i'm waiting for you to tell me the whole thing
the truth.

once before...

once before,
you were my dream.

once before,
you were my world.

once before,
you were my soul.

but i never tell you this.

i have no guts to do so.

i'm afraid of losing you, i guess.

and i do regret for that. HAHA.

but then...

when i looked back at your picture.
those feelings just vanished.

i guess time really heal the wound.

4 years has passed away like nothing had happened before.

well, i was glad that i'm able to go through all of this.

i remembered.

the last time i saw you, i was deadly nervous.

i wished i'll never see you again and i thought that i still had a crush on you.

but then i realized that it wasn't that way.

i felt nervous because i haven't see you for 3 years like that.

And the sudden coincidence made me sweat like hell, and i felt like my heart is pounding out
of my chest.

of this stupid and reckless reaction, i thought i still.......well, i'm not going to say it out loud.it's totally embarassing. -.-

and by thinking of this, i laughed. i guess i'm still not mature enough to judge WHAT LOVE IS.
hmmm, and now i'm able to say that, i can live better even without you. =)

but i'm happy to know someone like you in my life.

and now you've found the one.

and i have my own path to go.

so...

it's time to say bye bye. =')

thank you for everything.

lalala...

just finished watching WE GOT MARRIED
and i was laughing like a mad lady
haha, it was really hilarious and funny
and i realized i've never been so happy from the day holidays began
well, i guess it's something good then.haha.
oh, now the television is broadcasting the closing ceremony of the Asian Game.
well, i have to say those China people are brilliant.
the closing ceremony is just fantastic. =D
ok.let's talk about my life.
lately, i've been dreaming about my future life.
i know it's stupid but i just can't stop myself from doing this. LOL.
i dreamed that i travel to Korea, to Japan.
i dreamed that i had my dream job, and i'm happy and satisfied with the work place.
one thing i did not dream about is my future husband. Haha. i don't know why i didn't dream of it.
i wonder, just what kind of people will my husband be. well, maybe i would end up being alone, but there's nothing wrong if i try to imagine it right? LOL
err...well, girls like handsome, talented and filthy rich guy. and so do i. but i'd rather choose a guy whom i'm comfortable with. =D hehe..so where are you? don't let me wait. i've been searching for you for ages already. hehehe. i sound like a whore.hahah whatever...
ok, got to go now...
have a nice day, peeps. =D

obstacles in life.

Life, always full of obstacles.
so being here, wasn't easy.
but i'm glad that i'm still alive and still fit as a fiddle.
ever since we are born
we are destined to finish this journey until the very the end
that is, the day we close our eyes eternally.

Life,
always a bumpy road to walk on.
haizz..
=(
things just getting complicated as each day gone by
i guess being a grown up is quite challenging huh
lots of things to worry

i remember i was a kid
i told my mom: " mom, i wanna be an adult as soon as i can!"
as time goes by
i do regret for saying those words.
and now my wish is : i wish i'll never grow up.
but i know i have to face this on my own
and the wish deep within my heart is never going to be come true

let's be realistic. ='(
can't help being pessimistic nowadays.
>.<''''

admit it.

sometimes, you'll have to admit that
you ain't that important at all.
well, this is the first time i ever let out my real thoughts here.
i feel like a sharp knife stab directly into my heart.
can't find any suitable words to describe it.
i won't expect anything from anybody anymore.
the more you expect, the bigger the disappointment.
that's it.
ok, now i will dig a little hole and get myself calm down.
.....

future...

i never thought that it's time for me to sit silently and think seriously about my future.
i once thought that this only happen when i am officially a grownup
and yes, i happened to be a grownup now. well, maybe half-grownup. haha. =)
future, something so close and yet so far for me.
knowing nothing about myself, and what i want to achieve it's hard for me to decide what i wanna do in the future.
seeing other people are so confident and their persistence in making their dream comes true, make me wanna cry actually. TT
my parents want me to become what they want me to become, and does that mean that i have to obey their will even if i don't want to? Dilemma. =(
especially my father, he has a really high expectation on me, which makes me even more frustrated. i couldn't bear to see the disappointment on his face, and my mother's as well.
they've always wanted me to become a doctor. and yes, i wish i could too. i mean, hey it's DOCTOR. it's a huge dream! but, could someone like me be a doctor. and knowing someone's life is depending on my hands, is eerie! what if i couldn't.....well, i mean what if.. that's why i always shut my mouth and be as quiet as possible when my parents talk about my future occupation. well, i know everything has it's own risk, but i just couldn't stop myself from thinking the bad things. but i really hope i can be a doctor. i really do. but i'm scared actually. =(((( so what should i do? maybe i should seek for a consultant service x(

p/s: dear kelly,

sorry ! i didn't reply your text last night, because i fall asleep as soon as i lied on the bed..haha, well you know nothing can stop me when it comes to SLEEP. well, we both are on the same boat. we are in the middle of the ocean. don't know where to go. hoping someone else could notice us and save us from this misery. But, i know one day we will head to the right direction and get out of this azure and yet crystal clear ocean. I KNOW WE WILL as every cloud has a silver lining. so just keep holding on, until the day comes.and by that time, we should've go on our separate ways. ='( sob...

Love,
Yun Qian.

mumbling to myself

here comes the holiday
but i end up with nothing to do
ok, maybe i will sit silently in the living room and do my homework
but i'll surrender first
i'm going crazy because of homework
but cannot blame the teacher also
next year is going to be a no-play-play-year.
that's it. it explains why all the teachers are giving us tons of homework, as if we never get sick of it.
ok gtg now..my mom is yelling at me dy xD

说到真的很气一下咯
都不知道问题出在哪里就随便乱乱骂人
难道就不可以好好讲吗？
难道和和气气这样子开口说话真的会伤到你的脑哈？
你试试看下啦 在这么多人面前被骂
你会爽吗？
每天在那边讲讲讲
鬼听得懂你说什么啦
你不懂你的麦克风是要换了哈？
这么老牙的还敢拿出来用
有钱的话好心你建个礼堂吧
礼堂这么小还请那么多人
你不觉得羞耻吗？
别的学校的礼堂这么大
唯独我们的是这样寒酸 ==
还要建个什么bengkel eletronik
都不懂哪来做什么的
摆丑脸？
你的脸又好到哪里去？
你以为全部人像你这样好命哈？
每天在办公室那边吹冷气
还要三请四请才会来
你很好意思咯
我知道论年纪，论辈分我是没有资格说你
但是
你年纪大并不代表你可以这样出言侮辱别人
有谁不想把最好的呈现给大家？
在班里面，老师一没有教书
他们都已经拼命在那边练歌了
他们的努力，我们都有眼睛见证！
所以，请你不要一句话就否定他们的努力！
kns!

笑死我 xD

今天不懂是什么日子
真的是笑到最疯的一天
不过还真的是可怜她
喂，你的耳膜还好吧？
哈哈！
都跟你说是命中注定的咯
你不信
xD
哈哈
现在想起来还真的好笑 xD

happy belated birthday....=)

time flies, don't you think so?
hehe
i searched for the oldest post just now
and only then i realized that 28/09/2008
was the first day ever i created this blog
ever since then
this has became the second home of mine
this blog has witnessed everything that happens in my life
honestly
you are the first place i ever think of
whenever something happen to me
though there aren't many who is truly interested in this
but i just wanna say
"happy belated birthday!"
sorry for forgotten the day i created you
=(
sorry xD

幸福
其实可以很简单
它可以是一个善意的微笑
也可以是一个温暖的拥抱
更可以是一个简单的问候

所以
知足常乐最重要——♥

过了就算了……

我还记得小时候
因为懒得整理书包
所以每天把全部的课本都带去学校
结果
害我上校车时还要妈妈从背后撑着书包才能够进去
不止这样
因为书包太大
校车内能够走动的空间又很小
结果我的大书包常常打到别人
所以每次进校车时
大家都尽量避开我
因为大家都不想被我的书包给打中
有一次还更惨
因为书包太重的关系
结果在下校车时因为没站稳
就在校门前跌个狗吃屎
现在想起来有够丢脸的
后来
我学聪明了
尽管我百般不愿意
我还是每天整理书包
所以
以上的情况就很少发生了
其实
人也一样
学会整理自己的心情
就会发现其实这个世界有点不一样
我试过对一件事情很执着
但后来才发现
这对大家都不好
不开心的事情
经历过久好了
不要一直摆在心底
因为这种感觉就好像
拖着一大袋的石头
那么的沉重
过了就算了
就好像我小时候
虽然不甘心、不愿意
但还是学会整理书包
所以你也要一样
整理你自己的心情
把不开心的丢掉
无聊时
偶尔想起来就好了
就好像梁文音那首歌
“哭过久好了，伤都会好的。”
所以……
请你每天都能以微笑
面对人生中的每一天
=)加油

累死...
kns，好不好被选去当SU.
最最最讨厌的工作。
好不好那个老师都没有交代清楚工作
连我自己要做什么都不知道。
显咯这些人 =(