10 more episode, the i will finish my fav anime.
but then the feelings come to me again
it happens every time when something has come to an end.
seriously, i really hate it.
well, i know i can watch other anime for substitution but it just won't do.
nothing can replace it.
like no one can replace you.
it's kinda sad though.
but i will just deal with it.
with the help of time.
i will forget about this feeling that kept within me.
but how come i still feel sad?
as if the tears are going to fall down at anytime.
perhaps it's impossible for me to forget about it.
='( argh, gutless! i'm such a coward.
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Friday, July 30, 2010
what if he knows?
i'm dead! it looks like he knew already.
so what i'm gonna do?
wish i could dig a hole and hide it inside
so afraid that he would know
so afraid to appear in front of him
so afraid of everything
='(
told myself to let you go
but never dare to do so.
just like the song " if i let you go"
this song suits me perfectly =((
so what i'm gonna do?
wish i could dig a hole and hide it inside
so afraid that he would know
so afraid to appear in front of him
so afraid of everything
='(
told myself to let you go
but never dare to do so.
just like the song " if i let you go"
this song suits me perfectly =((
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
i ain't the doll in ur hand
sometime, i wish i could just ignore it
but still, the more i deny it, the more i hate about it.
the hatred is growing even stronger.
stronger than b4.
you know what, sometime i wish i could tell you how much i hate you
compare to others, i am nothing but just a bunch a shit
and yet, i thought u would treat me differently.
fake smile, ignorance. hell ya.
but still, the more i deny it, the more i hate about it.
the hatred is growing even stronger.
stronger than b4.
you know what, sometime i wish i could tell you how much i hate you
compare to others, i am nothing but just a bunch a shit
and yet, i thought u would treat me differently.
fake smile, ignorance. hell ya.
Monday, July 26, 2010
it's the best day ever
"it's the best day ever~"
i just wanna sing the song right now xD
i had fun today. went to college to take scholarship~ it was fun though, but it is more fun when we're on the way coming back. Haha. because we were very frustrated as we thought we're late. but luckily, the event haven't start yet. =D yeah~
and i encountered with other friends whom i hadn't meet them for couple of years. well, perhaps 4 years? we didn't talked much though, because i didn't greet them. well, i have to be honest, i'm the kind of person who isn't good at sociable. that's why, there were people who misunderstood that i'm such an arrogant person. well, i dun noe why, perhaps it's hard for me open my mouth first. but i felt so sorry for some other friends whom i have seen but didn't greet them. SORRY xD
but still, there is a particular person whose name could not be revealed i dun want greet. well, because he hurt me once. dun misunderstood, i dun have any close relationship with that person. but still, he hurt me with his words. but it's ok now, he's studying in other school, PRIVATE SCHOOL. well, he's rich. he could afford the school fees and transportation and etc etc...
wait..why would i waste my time in front of the pc to talk about him?
about the school. i have no idea where it was located until the kind bus driver drove us there. but now, if u ask me again where the school is, sorry, i forgot. LOL. coz i've never been that area b4 =D but the school was clean and big. and the facilities were good, and it was better than my school one =DDD haha.
after the event, we had feast at the school canteen. =DDD
and i met daphne's him. but i dun dare to have a close look at him, because he will think i was a pervert.lol, plus daph will angry =DD i should've ask daph come for me hahahahhaha...=DDD
i just wanna sing the song right now xD
i had fun today. went to college to take scholarship~ it was fun though, but it is more fun when we're on the way coming back. Haha. because we were very frustrated as we thought we're late. but luckily, the event haven't start yet. =D yeah~
and i encountered with other friends whom i hadn't meet them for couple of years. well, perhaps 4 years? we didn't talked much though, because i didn't greet them. well, i have to be honest, i'm the kind of person who isn't good at sociable. that's why, there were people who misunderstood that i'm such an arrogant person. well, i dun noe why, perhaps it's hard for me open my mouth first. but i felt so sorry for some other friends whom i have seen but didn't greet them. SORRY xD
but still, there is a particular person whose name could not be revealed i dun want greet. well, because he hurt me once. dun misunderstood, i dun have any close relationship with that person. but still, he hurt me with his words. but it's ok now, he's studying in other school, PRIVATE SCHOOL. well, he's rich. he could afford the school fees and transportation and etc etc...
wait..why would i waste my time in front of the pc to talk about him?
about the school. i have no idea where it was located until the kind bus driver drove us there. but now, if u ask me again where the school is, sorry, i forgot. LOL. coz i've never been that area b4 =D but the school was clean and big. and the facilities were good, and it was better than my school one =DDD haha.
after the event, we had feast at the school canteen. =DDD
and i met daphne's him. but i dun dare to have a close look at him, because he will think i was a pervert.lol, plus daph will angry =DD i should've ask daph come for me hahahahhaha...=DDD
Sunday, July 25, 2010
well...
just finished one my fav anime.
i've been sitting in front of the computer for hours.
and my butt hurts so much. Haha, you'll see my butt is growing bigger by tomorrow,in fact it is big now. LOL.
i thought by watching anime, could help to distract myself from thinking of u.
but still, it does not work.
my mum asked me to have our breakfast outside this morning, and i refused.
i'm afriad to step outside of the house, even a single step.
coz i will start thinking this and that again.
i'd rather spent my time at home, numb myself with the animes.
but it ends up with me missing him more.
well, after i finished the anime, i suddenly had a thought
"ah...so it's over, the story stops here. kinda sad though." and i had a desire that the story could go on and on and on.
but things just don't turn out the way we want, isn't it. we can't control everything in our lives.
but still , we desire something.
" how i wish he/she is mine."
"ohh, i wish i could have that thing." bla bla bla.
humans are imperfect, that's why they could do everything just to get the things they wanted. Betrayal, humiliation, killing, accusation ..bla bla bla. and life's a junk.
and you know, of all the things human desire, Love is included.
we need love, it is something we can't deny.
we need to be loved, to be cared.
this is humans.
and you know what?... i need you D:
='( it's a pain when u love somebody who didn't love you back.
just finished one my fav anime.
i've been sitting in front of the computer for hours.
and my butt hurts so much. Haha, you'll see my butt is growing bigger by tomorrow,in fact it is big now. LOL.
i thought by watching anime, could help to distract myself from thinking of u.
but still, it does not work.
my mum asked me to have our breakfast outside this morning, and i refused.
i'm afriad to step outside of the house, even a single step.
coz i will start thinking this and that again.
i'd rather spent my time at home, numb myself with the animes.
but it ends up with me missing him more.
well, after i finished the anime, i suddenly had a thought
"ah...so it's over, the story stops here. kinda sad though." and i had a desire that the story could go on and on and on.
but things just don't turn out the way we want, isn't it. we can't control everything in our lives.
but still , we desire something.
" how i wish he/she is mine."
"ohh, i wish i could have that thing." bla bla bla.
humans are imperfect, that's why they could do everything just to get the things they wanted. Betrayal, humiliation, killing, accusation ..bla bla bla. and life's a junk.
and you know, of all the things human desire, Love is included.
we need love, it is something we can't deny.
we need to be loved, to be cared.
this is humans.
and you know what?... i need you D:
='( it's a pain when u love somebody who didn't love you back.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
i admit that i'm not good at pretending.
when i wanted something so badly, i just showed it.
and it is so obvious that u could know what i'm thinking with only one look at me.
but this is also what i wish i could get rid of.
but you know what, my heart doesn't allow me to do so.
='((( heartache.
perhaps i am a poor liar.
when i wanted something so badly, i just showed it.
and it is so obvious that u could know what i'm thinking with only one look at me.
but this is also what i wish i could get rid of.
but you know what, my heart doesn't allow me to do so.
='((( heartache.
perhaps i am a poor liar.
Friday, July 23, 2010
i don't know...
i don't know what should i say.
i don't know what should i do.
i don't know how should i react.
i don't know i don't know i don't know.
ady at my wit's end.
never knew things will turn out this way.
and never knew i would fall for you.
but i'm just uncertain about this feeling.
my hands were sweating.
my head felt dizzy, as if the world was spinning on its own.
wanna shook you out of my head but i just can't.
the more i try to deny it, the more obvious that i really fall for you.
but i'm trying my best to neglect it.
or else, i can't get myself out of this. it hurts so much when u were crying alone in the night. for someone who didn't even acknowledge you. it's like a knife stabs into your heart. u groan in pain but no one knows about it.
you deserve someone better, i ain't the one. we are not compatible, and you din even know this, don't you. this is irony.
i'm saying this not bcoz i want you to know.
this is a promise to myself.
i'm not myself with you around me.
i just wanted to be myself, the original me, who doesn't care about others, who always wants to laugh when she wants to, this is me, myself. and now i'm no longer myself anymore, i'm greedy coz i wanted someone who doesn't belongs to me.this isn't me.so im searching for the best way to ignore this. but i don't know how to face you anymore. someone like me is not worth to be loved.
='(
i don't know what should i do.
i don't know how should i react.
i don't know i don't know i don't know.
ady at my wit's end.
never knew things will turn out this way.
and never knew i would fall for you.
but i'm just uncertain about this feeling.
my hands were sweating.
my head felt dizzy, as if the world was spinning on its own.
wanna shook you out of my head but i just can't.
the more i try to deny it, the more obvious that i really fall for you.
but i'm trying my best to neglect it.
or else, i can't get myself out of this. it hurts so much when u were crying alone in the night. for someone who didn't even acknowledge you. it's like a knife stabs into your heart. u groan in pain but no one knows about it.
you deserve someone better, i ain't the one. we are not compatible, and you din even know this, don't you. this is irony.
i'm saying this not bcoz i want you to know.
this is a promise to myself.
i'm not myself with you around me.
i just wanted to be myself, the original me, who doesn't care about others, who always wants to laugh when she wants to, this is me, myself. and now i'm no longer myself anymore, i'm greedy coz i wanted someone who doesn't belongs to me.this isn't me.so im searching for the best way to ignore this. but i don't know how to face you anymore. someone like me is not worth to be loved.
='(
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
无奈
有时候．．．
有些事情．．．
想说别在意了
但是
有时候真的不由得你这么说
想说不管了
但是
心里还是放不下那个包袱
想说不生气了
但是
心里的伤痕还未痊愈
想说忘记了
但是
心里还是惦记着你的笑容
想说放弃了
但是
心里还是有点一丝丝的苦涩
=((
有些事情．．．
想说别在意了
但是
有时候真的不由得你这么说
想说不管了
但是
心里还是放不下那个包袱
想说不生气了
但是
心里的伤痕还未痊愈
想说忘记了
但是
心里还是惦记着你的笑容
想说放弃了
但是
心里还是有点一丝丝的苦涩
=((
get off, mean girl.
today was supposed to be fun, but a mean girl spoiled my mood.
well, as stated above, she is just a mean + arrogant + exaggerated girl.
i don't know where the hell did she get the courage to annoy me.
i think she wanted to die so badly.
but pls dun try to agitate me, i dont know what am i going to do if i lost my control.
and lastly.
get off, pathetic bean sprout.
well, as stated above, she is just a mean + arrogant + exaggerated girl.
i don't know where the hell did she get the courage to annoy me.
i think she wanted to die so badly.
but pls dun try to agitate me, i dont know what am i going to do if i lost my control.
and lastly.
get off, pathetic bean sprout.
uncertain...
ok, call me a black girl now, coz i really am!
so regret for not putting on my cap, and not applying sun block and whatsoever..
TT BLACK BLACK BLACK. ARGH
i wish i could the time is reversible ! TT
but all the matches for today are kinda exciting though. =D
we all shouted for our own team xD
hahhahaha
and a girl whose name could not be revealed shout like a crazy girl, well crazier than me.
"xxx, saranghae." LOL, which made me burst into laughter. haha.
i cheered for him too. HAHA.. =DD
yay~
so regret for not putting on my cap, and not applying sun block and whatsoever..
TT BLACK BLACK BLACK. ARGH
i wish i could the time is reversible ! TT
but all the matches for today are kinda exciting though. =D
we all shouted for our own team xD
hahhahaha
and a girl whose name could not be revealed shout like a crazy girl, well crazier than me.
"xxx, saranghae." LOL, which made me burst into laughter. haha.
i cheered for him too. HAHA.. =DD
yay~
Monday, July 19, 2010
cold!
the rain started in the morning, and until now, it still drizzling..
i felt that as if my legs are freezing, it's too cold. i love this though, haha, better than standing under the blazing sun xD hahahahaha
finally, tml is our school's sport day.
i was planning not go to school, but tons of books are waiting for us to 'process'. what can i do? i happened to be one of the spbt members xD
LOL.
anyway, we had lots of fun during the english period, but too bad, we had only single period for today. LOL, we played games! like humpty dumpty, and tugs of war LOLX!
the tugs of war was the funniest one, i couldn't stop myself from laughing..haha, maybe because of the posture, expression and something LOL. my stomach hurts! haha, i wished we could play it some more xDDDD
i felt that as if my legs are freezing, it's too cold. i love this though, haha, better than standing under the blazing sun xD hahahahaha
finally, tml is our school's sport day.
i was planning not go to school, but tons of books are waiting for us to 'process'. what can i do? i happened to be one of the spbt members xD
LOL.
anyway, we had lots of fun during the english period, but too bad, we had only single period for today. LOL, we played games! like humpty dumpty, and tugs of war LOLX!
the tugs of war was the funniest one, i couldn't stop myself from laughing..haha, maybe because of the posture, expression and something LOL. my stomach hurts! haha, i wished we could play it some more xDDDD
Sunday, July 18, 2010
untitled
i don't know what should i put the title for this post, so i just put it as 'untitled'.
LOL, i slept at 8pm last night, could you imagine how tired i am? haha.
and i just woke up xD
this week is our school's sport days~ kinda anticipate of it xD
haha...LOL, gonna cheer for my team even though i was working with pbsm LOL ,haha, but no offense, i just wan them to win xD
ok will off now...xD still got other stuffs to do. =CCC
LOL, i slept at 8pm last night, could you imagine how tired i am? haha.
and i just woke up xD
this week is our school's sport days~ kinda anticipate of it xD
haha...LOL, gonna cheer for my team even though i was working with pbsm LOL ,haha, but no offense, i just wan them to win xD
ok will off now...xD still got other stuffs to do. =CCC
Saturday, July 17, 2010
_english in camp_
just got back from the camp. you know what? i swear i never want to be a facilitator anymore!
it was tiring, torturing..bla bla bla. i sweat like i was taking shower. =.= could u imagine how hot it was? though it was raining, but it didn't help at all, the water vapour in the air made my hands and face sticky! ewww.. how i wish i could dash to home and take a shower. xD LOL, but the teachers don't allowed us to go back during the lunch break. and i swear i could smell something stink, it just hard to describe. there's a girl i wanted to scold so much during the telematch. =.= but i don't want to cause any mess. so i ignored her..and at the time i reach home, i finally know what " home sweet home" means. LOL. i love my home xD ok, the post will end here, bye, still got other stuff to do xD
it was tiring, torturing..bla bla bla. i sweat like i was taking shower. =.= could u imagine how hot it was? though it was raining, but it didn't help at all, the water vapour in the air made my hands and face sticky! ewww.. how i wish i could dash to home and take a shower. xD LOL, but the teachers don't allowed us to go back during the lunch break. and i swear i could smell something stink, it just hard to describe. there's a girl i wanted to scold so much during the telematch. =.= but i don't want to cause any mess. so i ignored her..and at the time i reach home, i finally know what " home sweet home" means. LOL. i love my home xD ok, the post will end here, bye, still got other stuff to do xD
Friday, July 16, 2010
one day you will..
i know how you feel.
when you work harder than others
but what you get back is less than others.
well, i used to be one of the people who think this way.
no matter how hard i try.
things just don't turn out the way i want.
"ah..let it be." i said that to myself. ready to accept the fact that i was born to be a loser.
but someone told me that : each one of us is a winner ever since we were born to this world.
i lifted my eyebrow. not knowing what's the meaning behind the sentence.
"i'm sure everyone knows how a zygote is formed right?" she asked.
some nodded, but some just shook their head, they don't know what is zygote.
she continued, "well, you know why? when a sperm fuse with the ovum at the fallopian tube, a zygote is formed. and from the thousand of sperm, only one sperm can fuse with the ovum. and that's how you come from, from the sperm which successfully fused with the ovum. so, no one of us is born to be a loser." she said.
and i remembered what she said, until now. it's been a year already.
so what if others look down at you? prove it they are wrong.
it's never too late to give it a try. well, you know what, i used to be teased by some silly brats when i was in kindergarten. i still remember the two brats until know. but their name will never be revealed due to privacy. LOL. they teased me because my handwriting was ugly.and plus my writing speed was slow like a crawling snail. well, i never know why i care so much about them at that time, well, kids' stuffs.LOL. some asked me why are you doing so good etc etc. but there's a secret they never know. they never knew i used to be the last in kindergarten. the exam doesn't was just something i wan to avoid when i was small. i work hard because i don't wanna get teased by others. if u see it from others perspective..sometimes, all those negative opinions or comments can make us grow stronger. just don't avoid it,because it makes u even weaker. =D
here's a song dedicated for you. also sang by my fav band -- Lady Antebellum.
their songs have motivation. =) so that's why they are on the top of my fav idol list =D
the song is called one day you will. hope you enjoy it. never lost your hope is the key to success. and also don't build castle in the air, actions must be taken. =D
when you work harder than others
but what you get back is less than others.
well, i used to be one of the people who think this way.
no matter how hard i try.
things just don't turn out the way i want.
"ah..let it be." i said that to myself. ready to accept the fact that i was born to be a loser.
but someone told me that : each one of us is a winner ever since we were born to this world.
i lifted my eyebrow. not knowing what's the meaning behind the sentence.
"i'm sure everyone knows how a zygote is formed right?" she asked.
some nodded, but some just shook their head, they don't know what is zygote.
she continued, "well, you know why? when a sperm fuse with the ovum at the fallopian tube, a zygote is formed. and from the thousand of sperm, only one sperm can fuse with the ovum. and that's how you come from, from the sperm which successfully fused with the ovum. so, no one of us is born to be a loser." she said.
and i remembered what she said, until now. it's been a year already.
so what if others look down at you? prove it they are wrong.
it's never too late to give it a try. well, you know what, i used to be teased by some silly brats when i was in kindergarten. i still remember the two brats until know. but their name will never be revealed due to privacy. LOL. they teased me because my handwriting was ugly.and plus my writing speed was slow like a crawling snail. well, i never know why i care so much about them at that time, well, kids' stuffs.LOL. some asked me why are you doing so good etc etc. but there's a secret they never know. they never knew i used to be the last in kindergarten. the exam doesn't was just something i wan to avoid when i was small. i work hard because i don't wanna get teased by others. if u see it from others perspective..sometimes, all those negative opinions or comments can make us grow stronger. just don't avoid it,because it makes u even weaker. =D
here's a song dedicated for you. also sang by my fav band -- Lady Antebellum.
their songs have motivation. =) so that's why they are on the top of my fav idol list =D
the song is called one day you will. hope you enjoy it. never lost your hope is the key to success. and also don't build castle in the air, actions must be taken. =D
one day you will-Lady Antebellum
You feel like you're falling backwards
Like you're slippin' through the cracks
Like no one would even notice
If you left this town and never came back
You walk outside and all you see is rain
You look inside and all you feel is pain
And you can't see it now
[Chorus]
But down the road the sun is shining
In every cloud there's a silver lining
Just keep holding on (just keep holding on)
And every heartache makes you stronger
But it won't be much longer
You'll find love, you'll find peace
And the you you're meant to be
I know right now that's not the way you feel
But one day you will
You wake up every morning and ask yourself
What am I doing here anyway
With the weight of all those disappointments
Whispering in your ear
You're just barely hanging by a thread
You wanna scream but you're down to your last breath
And you don't know it yet
[Repeat Chorus]
Find the strength to rise above
You will
Find just what you're made of, you're made of
[Repeat Chorus]
One day you will
Oh one day you will
Like you're slippin' through the cracks
Like no one would even notice
If you left this town and never came back
You walk outside and all you see is rain
You look inside and all you feel is pain
And you can't see it now
[Chorus]
But down the road the sun is shining
In every cloud there's a silver lining
Just keep holding on (just keep holding on)
And every heartache makes you stronger
But it won't be much longer
You'll find love, you'll find peace
And the you you're meant to be
I know right now that's not the way you feel
But one day you will
You wake up every morning and ask yourself
What am I doing here anyway
With the weight of all those disappointments
Whispering in your ear
You're just barely hanging by a thread
You wanna scream but you're down to your last breath
And you don't know it yet
[Repeat Chorus]
Find the strength to rise above
You will
Find just what you're made of, you're made of
[Repeat Chorus]
One day you will
Oh one day you will
Thursday, July 15, 2010
please smile more than grumble
isn't it is more easy when we smile more than grumble?
so please smile, through the rain and sun.
may the smile bring your happiness. =D
_______________________________________________________________
i looked into the mirror. surprised. greasy hair, oily face, eyes with dark circles. that's me. i looked completely like a beggar, except my shirt wasn't torn. recently, i've got my fingers in all the pies. so there's no time for me to care for my appearance, not even for a second, that would kill me. well,no need to mention homework is the main cause. but other activities as well. but that's fine. at least that will prevent me from sitting in front of the computer for hours. anyway, i will be away for a whole day on this Sat. our school's english camp will be held on that day. well, our class happened to be the facilitator, so we had no choice but to attend it if we don't want to cause any mess. today was totally a fun day, joking around with friends is something i wished i could do everyday, though we might walk on different path someday. let us cherish the day from now on.
ever since i know how to count from 1 to 50, a question bothered me since then. why do humans exist? why. what if there is no creature in mother earth? what if..... well, if human doesn't exists, i guess i won't be able to joke around like this. so i've decided to ignore it. instead of thinking something that could not be resolved, why don't think a way to lead my life in a better way? it should be interesting though. never dare to imagine how my future would like. what i care is NOW. At least, i'm real. i existed. i'm tiring of pretending. i just wanted to be myself, the REAL me. so i will smile.though it can't help you to solve the problem.but at least you will feel better. at least you will know you ain't the unluckiest one. =D so SMILE, for yourself.
so please smile, through the rain and sun.
may the smile bring your happiness. =D
_______________________________________________________________
i looked into the mirror. surprised. greasy hair, oily face, eyes with dark circles. that's me. i looked completely like a beggar, except my shirt wasn't torn. recently, i've got my fingers in all the pies. so there's no time for me to care for my appearance, not even for a second, that would kill me. well,no need to mention homework is the main cause. but other activities as well. but that's fine. at least that will prevent me from sitting in front of the computer for hours. anyway, i will be away for a whole day on this Sat. our school's english camp will be held on that day. well, our class happened to be the facilitator, so we had no choice but to attend it if we don't want to cause any mess. today was totally a fun day, joking around with friends is something i wished i could do everyday, though we might walk on different path someday. let us cherish the day from now on.
ever since i know how to count from 1 to 50, a question bothered me since then. why do humans exist? why. what if there is no creature in mother earth? what if..... well, if human doesn't exists, i guess i won't be able to joke around like this. so i've decided to ignore it. instead of thinking something that could not be resolved, why don't think a way to lead my life in a better way? it should be interesting though. never dare to imagine how my future would like. what i care is NOW. At least, i'm real. i existed. i'm tiring of pretending. i just wanted to be myself, the REAL me. so i will smile.though it can't help you to solve the problem.but at least you will feel better. at least you will know you ain't the unluckiest one. =D so SMILE, for yourself.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
lady Antebellum
currently addicted to lady Antebellum's songs.
it can't be denied that their songs are heart-warming. touching and nice to listen!
Need you now, never alone, one day you will are my fav!
listen the song makes me grow stronger =D
it can't be denied that their songs are heart-warming. touching and nice to listen!
Need you now, never alone, one day you will are my fav!
listen the song makes me grow stronger =D
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Friday, July 9, 2010
life is fragile....
life is fragile.
like a glass
it can break anytime.
so
please hold it tight
don't let it break
like the way you break my heart
like a glass
it can break anytime.
so
please hold it tight
don't let it break
like the way you break my heart
not in the mood to talk now.
i don't know why but something just got on my nerves.
unexplainable. i feel like i just shout it out loud.
i'm stuck. oh, whatever.
i should bang myself against the wall, oh well, GOOD!
talk about my life.it's all a mess.Yeah~
should consult a doctor. maybe something wrong with nerves or hormones or whatsoever i don't care.
well, you know, some people don't seem to appreciate you. so why should you contribute yourself to them?
some people don't really care about you.so why should you care about them?
SHITE!
my words are kinda offensive, don't blame me..my fingers follow what my brain ask them to.
=P
anyway..will be busy for this weekend.and as well as next weekend..
don't ask me what im busy with.
why cant i have a normal weekend like other people do
or else i almost become one of the pandas' sibling. LOL. you can find me in the zoo then.. LOL
i don't know why but something just got on my nerves.
unexplainable. i feel like i just shout it out loud.
i'm stuck. oh, whatever.
i should bang myself against the wall, oh well, GOOD!
talk about my life.it's all a mess.Yeah~
should consult a doctor. maybe something wrong with nerves or hormones or whatsoever i don't care.
well, you know, some people don't seem to appreciate you. so why should you contribute yourself to them?
some people don't really care about you.so why should you care about them?
SHITE!
my words are kinda offensive, don't blame me..my fingers follow what my brain ask them to.
=P
anyway..will be busy for this weekend.and as well as next weekend..
don't ask me what im busy with.
why cant i have a normal weekend like other people do
or else i almost become one of the pandas' sibling. LOL. you can find me in the zoo then.. LOL
Monday, July 5, 2010
[you & me]
personally, i didn't take it seriously for who i am recently.
the day just passed like it always did.
and without me knowing it, 6 months just gone away like that.
it was really fast then.
perhaps i was contented with myself lately so i never realise it.
until i asked my friend, " what day is it today?"
"5/07, and it's monday." she snapped.
i was like "oh! so it's July already."it was like someone slap me heavily in the face.
being a 16-year-old girl. i lead my life as what the other girls did.
so i think it was something usual that i can lead my life like this, without any changes.
i seriously really think of something like that. LOL
i am just a girl next door. but don't really talk too much in front of the strangers. it's kinda awkward, don't you think so.
i am the kind of person who would break her nose even when she falls backward, in another word, unlucky.
but i was lucky to have a group of friends who would always cheers for me. =D it was something i should really proud of, isn't it? though conflicts just keep on happen, but the it was something we should really need to go through.
but compare to others, i am just a tiny person who is easily over-looked, like the LUCY BECK in the novel.not only appearance, but other aspects as well. but,you..you are the person who would attract people when you do something silly. the person who would even make people anxious when you got a small cut on your finger.
=(( the post will end here. off to do my homework.bye peeps
the day just passed like it always did.
and without me knowing it, 6 months just gone away like that.
it was really fast then.
perhaps i was contented with myself lately so i never realise it.
until i asked my friend, " what day is it today?"
"5/07, and it's monday." she snapped.
i was like "oh! so it's July already."it was like someone slap me heavily in the face.
being a 16-year-old girl. i lead my life as what the other girls did.
so i think it was something usual that i can lead my life like this, without any changes.
i seriously really think of something like that. LOL
i am just a girl next door. but don't really talk too much in front of the strangers. it's kinda awkward, don't you think so.
i am the kind of person who would break her nose even when she falls backward, in another word, unlucky.
but i was lucky to have a group of friends who would always cheers for me. =D it was something i should really proud of, isn't it? though conflicts just keep on happen, but the it was something we should really need to go through.
but compare to others, i am just a tiny person who is easily over-looked, like the LUCY BECK in the novel.not only appearance, but other aspects as well. but,you..you are the person who would attract people when you do something silly. the person who would even make people anxious when you got a small cut on your finger.
=(( the post will end here. off to do my homework.bye peeps
Sunday, July 4, 2010
"i cried, and no one knows about it.i just wan to keep it as a secret."
have you ever undergo something like this?
when you're really mad about something
but you just don't wanna show it..
afraid of hurting someone you really care.
well..
i've cried some many times, in which no one knows about it..
it really hurts so much..
but as each passes by..
you will start to forget about it..
as years gone by..
you will say: i feel so stupid for crying alone in the night.
it's right..
is there any need to make it so complicated?
you say it's for our sake.
but i don't really see it's good for us..
you said we don't understand you..but have you ever let us to know what's in your mind.
pls, we are not good at guessing about what you're thinking..
it's really tired.
i ever did this..i don't know why i did this. i just feel like i wan to catch everybody's attention. but it turned out to be soooo bad.
waiting there and praying for someone to go and comfort you is something useless,well for me it's useless..unless that particular person is sensitive enough to know what's going on you. but so far, i've never meet someone like this, except me..well, i have to say i am good at observing people.
but sometime, people just don't accept me to go inside their heart and see what's going on..so, i give up..instead of hurting myself like this,and act like a busy body whore, i just ignore what happens. so, don't blame anybody for not understanding you and sooo on. End.
have you ever undergo something like this?
when you're really mad about something
but you just don't wanna show it..
afraid of hurting someone you really care.
well..
i've cried some many times, in which no one knows about it..
it really hurts so much..
but as each passes by..
you will start to forget about it..
as years gone by..
you will say: i feel so stupid for crying alone in the night.
it's right..
is there any need to make it so complicated?
you say it's for our sake.
but i don't really see it's good for us..
you said we don't understand you..but have you ever let us to know what's in your mind.
pls, we are not good at guessing about what you're thinking..
it's really tired.
i ever did this..i don't know why i did this. i just feel like i wan to catch everybody's attention. but it turned out to be soooo bad.
waiting there and praying for someone to go and comfort you is something useless,well for me it's useless..unless that particular person is sensitive enough to know what's going on you. but so far, i've never meet someone like this, except me..well, i have to say i am good at observing people.
but sometime, people just don't accept me to go inside their heart and see what's going on..so, i give up..instead of hurting myself like this,and act like a busy body whore, i just ignore what happens. so, don't blame anybody for not understanding you and sooo on. End.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
[stop barking like a dog]
"you are very lucky coz i am so lenient to you!"
me: you said this because you are lazy to care about us.
"you have to inform me if you can't enter the class,you can't just go like that."
me: what!? do i need to inform you when i need to pee?
"you didn't attend the class three times in a row!"
me: so what? you always cancel the class last minute.
"i am very thankful to those who are very committed."
me:duh,so putting on a show. i almost throw up.
hahahahahah xD i wish i could said this loudly, just in front of you.
you know what, you are such a good actor, but i feel disgusted.
the lousiest person i ever met. i think you can be a champion of story telling competition. who asks u always tell your own stories in the class. we are not interested at all. but we have to pretend that we like it. last but not least, i hate to see your nostrils close and open whenever you start to talk. it offends me, honestly. End!
me: you said this because you are lazy to care about us.
"you have to inform me if you can't enter the class,you can't just go like that."
me: what!? do i need to inform you when i need to pee?
"you didn't attend the class three times in a row!"
me: so what? you always cancel the class last minute.
"i am very thankful to those who are very committed."
me:duh,so putting on a show. i almost throw up.
hahahahahah xD i wish i could said this loudly, just in front of you.
you know what, you are such a good actor, but i feel disgusted.
the lousiest person i ever met. i think you can be a champion of story telling competition. who asks u always tell your own stories in the class. we are not interested at all. but we have to pretend that we like it. last but not least, i hate to see your nostrils close and open whenever you start to talk. it offends me, honestly. End!
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