你会慢慢发现, 你得到的越来越多..
其实跟他做朋友也很快乐...^^

深海的孤独

现在真的很烦啊!!!
这件事藏在自己的心底就好..可是我越不去想, 确克制不了自己..我就越来越想去想..
越想就越气, 越想就越恨, 越想就越讨厌...
真不想待在这个学校了!!讨厌...
没人好倾诉..只好在这里发泄好了..
自己越来越少写日记了..因为懒惰动笔...唉...
最近要减肥了..放假的时候要勤跑步了.不然的话就会变成大肥婆了...(现在就已经是了..歹势哈哈..==''')

唉, 真想到海边一趟发泄一下...=(
起码海边没有那么的残酷, 会静静地聆听你的诉苦...唉~
听过一首歌...叫做深海的孤独..(一首日本歌来的)
深海, 往往是个神秘的地方..然而就算科技再发达, 人们也不会选择在海洋里面居住..
因为人们向往的是天空, 而不是海洋....
久而久之,海洋就变的孤独...可是我就是喜欢海洋...我喜欢它的篮, 喜欢它的孤独...
我也不知道为什么..就是很喜欢..没有理由的喜欢..
大概是它跟我很像吧....

恨!!!!!!

恨!!!!

**生病了**

今天不知道是走什么运...既然生病了..
今年生病很多次了..!!!我的天..不知道我的身体是干嘛啦~~
今天那个颁奖典礼真的是很闷..我都快闷死了...又不能看到他..真的是闷上加闷...=='''
昨天在彩排的时候...想不到中途会看到他哦..我真的是乐翻天了..
因为我还以为他回家了..哪里知道..他是放学的时候..跟他的好朋友..
去吃好东西之后..就一直待在我家..! 他跟他的朋友在我家玩psp叻...呵呵..
爽死我..可是他的psp是白色的..我的确是黑色的...哈哈...不过不用紧...黑白配嘛..==我在干嘛..
发花痴啊我..

呵呵..今天朋友跟他的男友吵架了..==
唉..恋爱真的很辛苦..他的男友太过分了啦..一直强迫我的朋友..
明明那时的状况就不allowed啊...还要强迫人家...根本就不会体量人家嘛...

该与不该???

今天真的是累坏了~TT帮老师贴叠书绑书绑到累到要死~
下午的时候还有那个彩排..==累上加累..呵呵...
可是累归累..开心的事情也有发生呵呵~
今天他把我的名字念到难听得要死...==
哈哈..可是很高兴他有机会看见我的名字...开心~^^
呵呵...
今天朋友喜欢的人有来哦..
他高兴的要死...
可是在他的blog里面..看见他说在中五毕业之前..绝不碰爱情这个东西...
可是..你真的能办得到吗??
想爱一个人勇敢的去爱..何必束缚自己呢??不会觉得很痛苦吗??这真的很值得吗??
也许在这个过程中你会觉得很苦很伤心...因为这是逼经的道路啊..我自己也想清楚了..我不会再抱怨他没有看我..我不会了..^^真的真的...因为毕竟是我单方面的单恋..
可是如果这是你所选择的道路..我也不会逼你不要走..
毕竟这是你的选择..我没权干涉...刚刚那一些只是我心里想对你说的一些话...
总之..一句话..加油...

幸福~开心~^^

今天真的很开心~昨天去了庆工宴到今天为止还是很开心喏~^^
呵呵,食物都很好吃~可是吃到一半就饱了~呵呵..现在想起那时的食物还会肚子锇~
呵呵...有人情果初开哦....呵呵, 真的很意外她会喜欢上他...
他给我的第一个印象应该是个很有艺术天分的男生..有点幼稚 (哈哈偶尔啦)
不过..无论如何, 你都要加油啊..不要因为一点小挫折就要放弃~!!加油加油~
我知道你可以的..呵呵..自己的幸福自己寻找~^^
祝你幸福快乐~^^


呵呵..昨天玩游戏的时候, 女生输给男生了~丢脸丢脸~
我最喜欢玩抢椅子的那一个~
因为c也有在里面哦~
呵呵..他是中途才加进去玩的..
玩到一半的时候..主持人说要换位子..一男一女~吓到我~卡卡~
然后就不偏不正他就坐在我的前面..我的天我快要飞上天堂了.!!
我的心跳那时加速, 真的好象快要跳出来了呢...
我跟他坐在一起时, 还不小心跟他磨擦肩膀了呢..
虽然只是这样..可是我已经很开心了..
我朋友说他一直看着我..可是..是真的吗..也许他是在看别的女生呢也说不定...
我不知道我该不该采取任何的行动我怕我会吓到他..以后连朋友都没有得做..
我该怎么办~

考试考完了~!!!

考试终于考完了!!!
爽死我~
呵呵~!!XD

今天真的不懂是不是我的灰色日子~
怎么都那么soi啊!!
现是朋友因为那个问题而被老师叫到办工室..
看到他哭的样子,伊莹都哭了...
我没有哭..因为如果我也哭了, 那么就没有人安慰他们...
所以我坚持不哭...

可是话说的好听..
到头来我还是忍不住掉眼泪~TT
我自己也不能控制..
看见自己的好朋友在哭..
自己也不能无动于衷啊...然后呢,就是扯铃表演的事情..
老师真的太过分了啦..又不是我们自己自愿要表演的..
结果一进来就破口骂人...难道你自己都不能用好好的口气说话吗???
真的好气哦~~!!!我们也是人耶...又不是你手中操从的傀儡...
没办法,只好硬着头皮去表演好了..虽然表演的人不是我
可是我还是为朋友打抱不平...!!!

**frustrated** TT

I FEEL SO TIRED!!!!

i hate study!!!my brain wan explode ady!!!
study sejarah until wan go crazy ler...TT
monday ady wan test lw...
i feel so depressed!!
sum 1 plz help me...!!!

juz hope tat i wont get a worst result..TT

tired day..~

another new day again...
the time passes so fast until i cannot adapted with it..
hmm..yesterday chat wif cai en..
she told me she started to use contact lens ady~kakaxx...
today..go 2 skul 2 finish the KT project with our frens..
but when we juz arrived the teacher asked us went back 2 home..=.='''
she said she got duty cannot guide us do d project..gosh...
y she dun told us early..i wouldnt wake up so early..TTjuz waste my time oni...

afterward..my mum went out wif my bro go buy sumthing...
my fwenz n i go back home lor..afterward..they all asked me 2 play violin..
kakaxx..kinda terrible i played..i swear tat the sound is damn freaky..lolx...

hmm..felt kinda bored den go play fatal frame 2..but coz of the sunlight i cant c d tv screen veli well..
so i went 2 close the curtain..but then i saw daphne was outside the skul alone...
i go outside n den she ask us go where she was at tat time..
den we all go there..
suddenly she cried..i was kinda shocked at tat time..coz she seldom cried 1..
she told us tat our dicipline teacher n other teacher saw she was dating wif her bf at skul..
hmm..i pray tat she will b save n eveli goes well..

k..gtg now..bye~^^

another chanllenges~xD

whoo...has been a long time din update my blog ady...
lazy use chinese so juz straight away use english...
forgive me eveli 1..dun blame if dun understand..TT my broken english~

hmm...i ady decided 2 attend the party...
cant wait 2 c other primary classmate...sashiburi desu..lolx(tiz is not english,k??lolx..tiz is japanese mean long time no see..kakaxx...)
hmm....tat day tuition saw shean shin..
he didnt change at all, except 4 his sound lar...eveli time he talk i cant adapted eh, coz in primary his talk wif the sound like gurl..hehexx..anyway, he is juz himself..^^
i ady said soli to tat person le..but she seems like she dont mind..hmm..anyway,
deep in my heart i juz wan us start from d begin..hmm...but its impossible 4 us..coz since we long time din meet ady..well, juz stay like tiz..den eveli things is ok le..

haixx..next week still got test ar..
cannot play until shuang shuang..my holiday spoiled..TT
hmm...i seems like owez worried about them..
they seems like change their personality and attitude ady...
its not like i wan 2 be kepo n control them..well they got their own right 2 wear wat they like..
but it is juz like..hmm..how 2 said..well..eveli thing happened in a blink of an eye?i guess..lolx..
hmm..i still can take it anyway..mayb i need time 2 adapted wif it..hmm...

k..gtg now..bye..n plz gib me sum comment yarhxx.~^^

累~XD

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呼~终于可以呼吸了~呵呵~我还没死啦~
考试的压力真的是压得我喘不过气来~
感觉好像快死了~XD

hmm..最近都没什么事情发生~
呵呵~最近开始我的小说了~
可是感觉上朋友写的比自己的还好看~

今天跟老师讨论关于camping的事情~
爽死~我没有camping过叻~感觉自己好像sakai那样~呵呵~
呵呵..老师和朋友们都讨论学校很像有那个东西哦~
伊莹还怕自己会遇到那个东西~XD~

下个拜六要去老师家拜年哦~跟朋友一起去~呵呵~
我的英文退步了~讨厌TT
本以为可以拿很高分的~吃大便~kns!!!!
可是很奇怪的我的数学却可以拿很高分~
唉~希望我其他的科目不要拿到那么烂~
我可不想退步叻~U_Uv

好啦~就此停止啦~要去听歌了~
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感动~TT

感动~!!
真的是太感动了啦~!!
无法形容此刻的心情..TT
上面是我最最最最最最最最最喜爱的卡通~
虽然看完了很多次~
可是还是忍不住再看多几遍..呵呵..没办法控制自己..>.<

呵呵..也许对你们来说..我真的很幼稚..~
那么大了~还看卡通~
呵呵~其实我有一点阿达阿达的...XD
再加上有一点宅女~呵呵, 所以应该很明白为什么我那么喜欢动画了吧???

我不喜欢少女漫画~
我喜欢打斗的, 战争的, 然后里面再加上有一点爱情的~
呵呵, 那就符合我的选择了...卡卡~
可是这种动画真的是太难找了啦~
呵呵, 唯有上面那个我提到的, 才是符合我的口味~
太对不起了~本人实在是太挑剔了~
呵呵~

在这个动画里面~黑色头发的男子和紫红色头发的女子是一对的~XD
这也是我在这个动画里面最最最最最最最最最最最最最最喜欢的一对了~
呵呵~男的长得帅~女的长的美~
真的是天生的一对啊~
呵呵, 他们的爱情真的是很浪漫~ **羡慕**

如果我有Doraemon的那个什么鞋我忘了年, 只知道那双鞋可以让你进去你虚幻的世界~
呵呵, 我也好想要哦...TT
真的很想活在动画的世界里~至少没有那么多压力...TT
也许你们会说我疯了~也许我是真的疯了..呵呵XD

好了~就此听笔吧, 虽然不是用笔写的呵呵~
还是乖乖做我自己~
活在现实又残酷的世界吧..TT

选择...

看见这个照片...真的让我很痛心....
对我而言, 我真的不知道什么叫做幸福..真的很可悲...TT
感觉我的部落格都好象很灰安....TT大家可别怪我啊...
如果有机会我也想和我心爱的人, 乘上摩天轮,
一起眺望者我们的幸福..可是...至今摩天轮上只有我一个人孤独的守着..
等待那一个, 只属于我的人来跟我一起眺望幸福...

每一次去逛街时, 都好羡慕那些情侣...
他们都好幸福..
我很喜欢和我喜欢的人, 一起手牵手的感觉..
我喜欢被人在乎的感觉..
可是要等到几时...
我才能感受到..????

曾经喜欢过一个人..
但是只是我单方面的单恋..(终于知道戏里单恋人的感受了..TT)
单恋人家又甜又苦....
至到他走的那一天太都还不知道...
曾经有过像我这样的人喜欢过他...
算了, 还是把这份感情收在心底好了....


这是我闲来无事时做的..hehexx...

题目:选择


如果
可以选择
那么
我希望我当初遇到的不是你....

如果
可以选择
我希望我不该开始这段感情...

如果
可以选择
我希望我爱的人..
不是你.....TT


题目: 何时

何时
你才会知道
我的存在

何时
你才会明白
我对你的爱

何时
你才会察觉
在你的背后有像我这样的一个人
偷偷喜欢你....???


感觉到好伤心...TT
好想哭了....TT