Monday, March 19, 2012

this post is dedicated to PGIE =))

HI readers! Good evening! hehe, honestly i have no intention in updating my blog today until i saw something which really took me by surprise.http://www.emocutez.com


first of all, i would like to thank you for the 'present', i liked it.http://www.emocutez.com thought it has been five days after my big day but still i really appreciate it. THANK YOU. hehe. thanks for saying that i'm your good friend coz i have never expect i'm in your GOOD-FRIEND-LIST.anyhow, that is so sweet and kind of you. you're such a sweet girl. I do not know whether i have personally told you about this or not, but from some aspect both of us are really alike. i mean like our attitude, it's the hyper-crazy-type of girls. and yeah not to say the kpop group we both fancied. LOL. erm, what i have to say that i really glad that we are friend, though our friendship just started like two or three years ago and before we were in the same class we have never been so close before. it's my pleasure to have a friend like you.http://www.emocutez.com and i mean it literally. hehe. and though we are following different path in our lives now, and we might not be seeing each other so frequently like we used to be during high school days, but you know what, i will also pray for you so that you'll get what you want in life, and be a successful person. like what i said in the previous post, i'm such a pessimistic person, and you know what i really admire you last year coz everytime i see you. you'll always have a really bright smile on your face, like you're the spokesperson for some branded toothpaste.(perhaps colgate ?? xD) haha   hope i didn't offend you. xDDD
anyhow, thanks again for everything. http://www.emocutez.comhehe!http://www.emocutez.com


Sunday, March 18, 2012

when the anxiety is slowly killing me inside.

sorry for posting such a horrible pic, hope you don't take it wrongly as a ghost picture.haha, though it looks like one.  http://www.emocutez.com three days left until the doomsday arrive. i've tried my best to ignore the date, but every time i wake up, my mind just remind me that i'm getting closer to the day, the day i wish that will never ever comehttp://www.emocutez.com oh god i'm doomed. btw, don't you think that emoticon is just adorable, can't resist its cuteness though.haha, okay back to the topic. i had a bad dream last night, i have no idea whether i should keep this dream inside or maybe i should talk to someone about this dream i had last night. i know this is kinda superstitious but some of the Chinese do believe that dreams are going to come true if you never reveal it to a single person. i don't want it to come true but i'm scare  of letting people know about this dream or hallucination i had, in fact it's really embarassing to talk about it.http://www.emocutez.com
for most of you maybe it's not a bad one, but for me, i have a high expectation on myself so i consider it as a bad bad bad super bad sign.http://www.emocutez.com<---; like  this, very very bad. despite the dilemmas and hardships i'm going through inside of me, i think i should be positive about the results. not like i'm positive about getting a good ones, but i should be positive-minded about my results. (now i realize how good i am when i'm comforting others, but when i'm the one who need to be comforted, i just suck at cheering myself up.) optimism is what i craved for my entire life, but somehow it's something beyond my approachable area. i want to be an optimistic person, in which i could just smile and embrace the failures i made in my life, and admit that it was part of me that it actually made me a better person.but instead, i grew up with a friend called 'pessimist'.http://www.emocutez.comwhat a sad case. TT thus, the anxiety is killing me inside, bye readers. i'm mentally ill. http://www.emocutez.com

Saturday, March 17, 2012

childhood memories.

hi readers! after a two-day hiatus, finally i'm back! LOL. never feel so great before. *don't expect me to tell you why,blerk* xD as you can see, i've change the header of my blog, in my opinion i like it very much, well i'm talking rubbish i wouldn't change it if i don't love it.hehe. and the playlist has changed as well, enjoy the  songs readers, it's my favourite after all hehe. actually i want to put in YG's songs only but then i changed my mind.heheh.

few days ago, my older brother and my sister were chatting in the living room and i joined in their conversation as well. They were talking about things that remind me of my childhood. i have to say kids nowadays are lucky, why would i say so. easy, the 90's kids spent their entire childhood with sand,mud, hide-and-seek and etc but kids nowadays have iphone, ipad, laptop. see the difference? it's sad to see kids nowadays don't play the way like we did, it's their lost.haha (sorry to say this, no offense though,just a piece of my mind)

ok these are the things that reminds me of my childhood.
1. Digimon
here comes the highlight! hehe my brother is the one who introduced digimon in our families, i still remember the excitement when we first watched this. at that time, we rent the tapes from the shop and watch it at home. when we already finish it, we urge our parents to rent new  episodes from the shop. till now it has 6 series. but my favourite series are the I,II,III,and IV. didn't watch the Vand VI one, somehow i didn't see the originality in those 2 series.



2.Pokemon
and then here comes the cute one! i am sure many of you know this cartoon. i'm not ashamed to admit that
 i still watch this now.hehe! HIGH -FIVE to those who watch it as well.haha. i was attracted by Pikachu's cuteness, Satoshi's never-gave-up-spirits.and the most important thing-----all of the pokemons are so damn adorable. LOL. 








3.Doraemon

Doraemon! the cutest thing ever in this world. somehow i thought doraemon do exist when i'm still a kid.hehe. i even imagine things i can do when i have doraemon by my side :borrow time machine from doraemon and memorize all the answers in exam and then i don't have to study anymore. or borrow something from him and take revenge on those jerks who pissed me off ;D oh ya and there's one pair of shoes i want to have from doraemon as well. the shoes enable those who wear it to step inside the world of story tales. that just awesome!




and i also play silly things when i'm still a brat. like things below:-
1. bake cookies using mud (not really bake, just put the so-called cookies under the sun and wait for it to get hard.)
2. fishing (with no bait at all as i thought the fish will come to me if i put fishing rod into the water)
3.build my own base with scraps
4. boil the water and put some grasses in it ( i called it 'tea')

LOL. can't stop laughing xD look how silly i am. well everybody's silly when they are still small.heheh. wish i could go back to that time. it's just too so much fun. too bad things like time machine doesn't exist.=((
i really appreciate the things and people who appeared in my childhood times, thanks for making my childhood colourful. it's just amazing. and when you grow up, you'll realize things are not as simple as we think when we were small. how i wish i could go back and enjoy the simple but yet happy life i once had.

Thursday, March 15, 2012

talking nonsense

i've realized that my blog is boring, like totally boring? can't find anything captive in my blog, it's dull and not worth reading at all.even i myself as the blog owner would make this face (like the picture in the left) when i view my blog. i guess i'm going to admit that i've lost the enthusiasm in managing my blog. it's sad to hear that. but to be honest, i never have the capability in keeping my passion towards something for more than a month, i guess. or a month is already at maximum. i really have to change this attitude or else how i am going to survive in this cruel and reality-based society. it's not about the strong ones survive it's about those who fit well in the society survive. that's the rule. 

when i first made my blog. i want it to be simple and elegant. and now it looked really simple but it's too plain, i guess elegant is too much for me. like stars in the sky, you knew they existed but somehow you couldn't reach for it, it's beyond your capability. and i think i kinda don't remember the reason why i made this blog. LOL. such a piggy head. but then whenever i'm having a bad day or some jerks pissed me, this little place of mine become a good place for me to let it all out. though things couldn't be solved by simply writing at here but it does make you feel better.


i do not know whether people are reading my blog or not, or i'm just having hallucination that i have tons of readers viewing my blog each day,LOL, i don't really care anymore. what important is that i love it. if i don't love it who's going to love it more than i do?? LOL.







doomsday

i'm sick!!! sore throat and caught flu.IN FACT i have been sicked for 4 days already, i feel like hell.

6 days more and here comes doomsday. i'm not nervous (liar) but i'm doing my best not to think about it. a little bit scare to see that. but mom said she's not going to say anything to my results as she knew i have already gave  my best. but then it hurts so much when u didn't achieve your parents expectation. gggrrrrr...hope next week come faster, i don't want to been through this waiting-anticipating-and-yet-nerve wrecking-endless-day anymore.it's torturing.

okay, that's all for today.bye peeps.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

hi peeps! Today's my big day! heheh, no big celebration though, ady celebrated few weeks ago. =) turned 18 today, and whether i like it or not i'm an adult now! but then today is just another ordinary day for me, no extra or special feelings about it. or maybe i should go to bar and have some alcohol and gone wild? nice idea, but i have no guts to do so. i don't want to die yet! xD

haha, i guess that's all for my birthday post.sorry i know it's too short but to be honest, i have nothing to say except the fact that i wish my birthday wishes do come true. hehee.ok that's all.bye readers, have a nice day =))

Saturday, March 10, 2012

急性子

我自认是个不折不扣的急性子
‘慢’这个字似乎与我的性格格格不入
做东西什么都要快
比如:
1.看电视剧的时候会先去查看结局(在这虚拟的网路世界,只要动动手指,要什么有什么)结局不好不看
2.看小说的时候,总会第一时间往最后一页翻,烂结局宁可不看 xD
3.减肥的时候三不五时都会去量体重 (严重1天之内可以量几次)看见体重没有下就不减了
4.妹妹在用我的电脑的时候,我总会问“好liao吗?好liao吗?” 实际上她只用了10分钟 (抱歉)
5.逛街的时候 我总爱说:可以回家了吗?我很累,脚很‘酸’ (实际上是想回家追连续剧)

以及................(我就省略下来了啦)

其实说‘慢’与我格格不入也有点不对,我也有‘慢’ 的时候
1.跑步慢 跑没两下就气喘如牛
2.学习慢 总得学几次才会做的好
3.领悟慢 简单的道理要很慢才会领悟 (可悲)
4.月经慢 同样是女人可是我的姨妈总不会守时,(真头疼)

我应该是急性子+慢郎中的合体 hahahah!

Friday, March 9, 2012

有感而发

以前的时候
总爱说我要这样,我要那样
现在想起来自己真的是蠢到可以
什么我要这样做
我要那样做
在这样现实的世界上
不是自己说了就算
不是每一件事情都能够照着自己的意思进行
就像那天空
它不会永远是晴空万里
也许在你没有注意的时候
天空会布满乌云,下起雨来
可笑的时这天空也不会永远是那样阴沉
所以未来会怎样我们也不知道
或许下一秒
自己不在这个世界了也说不定
这些事情不是我们说了算
树会枯 花会凋 月有圆缺
而人的感情比这些东西更脆弱、经不起打击
甚至有时候连最亲的人之间也要互相猜疑  
真讽刺啊 '_'
现在
幸福离我很远 
而我能做的只有往前看
期望前面等着我的会是一片春天