childhood memories.

hi readers! after a two-day hiatus, finally i'm back! LOL. never feel so great before. *don't expect me to tell you why,blerk* xD as you can see, i've change the header of my blog, in my opinion i like it very much, well i'm talking rubbish i wouldn't change it if i don't love it.hehe. and the playlist has changed as well, enjoy the  songs readers, it's my favourite after all hehe. actually i want to put in YG's songs only but then i changed my mind.heheh.

few days ago, my older brother and my sister were chatting in the living room and i joined in their conversation as well. They were talking about things that remind me of my childhood. i have to say kids nowadays are lucky, why would i say so. easy, the 90's kids spent their entire childhood with sand,mud, hide-and-seek and etc but kids nowadays have iphone, ipad, laptop. see the difference? it's sad to see kids nowadays don't play the way like we did, it's their lost.haha (sorry to say this, no offense though,just a piece of my mind)

ok these are the things that reminds me of my childhood.
1. Digimon

here comes the highlight! hehe my brother is the one who introduced digimon in our families, i still remember the excitement when we first watched this. at that time, we rent the tapes from the shop and watch it at home. when we already finish it, we urge our parents to rent new  episodes from the shop. till now it has 6 series. but my favourite series are the I,II,III,and IV. didn't watch the Vand VI one, somehow i didn't see the originality in those 2 series.



2.Pokemon
and then here comes the cute one! i am sure many of you know this cartoon. i'm not ashamed to admit that

 i still watch this now.hehe! HIGH -FIVE to those who watch it as well.haha. i was attracted by Pikachu's cuteness, Satoshi's never-gave-up-spirits.and the most important thing-----all of the pokemons are so damn adorable. LOL. 








3.Doraemon

Doraemon! the cutest thing ever in this world. somehow i thought doraemon do exist when i'm still a kid.hehe. i even imagine things i can do when i have doraemon by my side :borrow time machine from doraemon and memorize all the answers in exam and then i don't have to study anymore. or borrow something from him and take revenge on those jerks who pissed me off ;D oh ya and there's one pair of shoes i want to have from doraemon as well. the shoes enable those who wear it to step inside the world of story tales. that just awesome!




and i also play silly things when i'm still a brat. like things below:-
1. bake cookies using mud (not really bake, just put the so-called cookies under the sun and wait for it to get hard.)
2. fishing (with no bait at all as i thought the fish will come to me if i put fishing rod into the water)
3.build my own base with scraps
4. boil the water and put some grasses in it ( i called it 'tea')

LOL. can't stop laughing xD look how silly i am. well everybody's silly when they are still small.heheh. wish i could go back to that time. it's just too so much fun. too bad things like time machine doesn't exist.=((
i really appreciate the things and people who appeared in my childhood times, thanks for making my childhood colourful. it's just amazing. and when you grow up, you'll realize things are not as simple as we think when we were small. how i wish i could go back and enjoy the simple but yet happy life i once had.

talking nonsense

i've realized that my blog is boring, like totally boring? can't find anything captive in my blog, it's dull and not worth reading at all.even i myself as the blog owner would make this face (like the picture in the left) when i view my blog. i guess i'm going to admit that i've lost the enthusiasm in managing my blog. it's sad to hear that. but to be honest, i never have the capability in keeping my passion towards something for more than a month, i guess. or a month is already at maximum. i really have to change this attitude or else how i am going to survive in this cruel and reality-based society. it's not about the strong ones survive it's about those who fit well in the society survive. that's the rule. 

when i first made my blog. i want it to be simple and elegant. and now it looked really simple but it's too plain, i guess elegant is too much for me. like stars in the sky, you knew they existed but somehow you couldn't reach for it, it's beyond your capability. and i think i kinda don't remember the reason why i made this blog. LOL. such a piggy head. but then whenever i'm having a bad day or some jerks pissed me, this little place of mine become a good place for me to let it all out. though things couldn't be solved by simply writing at here but it does make you feel better.


i do not know whether people are reading my blog or not, or i'm just having hallucination that i have tons of readers viewing my blog each day,LOL, i don't really care anymore. what important is that i love it. if i don't love it who's going to love it more than i do?? LOL.

doomsday

i'm sick!!! sore throat and caught flu.IN FACT i have been sicked for 4 days already, i feel like hell.

6 days more and here comes doomsday. i'm not nervous (liar) but i'm doing my best not to think about it. a little bit scare to see that. but mom said she's not going to say anything to my results as she knew i have already gave  my best. but then it hurts so much when u didn't achieve your parents expectation. gggrrrrr...hope next week come faster, i don't want to been through this waiting-anticipating-and-yet-nerve wrecking-endless-day anymore.it's torturing.

okay, that's all for today.bye peeps.

hi peeps! Today's my big day! heheh, no big celebration though, ady celebrated few weeks ago. =) turned 18 today, and whether i like it or not i'm an adult now! but then today is just another ordinary day for me, no extra or special feelings about it. or maybe i should go to bar and have some alcohol and gone wild? nice idea, but i have no guts to do so. i don't want to die yet! xD

haha, i guess that's all for my birthday post.sorry i know it's too short but to be honest, i have nothing to say except the fact that i wish my birthday wishes do come true. hehee.ok that's all.bye readers, have a nice day =))

急性子

我自认是个不折不扣的急性子
‘慢’这个字似乎与我的性格格格不入
做东西什么都要快
比如：
1.看电视剧的时候会先去查看结局（在这虚拟的网路世界，只要动动手指，要什么有什么）结局不好不看
2.看小说的时候，总会第一时间往最后一页翻，烂结局宁可不看 xD
3.减肥的时候三不五时都会去量体重 （严重1天之内可以量几次）看见体重没有下就不减了
4.妹妹在用我的电脑的时候，我总会问“好liao吗？好liao吗？” 实际上她只用了10分钟 （抱歉）
5.逛街的时候 我总爱说：可以回家了吗？我很累，脚很‘酸’ (实际上是想回家追连续剧）

以及................（我就省略下来了啦）

其实说‘慢’与我格格不入也有点不对，我也有‘慢’ 的时候
1.跑步慢 跑没两下就气喘如牛
2.学习慢 总得学几次才会做的好
3.领悟慢 简单的道理要很慢才会领悟 （可悲）
4.月经慢 同样是女人可是我的姨妈总不会守时，（真头疼）

我应该是急性子+慢郎中的合体 hahahah!

有感而发

以前的时候

总爱说我要这样，我要那样

现在想起来自己真的是蠢到可以

什么我要这样做

我要那样做

在这样现实的世界上

不是自己说了就算

不是每一件事情都能够照着自己的意思进行

就像那天空

它不会永远是晴空万里

也许在你没有注意的时候

天空会布满乌云，下起雨来

可笑的时这天空也不会永远是那样阴沉

所以未来会怎样我们也不知道

或许下一秒

自己不在这个世界了也说不定

这些事情不是我们说了算

树会枯 花会凋 月有圆缺

而人的感情比这些东西更脆弱、经不起打击

甚至有时候连最亲的人之间也要互相猜疑  

真讽刺啊 '_'

现在

幸福离我很远 

而我能做的只有往前看

期望前面等着我的会是一片春天

a visit to the camp

Aloha! so here i am again today. been away for whole day and just went back from camp few hours ago.

haha! So today i came across an old friend of mine whom i have never met for ages, we chat in facebook and he invited me to visit our friends in the army camp.

so i was like hesitating but then i decided to go with them as i have never meet them for ages. Haha, the trip was cool and fun haha!

as we arrived at the camp, the canteen was flooded with people and parents. to be honest, this is my first time ever being there. and basically everything is far more different from what i thought it would be. haha i thought it would be a place full of mud and mosquitoes but it was quite clean, well this is what i see in the canteen la, not sure whether it will be the same in their dormitories though.LMAO.

haha we spent our day at there and chat a lot. haha. and we end up being silent in the car during our way back home.ngahaha. too tired  i guess.

currently watching Jeremy Lin's highlights on youtube and i was like, OMGEEEE HE'S SO HOT! can't stop rewind those video just can't get enough of this. xD ok gtg now. bye peeps!! =)))

i ain't perfect.

hi readers! it's been a long time since my last update. honestly, i'm not really into blogger lately well until i saw this incredible man on the news when i was bored.

<<< see the guy in black, obviously not the guy at the back. He is now the hottest discussion on the internet lately, those basketball maniacs are talking about him and even those who never watch basketball match know him, to be short, he's famous now. it's like the whole world is talking about him.

Not long ago, i came across an article regarding him on the newspapers and frankly speaking, he catches my attention. HAHA.

ok, His name is Jeremy Lin, and currently playing for knicks, with number of 17. hahah. i only know a few things about him, oh ya forgot to mention that he's now the one and only professional basketball player whom managed to graduate from Harvard University. Surprise eh? i was surprised too. haha. i think that's all i know about him and though i'm not a huge fan of him but still he catches my eye. Not only he's tall (191cm,holy god! xD), but he's cute too. xDDD hahah *smirked. guy who knows how to play basketball is just so smoldering hot! and 3  of my ex-crushes used to basketball players. =))) *proud. xD

ok so i decided to write my a post for him, hahah, but then i was shocked when kim kardashian said she's interested towards him. (pls kim, don't flirt around him, he's way too good for you, switch your target please.)

this post will end here i guess. enjoy reading it peeps. will continue to update it when i have the chance. =)

you remind me of how pathetic i am, thanks a lot =)

craziness

i've been a big fan of 2ne1 since they debut, but then i wasn't able to pay my attention to them coz my bias was Super Junior that time.
and then just when i watch MAMA again, i thought 2ne1 is superb! i mean they are really globalized, even the superstars in Europe work with them, awesome eh? hehe =)
2ne1, hwaiting!

my life's a turd =P

that's what i would say right now, all turd.

Last night was totally a mess you know, all the harsh words and bad-mouth things happen like within a second.

A phone call is enough to tear us apart, and luckily i still have my earphone, cover both my ears with volume to the max, well, it does help a little and thanks to that i manage to survive. ;D

this year has been a rough year for me, never feel so exhausted and helpless before. i cried at night when everybody else had fallen asleep and that's the best time for me to let those feelings out without people notice it.

Crying may not be the best solution but you'll certainly feel better.

;

i swear if i have a knife in my hand i would use it to stab into your heart slowly and eternally, and by then you'll know how much it hurts your loved ones betray you.

life = obstacles

you can't call your life as life when there aren't any obstacles.
obviously, this is what we live for.
and now, i'm here coz i have my own problems to deal with.
i guess everybody has problems, to deal with it or to ignore it,it's basically your choice.
now i feel like i'm standing on a crowded street, where thousand of people walk pass nme.
i looked at each and everyone of them, hoping they could at least realize that i'm shouting out S.O.S
but then people disappeared, i was alone on the street, crying.
well, this is basically how i feel,right now.
I used to think that if you ignore it things will be just fine, but then i'm so wrong.
sarcastic eh?

"我学会了带着面具微笑，即使我并不开心。" -------------我的心情写照

近况

话说 我的生活真的很颓废
话说 我也不想这么过生活
但是 每一天一睁开眼睛的时候
就会很心灰意冷，觉得自己很失败

也不懂为什么自己会有这样的感觉
如果知道原因的话 我也不会在这边发牢骚了
很讨厌自己这样emo

=（

勇气

明明只是个简单的问候

明明只是个简单的“你好吗，最近过得可好？”

我却难以启齿。

一切关于你的回忆，那些已泛黄的回忆

却还在我的脑海里。

一个人的夜晚，一个人的双人床，我好像想你了。

你....

最近好吗？

梦.想

梦想这个字，我想是离我很远的。

从来没有想过自己要当个什么伟大的人

不，也许我曾经有过什么感人的梦想

只不过，我还不敢去实现它

与其说不敢，倒不如说自己没有勇气

17年的光阴，什么都没有说就溜走了。

现在的自己，什么都不知道

对自己的未来也没有任何憧憬

可悲？可怜？毫无头绪

算了

船到桥头自然直

现在的自己只想走好现在的路

以后什么的就交给老天爷决定吧

lala =))))))))))

oh great, i just woke up. haha
my schedule has been a mess since holidays kicked off.
gggrrrr..haha Chinese New Year is just around the corner, like less than few days??? xDDD
i asked my mom yesterday: Mum, we are going back to Sibu on next next week right?
my mom looked at me with her eyes as big as a ball and said : next week la!
i was like: oh my god, next week? are you serious.

i have never expected it would be so fast. LOL.
oh ya, before i end this post : Happy Chinese New Year everybody. Wish you have a blissful and prosperous year. bye bye =)))

oh gosh

shit shit shit shit shit

i've accidentally delete my recent post!!!!! hell!!!! ggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr =(((((

once bitten twice shy.

ONCE BITTEN TWICE SHY. what an awesome said.
you said you'll be more careful next time. but you didn't prove it to me.
well, maybe you say it for fun, and i don't know whether you meant every words that come out from your mouth.
i'm quite disappointed at you actually. urgh. not gonna talk much about this. what i want to say is that i really dislike your behaviour. dun make yourself such a......not gonna say that word. haiz.

我的各團本命

SHINee 本命 : onew

BEAST 本命 : gikwang

2AM 本命 : seulong

2PM 本命 : chansung

ZE:A 本命 : junyoung

SuJu 本命 : Kyuhyun

FTIsland 本命 ：Choi Jong Hun

SS501 本命 : -

MBLAQ 本命 : Thunder

4Minute 本命 : JiHyun

SnSd 本命 : Seohyun

TvXq 本命 : U-know

UKiss 本命 : Kevin Woo!

JYJ 本命 : -

BigBang 本命 : TaeYang

CNBLUE 本命 : JungShin xD

2NE1 本命 : CL

TeenTop 本命 : -

miss A 本命 : Fei

sistar 本命: Bora

BEG 本命 : Gain

AfterSchool 本命 :-

f(x) 本命 : Victoria!

Secret 本命 : HyoSung

KARA 本命 : -

T-ara 本命 : JiYeon

WG 本命 : -

F.CUZ 本命 : -

B1A4 本命: -

A Pink 本命: -

Infinite 本命: SungGyu

Block B 本命: -

Girl's Day 本命:-

大国男儿 本命: -