那一句从没对你说出口的"谢谢" ...

现在的时间是下午01.53
本想温书，但看见电脑还是不忍心亏待自己。哈哈
刚刚打开面子书，看见有人说今天会出现两个月亮。实际上那第二个的月亮是火星。
他们还说下一次看到的时候会是2287 年，也就是说 277年过后，这个现象才会再次发生。
一生人中只能看那么一次，我觉得已经很足够了。
因为轮到下一次发生的时候，我早已不在这世上了。
有些事情，就只有那么一次，包括生命。没了就是没了。
所以，我真的很想感谢你，在我短暂的生命里出现。
感谢你，让我知道，其实上学不是一件那么糟糕的事。因为至少还有你在。
感谢你，让我知道，至少你还是一个在乎我的人。
感谢你，总是在我低潮的时候，说些黄色笑话，让我笑得眼泪掉出来。
感谢你，让我知道做人其实可以不用那么执著。
感谢你，在我被老师骂得时候，帮我说那个老师的坏话。
感谢你，在我哭得时候第一个跑来安慰我。虽然最后我会哭的更惨。
感谢你， 让我知道，其实有些人不是以样貌来跟人做朋友的。
感谢你，让我在毕业时都是笑着离开。因为我知道，你不喜欢看我哭。

如果你没出现在我生命中的话。我想我现在也不会学你一样，跟别人说黄笑话说到那么开心。
你可以说是我的快乐泉源。
可是“谢谢”这两个字总是对你说不出口。因为你为我做的实在是太多了，你该得到的并不只是一句“谢谢”。
5年了。整整5年了，那一句谢谢还是没对你说出口。我真的很愧疚。

虽然上了中学四年，但总觉得小学毕业典礼仿佛昨天才举行。
如果我真的拥有哆拉A梦的时光机，我真的很想回到那一年，过着跟你一起打打笑笑的日子....然后再大大声的跟你说：“ 朋友，谢谢你。”♥

in the midst of....

i don't know what i want.
i don't know what i wish for.
i don't know why am i standing here.
and i don't know what am i searching for.

i don't know why i came to this world, but i just did.
i got friends and family i'd never wish to lose.
but somehow i still feel the emptiness within my heart.
perhaps i've been living alone for too long.
=DDDD
i need someone to lubricate my dehydrated soul xDDD sot

expecting miracles

miracles, are something i chased for in my life.
i expect it to happen every second of my life.
i used to believe in it. But...not now.
miracles could happen at anywhere,any person but not me.
because i personally dun believe in it.
trying hard not to be obsessed with it.
because i'm so afraid that i would get stuck in it.
...

exam!

omg, next week!
i can't believe that i'm still staring at the monitor and not doing my revision instead. ARGH. sorry. i just can't neglect computer in my life. it was my life partner, my soul mate, my everything! LOL.

will stop here. have to do my homework now or else. =(((
i wonder should i be a doctor in my future? well, i love to be a doctor. it just that when i'm panicking, i will start to do something wrong and even forgot what to do and what should i do. do u expect someone like me to save others life? well..but still my family, especially my parents had high expectation for me. i dun want to disappoint them. but i'm scared, honestly. what should i do now? stresss.. i wish i could be a nutritionist. but they dun seem to approve it. garh!! =((

OUTttt

~teehee~

♥it could be something simple♥

it could be something simple.
ooops. maybe it could be something abstract.
or something around us.

hmmm...
it could be the azure sky above us.
it could be the virid grass under our feet.
it could be the cold wind that whipped our face.
it could be the white snow fall from the sky.
it could be the great ocean we praised every day.
.......

or..

it could be just a cup of aromatic coffee.
it could be just a bowl of ice kacang.
it could be just a unbranded shirt.

....

or...

it could be you.♥



_happiness could be something simple_ ♥

does anyone knows when will GLEE season 2 broadcast?
i've been dying to watch this series.D:

一个人的晚餐
一个人的夜晚
一个人的星空

我...
想念你了 =D

“笑的如何灿烂，也掩饰不了心中的伤痕。”——此刻的心情。

stressssss

aren't you supposed to trust us？
aren't we are the one you should trust?

i feel neglected and yet stupid to trust someone like u.
why am i trying so hard ?
in the end i get nothing but just a bunch of F words.hell ya. =D
sorry for being rude. ==
but maybe we are nothing but just a servants for you. and yet. we didnt get our pay! oh fak off.

and u!
i'm so sick of you!
you always think you are the right one. and yet you never listen to me don't you?
you chose to be like that. and yet, you're trying to defend yourself and stop giving me the you-offended-me look.one more thing, get lost. stop saying something to get others' sympathy! you're stink！

不明白为什么你说谎

我真的不明白
为什么你对他说了谎
不只是他
甚至你周遭的人
你都对他们撒了谎，对吧？
难道你一生人都想活在谎言之中吗？
没有了谎言，你的人生就会一塌糊涂吗？
还是说你已经习惯撒谎，来博取大家的同情、可怜，甚至是关心？
你给了他希望，却狠狠地毁了它。那我还宁愿你残忍一点，不要对他那么好。
身为一个朋友。
我对你的处事态度难免会很生气。
因为你的贪婪，受伤害的是他，我的朋友。
我在面子书上那样写，是为了警惕你不要再继续骗下去了。
哪知，你还有面子来跟我说你不是。
请问这是不是叫做 “睁眼说瞎话”？
我也许该告诉他真相，但是我不忍心看到他失望的样子。
我明白这样的感受，所以我不希望我身边的任何一个人再次经历这样的痛苦。那种痛楚，一次就够了。
所以我选择自私点，让你蒙在鼓里，我也不想这样的。看着你一副想要知道秘密的表情，我真的很犹豫，“she's a liar.”这几句话，真的差一点就从我的嘴里说出来。但我又吞回去了。对不起，我做不到。只能每天祈祷你能够把眼睛睁大一点，看清她的真面目。
所以，请原谅我对你的不诚实，我只是不忍让你对她的憧憬毁于我的一字一句。真的很对不起。=(

the back-up plan

♥ the back-up plan

[ i never wish i could have you, but actually i did.]

there are times when i spend times alone.
there are times i wish i could tell you.
there are times i wish i could see the smile on your face.
there are times i wish you would know.
there are times i wish you would love me.




but dreams are still dreams.
like the bubbles in the air.
no where to go, no direction to follow.
but i will just follow the wind.
i believe it will take me somewhere else.
somewhere far away from here.
and blow away all the pain.
so that i won't desire for something
i shouldn't have. ♥

the ones who worth it.

i admit that i don't really know about it.
but from your words, your gesture and everything that comes out from your mouth.
i could sense that you are really fond of them.
i just wanna say.
though we are the best of all, but at least..we always bear in mind about what you've told us .
seriously, you are kinda annoying now.
i dun know how to say it. but this feelings just couldn't get out of my head.
whenever you appeared , i pretended to be happy. laughing. smiling .
i wanna ask.
what about our contribution?
what about the things we have sacrificed to fulfill your wish?
and what about our feelings that u never care.
to be harsh, you are so unthoughtful.
the ones who worth you to care of, is the ones who always help you through the hard times without wanting any rewards and so. the ones who always walk by your side even when it's raining. but have you ever care about it? you never, don't you.

说实话...

有些东西
并不适合挂在嘴边
因为这只会让自己更痛心
以为你会明白
所以就选择什么都不说
因为我真的以为
就算我不说什么
你也可以知道我的心情
但，是我太高估了你
也太高估了自己
结果要搞得自己遍体鳞伤
才满意地接受这答案
世界是现实的
看到的你
也是如此的现实
原以为付出就会等于收获
所以我拼命地在付出
希望有哪一天你会知道，有那么一个人是如此地在意你。
但我错了，付出多并不代表收获一定也多。
甚至，没有收获也说不定。
累了。恨了。算了。
有几次好想哭...但却欲哭无泪。
也许已经麻木了。
我不求你把我像宝贝一样捧在手心里
也不求你当我像小孩一样捧
也不求你买什么给我
但请让我知道，至少，你是在意我的。