_don't be too proud of it_

today
is a tired day..because today my school has organized a parent's day..
tiresome day..=(
feel a bit sleepy now..
erm..as the result for the parent's day..
i did some little improvement, and some of my subject result drop..=(
sigh, what a trouble..very bothering..=(
and i really hate ____
always treat other people like servant as though they are the richest, the purest, and they are elite..!!
don't be so proud of it..~!! you still don't know what actually happened in school..don't always looked down at people okey??not all people are born to be rich and beautiful..!!if i am given a choice, i wished i was born like that~!but what different is, we do not have to choice..this is the way we are since we were born, there is nothing you people can laugh at..><,beside have you ever hear that goodness is better than beauty..??so what if you were born rich and you have the beauty?it doesn't mean that you have the right to judge people with their appearance and laugh at them??of course you don't have the right..!!so its better you just shut your mouth tight and don't ever laughed at other people..!!
finally i feel a bit relieved after i said whatever i want to said~~

_a black friday_

today, it's totally a BLACK FRIDAY~
a lot of things happened...and i really frustrated~
love, friendship, study...and lots more...
very frustrating..=(

lots of people cry..
there is a scar carved on their heart..
and this a day we definitely won't forget..
struggled against your mind, friendship and as well as love...

i really can't take it anymore..
and during our difficult time..
there was a girl who is big mouthed really making me angry and disappointing!
how dare you made the things get even worse??
if there is anything happened to them..
and you!! are responsible for it...
thick face!~

someone help me please..

_daily activities for today_

today..same as usual..nothing specials happened..><><''haha.. today.. one of us have been missing....><><''ngek ngek..miss you much..~ =) haha..sorry ya for didn't reply your msg, my phone was out of credit..i haven't reload..sorry...>< =) hope you understand..erm.. for soi po=) :
today u asked me got any news in the school..well i already mentioned at the beginning of this article..haha, i forgot to bring my own T-shirt le..haha, and our form teacher already know the reason why you absent..but only that she haven't know the details of this problem..guess she will ask us tomorrow, and we have to tell her the truth..>< fine =")">钢管舞娘 aka the strip dancer~lolx, very funny isn't it..we all laughed until our stomach beh tahan..haha...^^lolx, she got her own "sexy"pose,different kind of poses o.. surely u will "nose bleed" if u see that...^^lolxx...hehe...=)

haha, thats the activities for today, i will keep on writing the daily activities everyday (if i have the time to do so..haha)don't forgot to view my blog everyday lor..=) miss ya..=)
p/s: i love sunset!! (lolx, i just wan to express wat i feel now, lolx, this doesn't related to with the things above..haha, crazy me><><)

**when one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.**

i'm not wishing for anything.....

i'm not wishing for anything..!!
i'm not wishing for your sympathize~
i'm not wishing for your love, i'm not wishing your caring, i'm not wishing for anything from you..
because you are just untrustworthy!!..

i don't even know whether there is a place SPECIAL for me in your heart..
time had gone, and you had change..a big change..
i'm not saying anything offensive, im telling the truth..!
when u are expecting something to happen, u will sooner realize that, you will disappoint more..
so..
i'm not expecting anything from u ever again..!!
yes, u can say me selfish..
so what being selfish?? human beings are selfish..!!
don't u dare to tell me day u don't behave selfish??of coz u did..
your words had crush me...my heart broke into pieces..
this is very discriminating,okey?? maybe you didn't realize what had you done on other people..
but this is a sin..but i'm not willing to tell you about what fault u have done..u gotta understand yourself..==~!!!
but i won't regret on my decision, since this is my final decision..
i won't interrupt your life again..you have your own dreams..i have my own life!
goodbye then.....forever..

``~~**++frustrated++**~~``

frustrated~
this few day is really boring...=(
study->tuition->revision->bedtime->call it a day =(
tired eh..haiz..
anyway, i enjoy my time at school with my friends
haha..
today, got a lot of funny material to talk about..haha..
my stomach is almost explode...><
and we also kepo with with others ppl matters..kepo =)
haha..
and what the hell is going on, they keep sending me some useless link in my msn..=(it's bothering..
haha, that day caught someone red handed, i know sometime that are not supposed to be know actually..
but anyway, i still not sure whether it is true or not...it's just my opinion, nothing serius..haha, mayb i am a bit too concern ler..haha..=)
okay, stop here..=) i am knocking off..haha..

x X QianZ X x

_情人节快乐_

情人节快乐 =）
祝大家有个浪漫又快乐的情人节哦。。
今天跟朋友在电话聊聊天
他生病了，最近很多人生病哦，连我也生病了。。
最近，考试弄到我们都很心烦
因为老师老是将我们跟别班比较，哎。。
因为考试都弄到心情不好，总有一种不好的预感 =(
最近都对未来有一种期待
即期待可是又害怕
因为在前面等着我们的， 不懂是美好的还是不好的。。
毕竟未来是不可预测的。。
每当遇到失败或不开心的事情的时候
人总是会灰心。。我想我也会一样。。
每当看见人家这样的时候，总会理直气壮的认为为什么要这样
可是当自己经历的时候才会知道真正的滋味
虽然会说服自己不可以这样，可是还是控制不了自己的想法
哎，真不懂这种感觉怎样才会消失
哎，人就是这样。。
生活到那么消极
倒不如活到开心一点 =)

加油

-lifes doesn't always work out the way u want-

today..our class are being compared with other classes again..=='''
"you guys are elite class, you don't call yourself as elite if other people come from other classes get higher marks than you.." yea, that's it, it just happened..==

"elite class must get straight A's"
"elite class must perform.."
"elite class must not let your teacher down.."
"u guys are really making me disappointing..."
elite, elite, elite and elite..
all elite, i think i should change my name already, u can call me elite then..!! ==''
we are humans, we need time to relax, we need time to study, we are not as perfect as u can think..and don't always count on us!!don't always expect things on us!!i know all the things school plan for us is for our own good, but can't you let us take a breath for a while~!!!

hate that i m in this class..haizz, i only can said that " lifes doesn't always work out that way" TT

_we come from different world_

today, a nice day for sure~ ^^ totally wicked~

but it just something bothering me..=(

tomorrow is already Chinese New Year, i really hope this matter won't be bothering me anymore, if i am given a choice, i hope i can erase my memory about this =(

well, maybe it is just my feeling, but how come i feel that, you are far away from me =(
something that aren't easily to approach =(
well, i know u got a lot of friends, but do you treat me as a friend too, it's not like i want to angry with you, the matter is : do you really treat me as your friend?? (i feel very sad about it)

i am persuading me i shall forget about this, but my stupid mind just won't let it be..=(
at least you tell me what happen to you, are u angry with me i wonder..
if YES please tell me i beg you , if NO please tell me too..=(

someone please help me =(

well, maybe we come from different world, different life~ =( i am always the one who being abundant, am i always the one who eat dust =(

_wicked_

ahahahahaha!!! wakakakakaka!! muahahahaha!!
two days more~~Chinese New Year is arriving~ LOL =)

Gong Xi Fa Cai~ ^^
hmm, just finish having my dinner and straight away on9 =) of coz i already take my bath =)
today got a bit tired and a bit too rush, come back from school, relax a while, and the take shower, and then prepared my stuff and books, and then accompany my mom go fetch my sis and straight away go tuition~ 2pm-6pm TTv tomorrow still got tuition, hehexx..
==''shit, cannot log in the game..=='' wth..

today, it's a different day somehow..guess what..hehex our class is celebrating the JANUARIAN (lol, our class word, yea, that's us, creative,lol)~and we all celebrate together with teacher, haha, Thank You very much to our form teacher ^^ gotta study hard to pay back for teacher, lol..=)

something is perplexing me ~ =( but don't know how to explain, it just something boring, and, you know, it just boring, that is, its all i can explain..=)
anyway, hope this problem will go out from my mind and stop bothering..

TT still haven't recover from the incident..heart aching.. TT

totally disappointed..

nothing special happen during this few day. Study, study and study, nothing else than that.
and i feel a bit disappointed with someone..

well, it's a long story, something unhappy...
it was a misunderstanding, no one know what actually was happening behind the truth..(except for somebody who witness the whole thing happen)
and i was the who who being blamed now..
it's not like i want to proof that i ain't the wrong one..
but i was totally totally disappointed, totally totally disappointed...

and the others, can do whatever they want to, this is just unfair, totally unfair! unacceptable!
i hate it, there is no justice in the world, the world is cruel..i am living in the darkness now, i am very ashamed eventhough im not the wrong 1..

i hate it!

chinese new year is just in the corner~!! ^^

yeah~chinese new year is driving nearer~ ^^ wakakaka~

i had helping my mom for two day~lolx, guess what, i was trying to help her to do some cakes, and biscuits~ looks like i can be a "professional" chef already, lol, just joking anyway~

now studying Geography, while waiting for the video to loading~lol, nice idea eh, lol, u can relax for while, and no need to worry about the homework..lolx~

a bit boring this few day, doing nothing at home, being a lazy pig..study, sleeping, watching drama, online~thats all...

yesterday was raining cat and dog, the whole day was just kept raining, some of the places in Miri even flooded~but luckily my house wasn't like other place, it still safe so far, lol, hopr nothing dangerous will ever happen, and now the sky is turning "black", looks like it is going to rain again..TT and the wind is blowing so strong, i think if i ask my little sis standing out side, i guess the wind will blow her away, lol (try to imagine it)lol..better don't let my little sis find out that im talking about her, she definitely will chop my head down..lol..

ok, gtg now, wish me good luck for the stupid diagnostik test..lol..

bye~

_reLaxing_

been a bit busy this few day, after come back from school, and then i have to straight away take my shower, cause i need to accompany my mom fetch my little sister, guess what, i even having my dinner inside the car, lol, it's your fault (my little sis),lolx, im just kidding anyway..and then after fetch her from school, i need to go tuition...=='''

just imagine u have to do this everyday, it is extremely tiring~!! =='''
and guess what now??i am falling sick~!! well, it's not a big matter anyway, i always falling sick..== lol...

im seating for PMR this year, the pressure all over my head..=( BLOODY HELL~
and then i wonder WHAT THE HELL is happening to my school, just come back form school and then we have to seat for the stupid diagnostik test, what the hell, it is causing me a lot of pressure..==''stupid school and stupid rule..we have no time to prepare for this!!and guess wha some of our classmate try to remember the past year's test answer, and i guess they will get a higher mark than before, this is just so unfair...!!==

its weekend today, so i will relax a bit while i can, and then after the test have finish ,i definitely will buy an ice-cream for myself..lolx..

再见，2008……farewell~

再见了，2008~
一个对我充满意义的一年~
这一年，发现自己做了很多很多的傻事，
比如说老师在骂人，结果自己还在那边傻笑~还有，跟朋友们讲笑话，笑到像个疯婆子~
总之，有很多很多值得纪念的事情都在这一年发生……
老师离开，去别地教书~这几天，都一直想到六年级毕业的事情，事情都过了两年，可是现在想起来好像是昨天才发生的事情，只可以说时间过得真得太快了，哈哈，我一时之间都还接受不了，2008年已经成为过去式的了~今天还差点以为是2008年呢~ ==老糊涂~

新的一年，新的自己，要对去年那幼稚的自己说再见了，新的一年，就要好好的读书（好像老头子说话似的），今年要考哦PMR乐。不努力一点是不行的~是时候为为自己的未来着想~

2008~再见了~

-lazy pig- =)

hehe...today same again..just "trapped" inside the house and do nothing as usual..=)
hehe..my mom got go out today, but i decide to stay at home and do nothing, except for watching MYSTERIOUS INCREDIBLE TERMINATOR at youtube..hehe...OMG, the whole series is getting more excited and interest than i expected~ =p

then after that, i continue watching the Korean Drama that i had watched yesterday...XD...
still got 1 week to enjoy, then i have to study very hard..TTv..goodbye my precious holiday..
my uncle and my grandfather come to Miri yesterday..hehexx..
n my stupid sis get her phone..and this is just soooooooooo unfair and unacceptable~~
she get a phone and her phone is better than mine..TT..~
haiz.. nvm then, i'm very satisfied already..hehexx...

and i already finish reading the stupid BM novel...but still got some part im still very blur and not so remember about it...nvm then, as long as i already finish my "task"...
and still got 1 task haven't finish, my English holiday assignment~...
gosh, i just start to do it today..but will the teacher still remember that she had given us a holiday assignment before the holiday..you know..err..well, sometime the teacher is forgetful, so should i just leave it aside and continue enjoy my holiday before the holiday end?hmm, it's better i just finish it, this is for my own sake...==besides, if the teacher really forget about it, nevermine then, at least i can know a bit about what the story is actually about...haha..

gtg now~ bye~

-tired-

today..wake up quite early...TT
because Christmas and new year is just in the corner..
so i have to help my mom to clean the house..
being a free charge kakak for this whole day..lol..XD

it's so tired..but then we only spend 2 hours like that to clean the house..i'm sweating like i juz coming back from swimming..XD..
hooray, no need to wake up so early tomorrow..lol..
*sigh* i didn't even read the BM novel for this whole holidays..
dugong surely will scold me this time..
no idea..will read it later..but feel so lazy to do it..
i have no interest in the novel, but still have to read it..or else, i think i'm gonna fail in my exam...

yesterday kept telling ghost story during tuition class..
lol..trying to scared the small kid inside the classroom, but i'm afraid the principle will scold me, so i just kept quiet and doing my homework...and listened to the teacher's ghost story..got 1 story was really horrible, and it just happened to one of the student which was also the student of the tuition center, but he/she is in night class one...-.-

the story is like this, the student went to Tanjung Lubang (one of the Miri's beach)..and it was sunset at that time..then the student want to take the photo of the sunset before he/she went home..and then something horrible happened..!! ><'''the student used his/her handphone to take the photo, and the when the image come out, something that are not supposed to be in the picture come out..guess what??? inside the photo there was a head floating at there and the things seems like want to hug the student or whatever i don't know..my gosh..!!bloody hell..-.-'''..and then the student wanted to delete the photo but the she/he cant, she/he kept pressing the 'delete' button, but it didn't worked at all...almost one week like that he/she trying to delete the photo, but it just didn't worked..(bloody hell..)then the student just threw away the phone..*end of the story* well, for me this is just...u know, enough to make me cry 4 a whole day, no, three days i guess...this is just..you know..unbelievable...><

and after that...me and my primary friend Yuen Ting, keep talking about instrumental and music..this is the topic we can discuss for whole time during the tuition period..haha..XD..she said that she want to bring her keyboard to my house and learn together like that..haha..my pleasure..^^but don't know when will she come to my house...feeling very excited..hehe..because i never learn to play a piano or keyboard before..XD...hehezz...got to go now..and i smell some unpleasant smell..yuckxx.. ==''~bye~

X x Lovez, Qianz x X

untitled again..=)

a very nice day though i just staying at home for this whole day...^^
hmm...wake up at 8am like that..and then having laksa as my breakfast..yummy..=)
and then watched MYSTERIOUS INCREDIBLE TERMINATOR..hehe..MY GOD..Aaron is so hot~..=)..next episode is getting more excited..^^

and then..have a long chat with my childhood best friend..she want to cut her hair short..hehe..i bet it must be very nice..she is natural pretty 1..hehe...*sigh*the holidays almost end, still not enough eh..wish this holiday never end, then i no need to face with school, uncountable homework, teacher and that stupid principle..=='''

been worrying about my future a lot during this holidays..3 years later i'm gonna finish my secondary life and achieve my own dream..doubt that whether i can do it or not..u know, it seems like impossible..i don't have self confidence, this is why i don't like myself..hope myself can be more braver than i was..TTv..

Christmas is just in the corner..Merry X'mas to you all~all of my friends..have a nice and sweet Christmas with your dearest one and happy always~ *HAPPY GO LUCKY*
keep smiling and happy everyday then you will be more lucky..hehe...

X x Lovez, QianZ x X

my own world...

this is what i am talking about..this is my dream house, this is the place i like!! full of grasses, but i would like the house be more simple, a wooden house of course..^^well, I DO NOT OWN THIS PICTURE NOR THE HOUSE..and i like this picture so much..and this is my dream house..^^its like you can have a peace when you live here..haha..^^i juz love it..^^

Sashiburi desu~being a lazy pig just now..haha... hmm..nothing important happen currently...just feeling a bit out of mind... lol...yesterday learned Science chapter 4 about reproduction one.. lolx...want to laugh whenever i read this chapter but i don't dare...well, you know..its like don't respect our body..haha.. ^^v peace~ a bit tired now..just back from tuition and practice my violin skill just now...hehe.. now the thing i want to do the most is lie on the ground which is full of flower and grass and look at the sky...the fresh air approach my skin..looking at the bird flying freely..wow..it must be very nice...**i've been imagine i doing this a lot of time...**sigh, but there is no place like this in Miri..TT when i grow up..i want to live at the place which flowers are planted all around the house..^^ like the place where Bella live..haha..this is the life i want..no war and peace...but izzit impossible to find a place like this??i mean, now the world is no longer peaceful already...when we were enjoying our life, somewhere in this world, maybe something bad is happening...like people lost the people they love the most...or maybe war is happening somewhere around the world...our world can't be definitely peace..once we still desire for something, war will still happen.. hmm..thinking about which country or place i want to travel the most..haha..of course Japan is the 1st 1 in my heart..haha..then Scotland, England, Paris,Texas,Greece, Italy, Glasgow, Africa(well, i like here coz a lot of animal live at africa~yea~i want to see elephant..^^), Australia (Sydney), Korea, Taiwan..wow..a lot of place eh..lolx..not sure whether i have enough budget to travel to these place or not..lolx..gotta work hard eh..and find a nice occupation for myself..^^ ok..got to go now..bye~
Xx Lovez, QiAnZ..xX

what hurts the must~ **Cho Chang and Cedric Diggory**

hehezz..my favourite scene in harry potter and the goblet of the fire...cedric was having a dance with cho chang..^^.Hermione was dancing wif Viktor Krum at the back there..hehezz...

yes~a day passed again...~ ^^
today..my mom is going out to buy my sister's book ..i didn't went out~
guess why??hehe..coz wan read harry potter and the goblet of fire~ ^^
i skip reading prisoner of azkaban coz i oredy read it b4..n i feel very rush 2 read it..
but in this episode..my most favourite character- Cedric Diggory died~ TT
it was very sad~ eventhough he was just the minor character in this series..but i reli admire him very much..hehe...well one of the reason is he is so handsome..n im the big fans of cedric and cho chang~ ^^ they look so adorable together..sweet and cute..but unfortunately something happened in the end..sad...**tears**

i watched a lot of cho chang and cedric video in youtube..
im having my tears come out a lot of time whenever i watched the video..TT
this is really pity...TT

it must be REALLY SAD if someone u love was dead...separate with you...
TT..my heart is aching right now...TT...feel so sad now...

owh..it is so romantic..when cedric was having a dance with cho chang during the yule ball...
i hv the pic up there.....some scene i really like it...hehezz..i think when i watch haary potter and the goblet of fire..i think i will cry until my eyes turn red..like rabbit..i hate it..when the characters tat i like died in a movie..this is really painful eventot i wasnt happen in real life..but i juz hate it..i dun think any1 will like it..

what hurts the most by cascada (a really nice song..down there was part of the lyric i think is meaningful 2 me and 2 cedric and cho...TTv)

what hurts the most
was being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
and never knowing
what could have been
and not seeing that loving you
is what i was trying to do

and having so much to say
and watching you walk away.....
(this sentence reli make me heart broken..oucch...my heart is aching..) TT

TT...tears is coming out now... TT

_the latest me_

well..found out myself is a bit different from b4..so..nothing 2 do...writing down a list about me..c how im different from b4..hehexx~..

** i like~ **
-laughing-
-smiles-
-family-
-friends-
-money^^ (well..i like moneys..^^hehezz..i admit..)-
-hot chocolate-
-double chocolate-
-chocolate with mint-
-my idols-
-all Harry Potter books-
-day dreaming a lots-
-laugh with no reason..maniac-
-gossip-
-spying ppl-
-hang out wif friends-
-lying on the bed n imagine something-
-lying on the bed and read books, play with my sutff-
-play violin (i enjoyed doing this a lot..whenever i feel angry..oni music can lower my bad temper) =p)
-play psp-
-play ps2-
-messaging-
-listening 2 radio / song-
-twilight=) -
-new moon-
-playing at beach and shout-
-sunset-
-sky-
-ocean-
-windy day / rainy day-
-love spring-
-love korean drama,hong kong drama, taiwanese drama, japanese drama-


** I hate~ **
-people ignore me-
-ppl don't reply my msg / call (eventot sumtime i do so..hehe..)-
-war-
-boredom-

** I cry~ **
-when the characters tat i like died in a movie-
-when sum1 i love is leaving-
-when i watch touching movie / reading touching story-
-imagine something sad-
- my mom scold me terribly-


tats the latest me..hehe..easygoing..easy get mad..easy went upset..XD no offense~

_boredom is killing me_

feeling a bit tired now~juz now helped my mom 2 do some house work~...
my bro keep on calling me 2 help her...shit..i was reading HARRY POTTER AND THE CHAMBER OF SECRET on tat time..until chapter sixteen i guess..coz forgot oredy..THE HEIR OF SLYTHERIN~^^hehezz..cant take my eye off harry potter XD...addicted~ wakakaka~..==..laugh like a maniac..lolx..

hmm...yi ying juz arrived at kuching yesterday around 7.12pm like tat..
hmm..i was on9 on tat time...n searching 4 some information about artist..hehezz...i search a lot about robert pattinson~..hehezz..he look more handsome in TWILIGHT~ XD...but no chance 2 watch it..pity me...

hmm...wonder wat r otherz doing right now?? watching tv? hang out wif frenz?? spying ppl?? (well..i enjoyed doing tiz...n i hvt do tiz 4 ages..hehezz)well...watever...realize tat i grow fat a lot during tiz holiday~...should exercise regularly..or else..haha..i guess u all noe wat i mean~.. =p
my leg grow twice amount than usual ppl hv~..my gosh...dun wan 2 become goyle in harry potter..TT

wonder will some1 was thinking about me during tiz time..haha...no offense...
thinking about sumthing tat never ever will bcum true..well..i like 2 imagine..same word..no offense...hmm..i bet it muz b veli bitter when u luv sum1 hu u shouldnt love...

well...i been through tiz b4..veli sour..bitter..but somehow got abit sweet~ ^^


hehezz...gtg now...^^

love,
_QiAnZ_