was it me or what
i feel neglected when i'm around you guys.
the conversation become lesser as each day passes by.
=(
hopefully things will turn out right.
='(

i think it's the best for us to stay in this position.
in fact, i'm exceedingly satisfied with that. =D

♥

ThE BIG C ♥

recently, i'm addicted to a drama called THE BIG C.
it's like the nicest drama i've ever watched.

it's about Cathy Jamison, and mom and a wife to her kid and husband. at her age, she's supposed to shine brightly and lead a happy life, until she was diagnosed with cancer.
she has a son, whose name is Adam. this story sounds sad, but actually it kinda light up my life. not only it inspired me physically and mentally, it taught me i should at least be thankful for i'm standing here and being alive. ;)

what i love is that, when Cathy soon discovered she's gonna die, she tries to do all the crazy things, like putting lobster in the pool, and she even watches porn with his son, Adam when Adam is caught red handed watching pornography. she's crazy for sure, but i like the craziness though, this is what makes the drama funny and humorous. =D if i can be as crazy as her, and i think i'll have no regret even if my days are numbered. Cathy's behaviour is the thing that inspired me, though it was just a drama. but i get countless lesson from this drama. one of the reason my i'm loving it.

life can be short, if you don't know how to cherish it.
life can last eternally, if you know how to cherish every moment of your life.♥

EMO

everyday seems to be a tough day for me.
i don't know why, i just felt this way.
i know i shouldn't let my spirit down, but sometime i couldn't help to feel this way.
i wish i could tell how much i hate when i dislike something,
i wish i could yell when someone annoyed me,
i wish i could glare at someone when they make me on fire,
i wish i could be a little bit honest.
this is really frustrating.
getting stuck between this and that, really sucks.
my heart is like a little glass box, but when i keep too much agony inside, this little glass box couldn't withstand for such a long time, and at last it will break into thousand pieces.
physically, i always put on a bright smile; mentally, i'm suffering.
and knowing that i have to deal with it myself, is really depressing.
i know i can share it with the people around me, but you know, sometimes, it's better for you to keep thing to yourself.

_No Words could describe my feelings now_

EMO-ING

the itchiness is killing me slowly.

i got red spots all over my body =(
i don't know why, but my body has been like this since i ate shrimps on few days ago.
i thought it might be allergic or something, because i've been through the same situation few years ago. wth.
i couldn't stop myself from scratching it, coz it's so itchy. but my mom will stare at me whenever i try to do so. =((