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talking of future
i never think of my future

i remember
when i was a kindergarten kid
i wish i would become a doctor

i remember
when i was at primary school
i wish i would become a teacher

i remember
two, three years ago
i wish i would become a nutritionist

my dreams change as time flies
i don't know why it change
but it just happened

one year and a half i'm gonna graduate
and yet i'm still act like a child
playful and stubborn
somehow i'm only the one who is different from others
my friends wish they can graduate as soon as they can
they just wanna get rid of school life
and enter a college or U and start their busy social life
but i act inversely
i wish the school life never end
i know the school life is tiring
but i just
wish i could stay like this forever
i don't want to graduate
i don't want to face all this
i don't want
perhaps i am too naive
thinking that the world that i've always dreamed of will come true
there's no doubt that a person need to face the challenges in their lives
but to be honest to tell
sometimes i would wish i can run away from this
i always tell the others that they should face their challenge bravely
but i once imagine
if i put myself in their shoes
would i be able to do as what i said, to face the challenges bravely?
will i?
it is always easier to say than doing it,isn't it.
i'm afraid
and scare
to face it all alone
alone and alone
i've tried out many method
sit alone in a room
to think about my future
but it just won't work
i need a plan
everyone is just confident about what they need to do in the future
but
i'm not
..........
what should i do?
i just want to lead my life happily now
that's all i know
-live my life with no regret- this is my life plan.
i'll know someday
i know i will.