小时候，我会为了一个玩具争个你死我活,也可以因为没有吃到想吃的棒棒糖而紧绷着脸。
我会为了自己喜爱的卡通跟哥哥争电视看，结果到最后是自己哭着去找妈妈告状。
小时候，我爱骑自行车，所以总爱霸着自行车，不给别人骑。最算妹妹怎么哀求我教她骑自行车，我都以没有空为由拒绝她。这样一来，我就不用担心没有自行车好骑。
还有小时候总会在面包车经过家里的时候，嚷着老妈给我买着买那的，然后抱着一整袋的战利品，笑得跟一个傻子似的回家去。
已经十多年了，但是这些点点滴滴我都还记得。不是因为那是什么特别的回忆，而是我觉得那时候的我，是最快乐的。
人长大了，脑子里就会有许多的想法。总是在想有一天我要怎样怎样的，有一天我要什么什么的…… 小时侯，我们会为了一个炸鸡腿而高兴一整天，但是现在我们不会因为一餐温饱而感到满足。是我们变了？还是社会变了？
长大了，思想变得更复杂了，这其实不是什么一件坏事……只是，有时候，我真的很想回到以前，做回那一个快乐的我。
There are times i wish i could be invisible so that no one would ever see me and annoy me. you may not know you have agitated me, but in my heart i wish i could choke you to death. If only staring could kill, you will be dead for countless time already. Never did someone in my life has ever annoyed me to this point, and tell you what, you are the first one. I have had enough of your drama, and like seriously i wish you could rethink how your attitude has annoyed others. If someone says he or she don't like you, it might be their own problems, but if all of the people loathed you, you should seriously get a mirror and see a reflection of yourself la. People have boundaries, and if you people be nice to you, make sure you watch your steps and do not ever cross the boundaries. I personally believe in karma, and hope karma will treat you right.
So as usual, i reluctantly went to school and keeping my fingers crossed that i won't got fuck up today. I mean who knows shits happen, and i eventually got myself into a big trouble. That's the last thing ever i wanted to happen in my life, not in this school, where maniacs and pyscho gathered. lol. Ok so back to the title, our class were told that there will be a blood donation campaign next Wednesday, so i raise my hand without any hesitation that i wanted to join this program. I have always wanted to be a blood donor, but too bad i wasn't eligible to donate blood as im not old enough to do so. Though i have seen blood donation campain being held in the local supermarket but i was too timid to go myself, i mean i was alone, and donate blood without my parents consent, that is just too much, you know my mum is never a threat to me, but when she's serious, she can be a lion. now this time, the opportunity has came to me, and i know i should dare myself to do this, you know i have always wanted to help people, and it's somebody's life that you are saving, what is even more blessful than this? This time, i decided on my own that i wanted to join this, I'm a grown up, and i am doing things that i have always wanted to do. and hopefully I'm healthy enough to donate my blood, or else im going to be so devastated. lol, well, hopefully. :)
A typical Tuesday, had everything planned, not sure whether I'm cursed or what, there's always something or maybe someone who came and ruin the whole plan. Ok fine, whatever I'm cursed so don't go near to me, u might ended up being cursed too.
I wonder is there any cure for laziness, I'm getting lazier by each day, finding all sorts of excuses to not to finish my homework, like seriously I'm hopeless. I told myself not to be lazy but old habit dies hard, so what to do? There's no one day I live with no guilt, oh I think I'm gonna die. Seeing people live their lives to the fullest makes me wanna cry of jealousy somemore,why can't I just be one of the girl who enjoys her life to the Max? It's not like I don't like my life, but somehow I feel empty, I have friends whom I love so much, but still I'm feeling empty. I need someone or maybe something that can motivate me, ggggrrr.
I'm not afraid to admit that I'm a person who got envied easily, so when I look at you, it makes me feel like I'm nothing compared to you. You have everything a girl would die for, like almost everything. So I couldn't stop myself from admiring you. I wish I could be like you, but judging from who I am, I knew it's impossible. I knew my extent, and I know how far could I go, to be someone like you takes a lot of effort and persistence, thats what I'm lacking off. People said be it the fat belly, saggy body and chubby face, eventually you will find somebody who don't really care at all, OK maybe that's true, but how many guys would want a fatso with ugly face as their girl friend. Face the truth, life is a bitch and it always will be. thats how realistic guys are. OK enough With the grumbling ,time to do some house chores to kill time. Bye bitches.
Tell me how not to feel guilty when you had procrastinate for almost a freaking week? Somebody. Tell me pls, I am feeling freaking guilty now, fuck. OK I know I'm not supposed to whine here, but who tell hell would want to spend their holidays with piles of homework and assignment? I know some people couldn't live without homework, but trust me I am definitely not that kind of person. And what is more devastating is when you know that you have exams waiting for you when the school starts next week. WELL WELL let's see we have another thing to be added to the list liao, I fucking hate exams and homework. Why we have exams why can't We just study and then enjoy learning new things instead of being tortured to death for your lousy academic performance as people couldn't stop judging who you are based on your result? That is just so irony, not that I'm trying to persuade people to give up their studies, but somehow studying is not about memorizing facts from text books, I mean everybody can do that, everything is given, so what do you expect? Well, all I could say people have different pov regarding this matter,and you know what they are mentally sick . Well, let's hope they have a bright future. Despite the facts that they don't even know how to be a normal people, well they can't be normal they are just a bunch of kiasus who know nothing other than memorising facts from text book. I give you my empathy, and I sincerely hope that you would wake up from that dream of yours, that being top scorer is everything in your live. You are dumb, for real, you are really dumb. Nahhhhh, can Somebody tell me why is this GO keyboard so fucking hard to use? Keep on having serious typo ah. Asshole.
