first crush.

It was 5 years ago, just when i thought this school had already run out of nice, good looking guy, that's when i saw him.

It was never my intention, to fall for someone whom i have just met. 

Before that, i know nothing about him, all i know was that he's a senior of mine, a really tall and skinny guy. 

Pictures of him flashing through my mind whenever i see tall guys like him, and there's a corner in my heart wishes that the guys i see is him, but things never work out the way i want to.

Friends of mine was feeling a little whimsical about the thought that i'm falling for this guy, he was way too skinny, and they said he might break his bones if he ever want to give me a princess-hug. LOL, that was hilarious.

But then whenever you fall for someone, even if he is not the prince charming that you've always dreamt of, but for you, he's the best of all. He might have habits which you despise a lot, but when it comes to the matter of LOVE, all of that doesn't seem to be important anymore. 

well, you might be curious that if i ever declared to him, LOL, well, the answer is a NO.

I was too young to be courageous enough to declare my love, rather than that, i'm afraid of the answer, afraid that he might already have his special someone by that time.

till now, he is the biggest regret in my life.

just when i thought i'm never going to see him again, there i saw him walking his way to the basketball court nearby with his brother, i was in the car, on my way to chinese class. 

I'm glad that he's doing good, and erm...i'm just glad that he appeared in my life.

Though 5 years has gone since then, but my heart couldn't stop throbbing whenever i think about him.

i might not be his right one, but one thing for sure is that, he used to be the missing puzzle in my heart, and he will always be the missing puzzle in my heart, ever.

heartache

Am experiencing serious heartache right now, and this happens when i'm so into a drama. TT 

old habit dies hard, this always happens to me whenever i finish a drama. TT

and the drama i finished today is Time Slip Dr. Jin, oh why oh why, i wonder why jaejoong end up dying, i mean at first i watch drama mostly because of Song Seung Hoon, and then i don't know why but suddenly i feel like i want to see jaejoong more than song seung hoon. Gosh, i guess jaejoong has that certain charisma, the kind of swirling force that make u irresistible and get suck in by that strong force. GGgrrrr, i was hoping he would at least married with the woman he loved, but in the end, he died for her. oh why oh why *grief* the screenwriter-shi why you no pity him??? i have a serious heartache now. or maybe i will just imagine that he lead a happy life with young-rae in my own dream world, that will be great. ggrrrr.. and the next thing i hope is that JYJ gets to appear on variety show again, due the lawsuits against their former ageicy, they had a hard time appearing on the television (dramas are excepted of course), as SM entertainment is one of the most influential star agency in the entertainment industry in Korea, which means the broadcast station has to listen to SM if they want their programme to launch smoothly, well you know, people say there are certain things money can't buy you, but i'm sure fame is not  in the list. and now u get what i mean. ._.

and i wonder why the hell the music player won't work after sometimes, well that sucks a lot. GGGrrrr.

The day the exams ended.

so there you go, fly up and high and soar in the sky---- exams are over!!（should have posted this few days ago, but got no inspiration to write until today, ooopsss. sorryyyy)

after a month of continuous struggling, finally, I SURVIVED. 

so let's skip the exams part, cause there's nothing to talk about, except the fact that the questions are super duper hard, and  there'll be no doubt that i'll fail my papers, which means i have to retake the paper in next year, and that means i have to pay for the bloody RM50 for each paper i choose to retake.done. nothing to grumble, it's my fault for study at the eleventh hour, so IT'S MY FAULT. gggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

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So ignore the exams, what had been done is being done, and there's no such things like :" oh how i wish i have a time machine to go back to the past and ask the old me to study harder. but it would be awesome if i do have one in the reality. ;D so erm, i'm was squeezing my brain really hard to think about how should i spent my holidays. but before i could come up with anything beneficial, i've just finished some of the movies that i've longed for. teehee

1.Men in Black III

2. Hunger Games

3. Bait

4. The Amazing Spider Man (Andrew Garfield!!!!! xDDD)

5. The Avengers

6. Beastly

7. Drive angry

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and here's my want-to-watch movie list. teehee!!

1. In time

2. The werewolf boy (korean movie)

3. Cabin in the wood. ( blood and violence)

4. final destination 5

5.silent hill revelation

6. salmon fishing in the yemen

7.contagious

8. mission impossible - ghost protocol

9. battleship

and there's a lot in my mind right now, get so high in the sky whenever i talk about movies, movies are greattttttttttttttttttttttttttttt. Laugh out Loud. teeheee