the dream man.

i was often asked what kind of guys would i like to date with, and guess what, the first thing that ever came o my mind is EVERY HOT HOLLYWOOD stars you can think of.you know la Hugh Jackman is definitely on the list, Chris Hemsworth, Jason statham, Vin diesel, Dwayne Johnson. It's not difficult what's common in them, as they are all muscular guy! yes, im not afraid to say that i like muscular guys, like SO MUCH! *drooling. xD

well, physically, i like guys who are tall and have a well build body, it's better if you have muscles, but then if you don't have, its ok, don't be to skinny or fat. A little fat is good, but not too much. hahaha i sound like im buying meat at market.  Errr from the aspect of personalities and attitude, i like guys who love animals, a guy who is caring, and hardworking as well! and he must not be over thrifty and selfish. i mean what kind of girls would want selfish guy as their boyfriend?

But when the time has come, for you to fall in love, all that you cared about, don't matter anymore. He might be the baddest guy and with the lousiest attitude, but still you love him. All of these may seem nonsense, but one day you'll know. and here i am too, waiting for the mr right to come, to explore the answer together.
:)

give and take.

We know that we are always encourage to give rather than keep on taking from others. Whatever that is, who else in the world would constantly give away without hoping anything in return? There might be some people who can do this, but sadly human being is a selfish creature, being selfish is what they are good at. It is always a courtesy to appreciate someone when they offer us something, be it the smallest thing in the world or whatever it is, we should be thankful and feel blessed. But there are people whose greed has empowered their thinking, they keep on asking for more, they take without having a thought of giving back. You know people shouldn't have treat u good, but when they did, it's time for u to give back. Don't take them for granted, u know they are not obliged to be nice to u, if u don't appreciate it, you will be losing them one day, and it's just the matter of time when thag happen.

Monday blues.

        Blue is such a beautiful and vivid colour, isn't it?

         i mean like there are beautiful things in the nature are blue in colours, for instance, the ocean, the sky... it's all blue! :)

         But when Blue meets Monday, it became a disaster! yeah, what im trying to say is that i have monday blues! I always have monday blues, but today is a serious one. There will always be one day in your life, a day where all the shits happen at once. so yeah, the term 2 results will be announced tomorrow. Such a pain in the arse. I know how i did during the examination, so i know shitty things will happen tomorrow. yeah fuck u, and fuck everyone else. I screwed up.

        But whatever, im still me, but let me be emo for now. Once i feel better i will be me again! lol. funny. ==

Any little things.

Be thankful for any things that happened in your lives, for they happened for reasons. Be thankful for anybody you come and stay in your lives, you know there are times they could just leave you and go but they stayed. Be thankful for those who lend you a hand when you are in a dire situation, i mean they know they don't have to do so, but in the end they still help you and hoping nothing in return. Be thankful for those who scold you for any mistakes who have done in your lives, because this shows that they care.  Be thankful for those who discriminate and look down upon you, as they actually drive us to be a better person in the future. Be thankful for those who loved us, for their love is worth than anything else in the world.  everyday,I am trying my best to learn in every way i could to appreciate every little things that happened in my life, even if it's a simple meal, i should be thankful that there's actually something clean and edible that goes into my stomach. I know im much more luckier compare to those who don't have things to eat. So, be thankful, things happened for a reason, and sometimes u learnt something from it.. :)

comfort zone

People used to say that life only begins when you learn to stay out of your comfort zone. and frankly speaking, i might seem a bit crazy, but then in real life i am actually quite timid. I have fear of meeting new people, and i hate the moment when i got disgraced for getting the wrong answers or saying the wrong things at the wrong times. i hate it when people said i was wrong, and i hate it when people talk like as if they are always right. I hate the idea of meeting new people, and im always contented with my social circle.  I guess this is a sign that i haven't step out of my comfort zone. I always complaint things don't turn out right, and never realizing the fact that things won't always turn out the way i want because i want them to turn out the way i want. I hate fitting myself in the new environment, but i never realize that it is actually a process of growing up, see how well could you adapt to the new environment. I hate meeting new people, but i never realize the fact that these people whom i claim as strangers could actually be someone who teach us new things in life. i loath those who are selfish, arrogant, narcissistic, but i never realize the fact that i should thank them instead, as they make me realize that not to be a pain in the ass no matter what happen. Before this, i used to think that everything should work out the way i want, i want people to obey me. But then that was so silly la to be honest to tell, lol. Hahha, But then i promise myself i seriously need to step out of my comfort zone and learn to absorb anything like a dry sponge, the eagerness of learning something new.No more backing off, no more coward, no more dramasss. be a butterfly that breaks the cocoon, spread its wings and fly :)

planned vs unplanned.

a classmate of mine literally asked me whether i would planned everything for myself in the future so i would just follow exactly what is being planned in the plan. I might be someone who has a lot of ideas, but i am definitely not the one who got everything planned in the future. I am not trying to say that getting everything planned is not good, but then life is not what as we know it, life is full of variables, and you never know what is going to happen next, and let say if you are a rule abiding people, that will be a huge disaster for you, i mean letting those variable ruin your plan, that must be something terrible for them. Don't like the ideas of getting everything planned doesn't mean that we can't actually have the idea of planning something we want to do in the future. getting everything planned is boring, but then planning what you want to achieve in the future is good, but you shouldn't go over the edge to have everything in your life nicely planned. Life isn't about planning, it's all about all the ups and downs, it's about all the unexpected things that happen in life which sometimes make u want to smile, get angry at or to cry over it. that's life.

lost.

i am lost. i do not know what im doing, everyday Just passes like that, like very meaningless. i do not know what i want to be in the future, i am so aimless. every once in a while i just feel like want to shut myself in a room and cry myself out, i do not know what and why im crying for, but i just want to cry, guess it's hormone's fault. i admire those who have everything planned in their lives, all they have to do is just follow exactly to the plan. but it might be a little boring you know, when u have everything planned, but what i envy about them is that they knew exactly who they are, and what they wanted to be in the future. people thought im on way to my dream destination, but here i am, wandering and lost on the streets. I do know one thing though, the fact that i want to get out of this fucking school as soon as possible. I hate this place, like every inches of it, and it sucks to the max. i just want to get the hell out of this place asap. There's nothing im gonna miss about this school. its kinda depressing when you see people keep on studying, like their eyes are literally few cm away from the books, the more i look at them, the more depressed i get. Not trying to say that study is a fault, but i just don't like the fact that people are trying so hard, but im doing nothing except giggling and keep on talking nonsense there. How i wish i was blind and deaf at the same time, it's good not to see this and hear all the harsh comments from others. I mighy seem a bit lost, but i do know life isn't about books, it's about how you appreciate things with your own heart, it's all about giving not about merely taking, Life should be more beautiful, and to fill your lives with all studies, thats too pathetic. so in the end, i guess im not that lost at all, well maybe, i guess.