[..dehydration?LOL]

am i gonna die from dehydration? LOL i am soooo thirsty right now LOL, but don't feel like want to drink anything..just back from school..argh...tired + frustrated + depressed + exasperated !
stay on for three days continuously~ TT..and the weather is killing me..when it is hot, you feel like you can fried an egg already,no jokes! and when it turns cold, you feel like you travel to north pole. argh...but i prefer cold weather..i dislike hot day. i get offended easily when the day is humid.

argh! i should do it better..but it already happened so nothing can be done to change it..just accept the fate is what i can do...i want to learn to piano~ but since i already learned violin (though i learn myself) but probably my mom would just ignore my suggestion..what? since when i'm interested in piano..LOL, ya lor, since when? haha..perhaps i get addicted to piano ever since i watch Naruto for the second times just a few weeks ago...i like the insert song displayed in the show when Naruto is feeling sorrow and sad. well, the piece really caught my heart.and i want to learn to play that piece..haha..but i know it's impossible..i don't even know how to read the music sheets..haha, probably this is just a dream that will never come true..so i will just keep it in my mind~ and one day if i have kids i wanna sent my kids for the musical lesson xD LOL, if they are interested to learn. =D lolx, then i can ask my kids to teach me LOL~~~

hey! okay..will stop now...still got some homework haven't done! i wanna do my best in the next exam..:P

[不管了...]

以前
生气的时候
都会常常来这里发泄

现在
不管了
生气又怎样？
不能解决事情
又 伤身
与其生气
不如不管吧

时间过久了
就会淡忘一切
对你
对我
都好

不是选择放弃
只是选择忘记
忘记这一切
才能够做回自己...

wgm

watching wgm (we got married) now =D
nichkhun !! here i come xDD

[maid? LOL]

Saturday, what a wonderful Saturday we had xD it was fun though.
we work at the koperasi.checking stocks, cleaning and so on...
haha, maybe you'll ask, what so fun? but you'll know how pleasant it was when you're working with my boisterous friends xD..hahaha..all sorts of jokes come out,when we were working in the store, though it was humid and temperate. there was no fan inside the room..so we were sweating like we're just back from running. LOL, then we started to talk about the past.all the silly things we've done. like performing in front of the audience,it was really embarassing then..but then it was convivial~ LOL..
ok, the post will end here..BB =D off to watch invincible youth LOL

[change]

"don't be afraid to change.."
"you have to change.."
the phrases people use the most.
talking of 'change'. what's in your mind?
to be honest to tell, i hate to change. i'll be the original me as far as i could.
it might be good, or another way, bad. things didn't work out the way we want. like relationship, some relationship didn't work out. we cried, we grieved.nothing can be done to save this relationship.let it gone by, our lives must go on.

speaking of change...it reminds of some people i know..i used to think that, changing isn't a bad thing. but when you grown up, it brings effects, not only to that particular person, but also those around that person. some people change coz they want to accommodate and get adapted with the surroundings. sometimes, bleak conditions force people to change, albeit they don't willing to change.but they have to, in order to survive in this brutal world. things seemed easy, but actually don't. remember the time we used to talk jokes? gossiping, spying people, though it might be a small matter, but these are the things i remember till now. but now, taking a glance at you seems to be the hardest thing to do. =( i ain't trying to aggravate..but i feel like if i don't let this out, i'm going to die (not really),LOL.some of you might think this post is pointless. yep, it might be pointless, it is a crap, rubbish and whatever, i don't really care. i don't wanna disguise myself as a person you don't know. i wanna prove my personal existence in this world. i do exist in this world. i might be a tiny person, but at least i'm real.being able to live in this world is the most wonderful gift i ever had. all of us have tomorrow, and plus it will never be out of stock. as long as you have it, you'll have the chance to proof yourself. =D the post end here.bye..^^

[...]

i don't know what should i put for the title.so i just put it as '...' haha..let's talk about today,shall we? LOL, firstly, i was so anticipated.you know why? lol, because we can go back earlier..and as today no stay on, so i thought i could just lied at the sofa, and watch tv. but what i wished earlier has become bubbles. Teacher forced those who were in waja to attend the practice. or else. demerit 10.
i hesitated. should i go, or shouldn't? my mind was driving me crazy. but then i decided to go, for that 10 marks. haha, but i go there for taking the attendance only, then started to talk with the teachers (and gossiping also) LOL.it's drizzling that time.and it was fun too, hmm, but it started to rain heavily at 4. i stayed at the school for a while, to wait for the rain to stop. haha,that's all.uneventful ==

i am so full! ate too much just now..haha..i'm going to school tomorrow..which is a burden to me. but i must go. TT..i thought i could sleep for a longer time. TT haiz haiz haiz...luckily, i passed for my physics.i thought i would fail.haha..it was really lucky then. hmm..got nothing to blog anymore.will stop here.BB

slack off!

i'm kinda slack off now. TT
i want to try hard,but my heart doesn't want me to..
TT

just finished glee!

just finished glee season 1!
the best drama i've ever seen! haha
but too bad, new direction didn't win against vocal adrenaline
but sue did a great job though, she blackmailed the principle to give the glee club another year, and thus glee club is not disbanded! hooray~
and Quinne baby girl is born, it looks sooo cute~
i wonder when will season 2 come? i'm looking forward to watch it~hooohooo~

[hopefully...]

hopefully everything will be fine..

finally! =((

finally!
the last day of holidays~ =((
i wish tml never come.
but this only happens in my dream.
actually
i don't hate school
what i hate is i have to wake up early in the morning, shit.
haiz...
okay will off now...
looking forward to this saturday! wanna watch 'we got married'
LOL!!! yeah~!

i shouldn't watch it!
argh, here i am again
waiting for the newest episode of tsuki no koibito to come out, with subs!
=(
i shouldn't watch it first, or else i wouldn't end up like this, waiting for it desperately ~
TT
ARGHHHH~!

♥ Tsuki no Koibito ♥

[???]

just went back from fetching my sister.
i've been a Miri citizen for 16 years
and u know what? only now i know that the Miri public library is closed on MONDAY! what a shame.
i thought i can finish my oral report today! =(
anyway,i want to watch karate kid~=D hehe
but i'm dead broke, someone lend me money,pls?
my mom is going to hit me if i try to take money from her xD
lolx.
*don't stop believing,hold on to that feeling...street light...people..o-o-o* can't stop singing this song ,it's so addictive...~hahaaha~
just bought singapore true ghost stories, *exciting*. this will probably keep me awake for the whole night xD LOL
6 days left =( school days again? trying hard not to accept the fact that school is going to reopen.
ok,the post will end here, nothing to blog about, bye~!!

[glee season 2]

want to watch Glee season 2 so badly
but currently can't find it
no one uploads it =(
argh, are they going to win over vocal adrenaline?
my curiosity is driving me crazy!!!
wonder what i'm going to watch next.
i mean some of the Taiwanese dramas are mostly very lame, somehow.
hmmmm....
i prefer Hong Kong dramas.
i want a thrill, seriously!
my life's getting bored. LOL
everything is going back to normal after the school reopened
which means, i will undergo the same routine everyday again.
HELL!
some of my homework is incomplete yet. Beat me up,babe! need to rush my homework again.
and now my legs hurt, probably because of the weather. and the raise fund thing is making my head bigger. =(
i'm getting better now..listening to the musics makes me feel better..well, it takes time to forget all the problem i had..lolx, "defying gravity" eh...been crazy about Glee lately. LOL, you know what, Kurt is my fav in the series. LOl he caught my attention somehow..
erm, i've been spending most of my times in front of the computer. blogging and so on. Not bad though. i no longer need journal anymore, this blog has become the place where i express my thoughts.it's cool somehow. but it's kinda empty ya know, i just couldn't explain it. ermmm....
ok, will stop here, need to take my shower and finish my damn homework. Bye,readers.i will keep my blog updated as soon as i can. BYE!

[me]

like any other girls do, am just an ordinary girl.
nothing special about me. and sometime i'm easily overlook.
this is me.
i got a lovely family, but sometime i just don't appreciate them. kinda regret after all.
i'm so sorry to my mom.
for not listening to her advise she had told me.
and now, i know how bad the consequences are.
haha, kinda sarcastic ya know.
but i will move on.
no matter what.
i will move on myself.
you are not worthy to stop me from stepping forward.
Helll

[i am sick of everything]

i've decided already.
whatever happens around me.
i won't act like an old lady, try to look into the matter and solve it.
i don't want to torture myself like this.
at the end, i get nothing.
by the way.
i am not going to talk very much.
my words are offensive, ya know.
i'll just keep my mouth shut.
don't misunderstood.
the post is not against anyone.
am just angry with myself. what i've been through.nobody asks me about it.
it's fine anyway.since nobody wants to listen. i'm not going to talk with the wall, anyway.
if this is what you want for,i'll grant your wish, i wont talk anymore.
HELLL

[you don't know, don't you]

=(((((((((

[paranoid]

time flies,it does.
and i'm getting more paranoid too.
=( frustrating.
i've choose not to care too much.
but sometime my heart won't let me do so.
perhaps my heart is tired from ignoring things,eh?
i don't know.
i don't know what i'm thinking too.
you don't understand the pressure i'm under.
it's not merely pressure, more than pressure i think.
those dirty emotion i wanna get rid of, somehow it is taking my heart away.
do you know how much it hurts...
when there's a lot people in the contact,
but you just couldn't find a person to share your problem with?
it's not they are not trustworthy...
maybe we're not good enough i guess..
and also scare to bother others...
i care a lot , i guess...
i do care what others think about me, sometime i wish i could ignore this feeling
but i knew i will never get rid of it, as long as i'm still breathing..

[nightmares]

i had a nightmare last night.

in my dream,
the school is about to reopen
and my homework is still 'clean and clear' LOL
and then i still remember i was so shocked that i kicked my sister face that night =D
LOL, feel so sorry for her xD

i hate nightmares
couldn't sleep well this few night.
well, kinda reminds me of the horror film~
"a nightmare on elm street", it sends a shiver down my spine!it will totally freak me out if i watch this =(

haha, is there anything i wish to blog about,hmm =D
erm, yea! tomorrow is WED~ yea yea yea~
i'm going to be so excite about this ~ my dad has back to his work, i miss him ,seriously =(
but i never told him this =D too shy to say =D

i'll just stop here =D bye bye

[recently]

hi there!~i've been so active lately~haha =D anyway,i'm here to share some of my thought about some particular things. first of all, don't you think it's kinda stupid and nonsense and to held a stupid competition in FB? what a shame, and i refused to participate. Prettiness can't be judged by outer appearance! what more important is inner character =.= so please stop asking me to join the stupid event =.= what worst is, you might ruin our school's reputation, though i don't care at all, but being a part of the school, i feel like i just wanna ralph on you!

secondly, i'm going to hang out this WED! which makes me wanna shake my butt LOL =D and i'm in love so much with GLEE~ lol, though some of the scenes might be a little bit inappropriate to us, but hey it really makes me want to watch it over and over again =D and i've changed my blog skin =D and i like it =DDD

ok will stop here,got nothing to share with already. BYE ^^

[the one and only]

i was thinking
the reason why i hate you
i questioned myself recently
was it because i get jealous of you?
NO WAY
though i'm ugly
though i'm always the one who people make fun of
but i'm satisfied with my look
i was born this way, so i have to be contented with myself
this is the way i lead my life
though you are always in the center of attention
and how i wish i could be in that way too
but it doesn't make me feel that i am special
and one day
my mom told me that
"what makes you special is who you are."


is being fat offensive?
is being ugly offensive?

NO!
YOU MUST UNDERSTAND YOU ARE SPECIAL =D

the foundation of being a happy person is to accept who you are
and slowly you'll know you're not as bad as you can think
don't ever try to compare yourself with others, coz you are THE ONE AND ONLY =D
you know who you are
you'll know how good and unique you are
=D

have you ever....

have you ever feel that you just want to lock yourself in a room for no reason

and cry as much as you can?
have you ever feel very mad that you just wanna hit yourself heavily on the wall?
have you ever feel that everyone around you is trying to betray you ?
have you ever hate someone that you just wanna tear that person into billion pieces?
have you ever suffer from a severe headache that you feel like want to cut your head off?
have you ever get jealous of someone because she/he is more talented than you are?
have you ever want to shut yourself in a room and try not to step out of that room for 3 days?
have you ever eat something that is disgusted?
have you ever mad of someone who really mean important to you?
have you ever love someone that will always make you cry?
have you ever hit someone seriously in the face?
have you ever stab someone ?
have you ever think that you are a mean girl?
have you ever think that you are so mean to others?
have you ever think that you are just a bunch of shit?
have you ever hate a teacher so much?
have you ever love someone that you just want to follow him or her back home?
have you ever complaint to your parents that they didn't treat you well enough?
have you ever ask yourself why you aren't born with silver spoon in your mouth?
have you ever talk rude to the others?
have you ever wish to the stars secretly?
have you ever wish that you never born to this world?
have you ever wish that you never met the person who hurts your heart?

life is full of "have you ever..." D:

i am now in such a bad mood!

GLEE!

am watching this right now

this is nice~! hahaha

ggrrrrr......

so i'm here again, to blog for nothing =D argh! ONE WEEK HAS PASSED! my god, too fast, =((
slap me in the face pls, and tell me this is a dream
i'll be grateful for that
haha
recently addicted to biggest loser, argh! i wish i could slim down like those people did
=DDDD
emo-ing
don't know what to do now
no one to chat in msn
haha
i want to watch BOUNTY HUNTER!! hahaha, it seems nice =DDDD
arrgghhh
my social life is bored i know
but i enjoy it
i rather live my life this way
=D ordinary and happy hahaha
ok,i'll just stop here
=D bye bye

i'll be a home to your homeless heart ;)

recently
i've addicted to a song called homeless heart
by Jennette Mccurdy
they said the song is dedicated to her friend who died because of brain cancer
Sad T.T
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
people said die is easy
life is hard
i don't know which one is true

***************************************************
so when you're alone on the crowded street
when you're in the dark
i'll be a home to your homeless heart

if only i could heal the scar in your heart
if only i could wipe the tears that coming out from your eyes
if only i am the one who you need
i'll always be there for you
together we will walk along the path

dedicated for you, my love =D

this is irritating
gross!

exciting

just visited dailykpopnews.com
and i have never expected that f(x) victoria and 2pm's nichkhun
is filming WE GOT MARRIED
though i've dreamed of victoria filming this with someone else
but i never expect this dream will come true =D
it's fine with nichkhun,he looks absolutely good haha

someone posted something in the wall,hmm about 10 hours ago
not pretty sure.
like i said,things won't be easy
and now,problem occurs, see?
maybe they are still immature.
thinking that they way they do it is the best solution
i guess they never think about the consequence.
well, "TEENS" haha

hey, you know what.
i'm still over excited regarding the news,though abit stunning also
haha
alone in the house now
they all went out already.
my dad just came back yesterday
and i realized something
whenever he came back from his work, a heavy downpour will happen on that day.
LOL haha, my mom told me this
and i did realized this was true
hahahahaha
hmm,
what should i do now?
argh, talking about hw
i haven't lay a single finger on it
my mom already urged me to finish the hw
"hey, what about ur hw,don't always spend ur time in front of the computer"
"mom, i got three weeks of holidays. i'll finish it next week.i know what should i do"
"...."
but i guess i'll regret when the school is just about reopen
haha, no offense.
i just want to relax, from the busy routine i always had.
Playing hotel city now
i've spent most of my money to buy the small theater room,
still making effort to earn back the money
hahaha
yesterday talked about the anime 'clannad' with ying
it spoiled my mood,somehow it does
all the sad scenes,haiz, why they have to make it this way
i can remember,i know.
it wouldn't be nice if the ending is a happy ending like other typical anime does,maybe they just want to make it different
but i just can't accept the fact, the ending might be too harsh for me
i might cry like a baby later if i watch this
so it explain why i stop watching this two years ago
as i knew my tears will fall down crazily

haha
i've talked so much today hahaha
-off to watch vampire diaries-
-bye,readers-
♥♥♥

The Princess and The Frog

just finish watching
never expect my tears would fall down at the end of the movie
the firefly-Ray died at the end
after he died,he become a star next to a star called Evangeline
and Tiana married to the prince =D haha as i expected =D
haha =DD