-lazy pig- =)

hehe...today same again..just "trapped" inside the house and do nothing as usual..=)
hehe..my mom got go out today, but i decide to stay at home and do nothing, except for watching MYSTERIOUS INCREDIBLE TERMINATOR at youtube..hehe...OMG, the whole series is getting more excited and interest than i expected~ =p

then after that, i continue watching the Korean Drama that i had watched yesterday...XD...
still got 1 week to enjoy, then i have to study very hard..TTv..goodbye my precious holiday..
my uncle and my grandfather come to Miri yesterday..hehexx..
n my stupid sis get her phone..and this is just soooooooooo unfair and unacceptable~~
she get a phone and her phone is better than mine..TT..~
haiz.. nvm then, i'm very satisfied already..hehexx...

and i already finish reading the stupid BM novel...but still got some part im still very blur and not so remember about it...nvm then, as long as i already finish my "task"...
and still got 1 task haven't finish, my English holiday assignment~...
gosh, i just start to do it today..but will the teacher still remember that she had given us a holiday assignment before the holiday..you know..err..well, sometime the teacher is forgetful, so should i just leave it aside and continue enjoy my holiday before the holiday end?hmm, it's better i just finish it, this is for my own sake...==besides, if the teacher really forget about it, nevermine then, at least i can know a bit about what the story is actually about...haha..

gtg now~ bye~

-tired-

today..wake up quite early...TT
because Christmas and new year is just in the corner..
so i have to help my mom to clean the house..
being a free charge kakak for this whole day..lol..XD

it's so tired..but then we only spend 2 hours like that to clean the house..i'm sweating like i juz coming back from swimming..XD..
hooray, no need to wake up so early tomorrow..lol..
*sigh* i didn't even read the BM novel for this whole holidays..
dugong surely will scold me this time..
no idea..will read it later..but feel so lazy to do it..
i have no interest in the novel, but still have to read it..or else, i think i'm gonna fail in my exam...

yesterday kept telling ghost story during tuition class..
lol..trying to scared the small kid inside the classroom, but i'm afraid the principle will scold me, so i just kept quiet and doing my homework...and listened to the teacher's ghost story..got 1 story was really horrible, and it just happened to one of the student which was also the student of the tuition center, but he/she is in night class one...-.-

the story is like this, the student went to Tanjung Lubang (one of the Miri's beach)..and it was sunset at that time..then the student want to take the photo of the sunset before he/she went home..and then something horrible happened..!! ><'''the student used his/her handphone to take the photo, and the when the image come out, something that are not supposed to be in the picture come out..guess what??? inside the photo there was a head floating at there and the things seems like want to hug the student or whatever i don't know..my gosh..!!bloody hell..-.-'''..and then the student wanted to delete the photo but the she/he cant, she/he kept pressing the 'delete' button, but it didn't worked at all...almost one week like that he/she trying to delete the photo, but it just didn't worked..(bloody hell..)then the student just threw away the phone..*end of the story* well, for me this is just...u know, enough to make me cry 4 a whole day, no, three days i guess...this is just..you know..unbelievable...><

and after that...me and my primary friend Yuen Ting, keep talking about instrumental and music..this is the topic we can discuss for whole time during the tuition period..haha..XD..she said that she want to bring her keyboard to my house and learn together like that..haha..my pleasure..^^but don't know when will she come to my house...feeling very excited..hehe..because i never learn to play a piano or keyboard before..XD...hehezz...got to go now..and i smell some unpleasant smell..yuckxx.. ==''~bye~

X x Lovez, Qianz x X

untitled again..=)

a very nice day though i just staying at home for this whole day...^^
hmm...wake up at 8am like that..and then having laksa as my breakfast..yummy..=)
and then watched MYSTERIOUS INCREDIBLE TERMINATOR..hehe..MY GOD..Aaron is so hot~..=)..next episode is getting more excited..^^

and then..have a long chat with my childhood best friend..she want to cut her hair short..hehe..i bet it must be very nice..she is natural pretty 1..hehe...*sigh*the holidays almost end, still not enough eh..wish this holiday never end, then i no need to face with school, uncountable homework, teacher and that stupid principle..=='''

been worrying about my future a lot during this holidays..3 years later i'm gonna finish my secondary life and achieve my own dream..doubt that whether i can do it or not..u know, it seems like impossible..i don't have self confidence, this is why i don't like myself..hope myself can be more braver than i was..TTv..

Christmas is just in the corner..Merry X'mas to you all~all of my friends..have a nice and sweet Christmas with your dearest one and happy always~ *HAPPY GO LUCKY*
keep smiling and happy everyday then you will be more lucky..hehe...

X x Lovez, QianZ x X

my own world...

this is what i am talking about..this is my dream house, this is the place i like!! full of grasses, but i would like the house be more simple, a wooden house of course..^^well, I DO NOT OWN THIS PICTURE NOR THE HOUSE..and i like this picture so much..and this is my dream house..^^its like you can have a peace when you live here..haha..^^i juz love it..^^

Sashiburi desu~being a lazy pig just now..haha... hmm..nothing important happen currently...just feeling a bit out of mind... lol...yesterday learned Science chapter 4 about reproduction one.. lolx...want to laugh whenever i read this chapter but i don't dare...well, you know..its like don't respect our body..haha.. ^^v peace~ a bit tired now..just back from tuition and practice my violin skill just now...hehe.. now the thing i want to do the most is lie on the ground which is full of flower and grass and look at the sky...the fresh air approach my skin..looking at the bird flying freely..wow..it must be very nice...**i've been imagine i doing this a lot of time...**sigh, but there is no place like this in Miri..TT when i grow up..i want to live at the place which flowers are planted all around the house..^^ like the place where Bella live..haha..this is the life i want..no war and peace...but izzit impossible to find a place like this??i mean, now the world is no longer peaceful already...when we were enjoying our life, somewhere in this world, maybe something bad is happening...like people lost the people they love the most...or maybe war is happening somewhere around the world...our world can't be definitely peace..once we still desire for something, war will still happen.. hmm..thinking about which country or place i want to travel the most..haha..of course Japan is the 1st 1 in my heart..haha..then Scotland, England, Paris,Texas,Greece, Italy, Glasgow, Africa(well, i like here coz a lot of animal live at africa~yea~i want to see elephant..^^), Australia (Sydney), Korea, Taiwan..wow..a lot of place eh..lolx..not sure whether i have enough budget to travel to these place or not..lolx..gotta work hard eh..and find a nice occupation for myself..^^ ok..got to go now..bye~
Xx Lovez, QiAnZ..xX

what hurts the must~ **Cho Chang and Cedric Diggory**

hehezz..my favourite scene in harry potter and the goblet of the fire...cedric was having a dance with cho chang..^^.Hermione was dancing wif Viktor Krum at the back there..hehezz...

yes~a day passed again...~ ^^
today..my mom is going out to buy my sister's book ..i didn't went out~
guess why??hehe..coz wan read harry potter and the goblet of fire~ ^^
i skip reading prisoner of azkaban coz i oredy read it b4..n i feel very rush 2 read it..
but in this episode..my most favourite character- Cedric Diggory died~ TT
it was very sad~ eventhough he was just the minor character in this series..but i reli admire him very much..hehe...well one of the reason is he is so handsome..n im the big fans of cedric and cho chang~ ^^ they look so adorable together..sweet and cute..but unfortunately something happened in the end..sad...**tears**

i watched a lot of cho chang and cedric video in youtube..
im having my tears come out a lot of time whenever i watched the video..TT
this is really pity...TT

it must be REALLY SAD if someone u love was dead...separate with you...
TT..my heart is aching right now...TT...feel so sad now...

owh..it is so romantic..when cedric was having a dance with cho chang during the yule ball...
i hv the pic up there.....some scene i really like it...hehezz..i think when i watch haary potter and the goblet of fire..i think i will cry until my eyes turn red..like rabbit..i hate it..when the characters tat i like died in a movie..this is really painful eventot i wasnt happen in real life..but i juz hate it..i dun think any1 will like it..

what hurts the most by cascada (a really nice song..down there was part of the lyric i think is meaningful 2 me and 2 cedric and cho...TTv)

what hurts the most
was being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
and never knowing
what could have been
and not seeing that loving you
is what i was trying to do

and having so much to say
and watching you walk away.....
(this sentence reli make me heart broken..oucch...my heart is aching..) TT

TT...tears is coming out now... TT

_the latest me_

well..found out myself is a bit different from b4..so..nothing 2 do...writing down a list about me..c how im different from b4..hehexx~..

** i like~ **
-laughing-
-smiles-
-family-
-friends-
-money^^ (well..i like moneys..^^hehezz..i admit..)-
-hot chocolate-
-double chocolate-
-chocolate with mint-
-my idols-
-all Harry Potter books-
-day dreaming a lots-
-laugh with no reason..maniac-
-gossip-
-spying ppl-
-hang out wif friends-
-lying on the bed n imagine something-
-lying on the bed and read books, play with my sutff-
-play violin (i enjoyed doing this a lot..whenever i feel angry..oni music can lower my bad temper) =p)
-play psp-
-play ps2-
-messaging-
-listening 2 radio / song-
-twilight=) -
-new moon-
-playing at beach and shout-
-sunset-
-sky-
-ocean-
-windy day / rainy day-
-love spring-
-love korean drama,hong kong drama, taiwanese drama, japanese drama-


** I hate~ **
-people ignore me-
-ppl don't reply my msg / call (eventot sumtime i do so..hehe..)-
-war-
-boredom-

** I cry~ **
-when the characters tat i like died in a movie-
-when sum1 i love is leaving-
-when i watch touching movie / reading touching story-
-imagine something sad-
- my mom scold me terribly-


tats the latest me..hehe..easygoing..easy get mad..easy went upset..XD no offense~

_boredom is killing me_

feeling a bit tired now~juz now helped my mom 2 do some house work~...
my bro keep on calling me 2 help her...shit..i was reading HARRY POTTER AND THE CHAMBER OF SECRET on tat time..until chapter sixteen i guess..coz forgot oredy..THE HEIR OF SLYTHERIN~^^hehezz..cant take my eye off harry potter XD...addicted~ wakakaka~..==..laugh like a maniac..lolx..

hmm...yi ying juz arrived at kuching yesterday around 7.12pm like tat..
hmm..i was on9 on tat time...n searching 4 some information about artist..hehezz...i search a lot about robert pattinson~..hehezz..he look more handsome in TWILIGHT~ XD...but no chance 2 watch it..pity me...

hmm...wonder wat r otherz doing right now?? watching tv? hang out wif frenz?? spying ppl?? (well..i enjoyed doing tiz...n i hvt do tiz 4 ages..hehezz)well...watever...realize tat i grow fat a lot during tiz holiday~...should exercise regularly..or else..haha..i guess u all noe wat i mean~.. =p
my leg grow twice amount than usual ppl hv~..my gosh...dun wan 2 become goyle in harry potter..TT

wonder will some1 was thinking about me during tiz time..haha...no offense...
thinking about sumthing tat never ever will bcum true..well..i like 2 imagine..same word..no offense...hmm..i bet it muz b veli bitter when u luv sum1 hu u shouldnt love...

well...i been through tiz b4..veli sour..bitter..but somehow got abit sweet~ ^^


hehezz...gtg now...^^

love,
_QiAnZ_

FREAK out of my life ~ u weirdo!!!

shit~things unlike i expected....u weirdo ..juz FREAK out of my life!!!
bet u never appear in my life...
so wat..primary 3 until primary six ...the things we been through this all...seems like doesnt important 2 u..so wat m i looking for...no reward back!!! worry 4 nothing!!! its not worth!!! for wat im doing tiz..!!! for nothing !!!

hate u forever...oh yeah..u got u own friends...so old friends doesn't important 2 u anymore..
HAHA..i reckon tat u never treat me as ur friends..u b*tch...
better dun c u...hate u...hope tat i never ever meet u..
friends u cant live without..?? theres nothing u can predict in future..well...things owez don go like the way we wish for...drop off the thing u dun wan...n den choose a new 1 again~ hate!!!...F*ck off...!!!! better dun appear in front of me...

someday ur friends will suffer like me... !!!
what on earth are u thinking of !!! a qian jin dao xiao jie hu dont even noe how 2 use bas...dun u feel ashamed for urself!!! weirdo~!!!

a NICE~ WONDERFUL day~

hehez..today go out wif my dar all them~ ^^
we din go watch movie~ coz fang wan work~lolx..Daphne~im soli about tiz.still tot mayb i can tell u abit bout the story~hehezz..nvrm..plan 2 buy the cd~XD...i met yuen ting at the ground floor..then we go 2 shop 2 c whether got things 2 buy or not..hehezz..
about 11pm like tat...cai en call me said her and fang arrive ler..hehexx..
den we go union bookshop meet wif them..hehezz...cai en ask me whether she can hug me or not..n den we hug each other..she hug me till veli tight..seems like she veli miss me..XD
n den we go xiao mu chuan there buy drinks n sit at there n GOSSIP..lolx...
most of our topic is about XX de ler..hahah~XD...try 2 guess if u can..XD..hehezz.n den i share my sad things wif themm..hehexx..n den they all misunderstood me..WAKAKA~~tiz is so funny..hehezz..they misunderstood tat i like a wrong guy~..hehezz...veli funny o...till the veli the end they all suddenly realize they misunderstood ler..XD...funny dao si...XD..wonderful day..
n den we go take da tou tie..but b4 tat we all go toilet 1st~n den take some pic inside the toilet~hehezz....i look super duper ugly in the pic~ TT
n den we go take da tou tie lor...after tat having lunch at the food court there...we meet hui ying~~miss her so much..she didnt change at all....she work at union shop there..hehezz...she ask us whether can go out on 1/1/09 or not..coz tat day she go back 2 bintulu ler..TT...she is soo hardworking...hehezz..^^
having a nice lunch at food court~cai en and fang eat fried noodle..n den me and yuen ting eat salad chicken rice~nice~im so full..hehezz...haiz..its pity sze wen come so late..su fang ady last night told her we oni go boulevard..but she go imperial mall..=='''about 2pm like tat she arrive lor..hehezz..then we go play game...hehezz...i like 2 play cooking master 2~..nice~..hehe..

about 3pm like tat i go home lor...n den me n yuen ting oso got buy some ji nian ping b4 back home..its a cute ring..we buy it at SINMA~hehezzz...quite she bu de.~~TT..hehezzz...today is the BEST day in my life~

**BEST FRIENDS FOREVER~**

frustrated~ TT

whooa... long time din update my blog lw..
currently feel very tired.. TT becoz of an unexplainable reason..
juz feel tired becoz of nothing..ceh..feel like im a weirdo.. TT..

yesterday sumthing change my life..hehexx..guess wat??
lolx..try 2 guess if u can...wakakaka~...din expect this thing will ever happen in my life...hehexx..
haiz...yesterday my mood got abit weird la..sumtime happy sumtime angry..dun noe oso..mayb i need 2 consult a doctor lw.. P/S: mental doctor..lolx..i guess i am having a severe mental problem..hehexx..mayb will go rambutan soon..XD

when i feel angry i will do sumthing tat are not supposed 2 be done..dun like 2 sms or toking on tat time..
juz wan 2 be alone myself..n ppl better dun disturb me..or else mayb i will do sumthing tat will eventually HURT u...
well cant helped oso..hu ask me hv tiz weird behaviour???but will change tiz attitude 1..
dun worry...

realize tat..sum1 hu u rely on so much..doesnt like wat u expect...wat i think b4 wasnt correct at all..n i will ask myself dun b so kepo..!!i think tat me in ur heart muz b veli important..but it juz wasnt like wat i think..hah...wat izzit call?? destiny?? fate??or traitor..
well..no need 2 explain so much...juz b myself..and no need 2 kepo so much...u've got sum1 much more important than me~


SIMPLE IS THE BEST ~ yeah..going out tiz friday wif shy hui~ su fang (my dear)~ cai en (my lover..lolx..quite rou ma hor..lolx..XD)..annie can go wor..miss her so much~ TT

hehexx..feel so excited now..tiz is wat BEST FRIENDS called~..yeah cheerss~

P/S: to daphne if u read my blog..yeah im going 2 watch TWILIGHT tiz friday..hehexx...im feeling so good now..feel pity 4 u~ dun b sad...if cannot watch we all go buy a twilight cd 4 u..hehexx...4 a christmas present 4 u??how do u think?? XD (but hv 2 c whether got sell the CD or not..^^)..lolx..i noe u're the biggest fans of edward n bella..wakaka~

~无题~

假期真的很闷的说~
除了去补习之外, 真的没什么事情好做叻..可是读书的时候又盼望假期的到来..
假期来了, 却又嫌闷..XD
最近朋友都没来找我~都是我找他们~几可怜一下~.. TT
不过还好有老朋友~ 他们有时都会send一些好笑的信息给我..
哈哈..谢啦~ 祝我们友情不变~ ^^ 友情万岁~ ^^
记得有一次被朋友的信息给骗了..XD..都怪我没吧信息看完..出丑~ XD
哈哈..明年就要考试了, 虽然说还有时间做准备..不过还是会有一点点的紧张..TT

时间过得真快, 不知不觉, 明天就要迎接十二月的到来..真是快到不能再快..
我已经从小学毕业两年了, 快吧..小学所发生的一切, 就好像昨天才发生一样, 可是那已经是几年前的事了..
该说些什么呢??那时的时间真的很快乐, 有事情大伙儿们一起分享..
很想念那时的日子, 虽然那时不怎么喜欢级任老师, 不过跟朋友在一起的每一天..
几乎都是在欢笑声中渡过~..现在, 每个人都朝着自己的方向走去...
以前的日子..不知道还会有没有人记得??? TT

现在不能怀念过去, 只能往前看...只能期盼明天是美好的一天...
只要心中期盼是美好的, 相信明天将会是美好的一天..加油~...

气死我!!!

什么嘛~什么鬼补习中心..真是的..我呸~!!
真是气死我..只不过是玩个电话罢了..
有必要发那么大的脾气吗??
神经婆~!!!
大班的人玩不见得你去骂!!
根本是胆小鬼..
我根本不怕你~~ 要骂就骂咯..
讲话问问题都不可以..~!!
简直霸道到顶点~~~!!!

气死我!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

untitled~ XD

it has been a long time didn't update my blog ady..lol~
currently veli buzy~ buzy of tuition~ TT
anyway..i learn a lot of things too....need 2 study heard for my PMR next year..
time will never wait 4 us..TT
i hope i can have a time machine..lol...
but it oni happen in my dream..lol...
yeah~~next month mayb can go out wif my fwenzz..~^^
happy happy~ long time no c ler..
can meet next month..hehexx...
erm...i decided 2 gib up ady...gib up my hopeless dream...
there is a lot of thing we can do~ cant admit tat life is reli painful without love~
but i will go on living even wif the pain..
+ u + u~

^^

不一样的一天..^^

今天真的很不一样..我也不知道是哪里不一样..就是感觉很不同就是了..哈哈..^^
早上起来时..就赶快准备好一切需要的东西..然后差不多9点那样从家里出发...
哈哈...到了之后..我发现tanjung跟之前真的很不一样了..应该是涨潮的关系吧...
然后就进行一连串的游戏..该死的, 我被要求扮猴子要小便的样子..=.='''
我的天, 没办法, 只好照做..==我的形象完全毁了..TT
daphne还在海边拾到一个很大很大的蚌呢!!真的很稀奇呢..
那个蚌就在我的前面, 不过那时是被泥土覆盖着, 然后眼镜锐利的daphne 看到了..
这么大的地方既然给他找到了, 还真的很幸运..哈哈..之后我也有找到一个..
不过是小小个的, 差很多.. =='''
今天英文老师本来要来的...不知怎么到后来就没来了, 信息给他也没有回...不知道发生什么事...哈哈..
之后呢, 我还看到一个心形的叶子呢, 拍照留做纪念..呵呵..我们还在海滩上写了 :老师 I Love You ~
并拍了下来, 打算E给老师看...哈哈...^^算是给老师一份礼物..^^
然后呢, 我还有在海边许愿了呢...许愿方式是采恩叫我的, 还记得那年我们才六年级, 是她交我的许愿方式..^^谢谢你...
呵呵..希望我心中的那个愿望会实现..^^然后呢, 下午的时候, 海风真的很凉~
吹着吹着..让我想起了一些伤心事..说起来也不算是伤心事啦..只是事情是没有发生在我身上..
事情总是发生在你的意料之外的.. TT..
唉...在这里怨天尤人也是没有用..一切只是看缘分了...

好了, stop here~改天再来..bye..

**world is cruel, love is blind, lost in sadness, blur in mind..heart is broken, flame had died, time has passed but why is he....still not mine....**

老师..保重~!! TT

昨天去了老师的欢送会...原以为自己不会哭的..
哪里知道自己确在要回家的时候, 第一个哭的就是我自己..TT 我自己也控制不了, 眼泪要掉就让它掉, 可是想不到我会在我朋友里面第一个先哭..TT 要回家的时候, 老师还给我一个大大紧紧的拥抱,
就在那时候, 我脑子里想到的是: 几时我还能在次得到这样的拥抱..TT
就这样我哭了..TT..还有最近的心里很乱啊..我真的不知道我该怎么办???
我会对他动心是因为他长得像他吗??可是我是不应该这么做的啊!!!哎哟...乱死了..!!!

今天的时候, 才发现..一直以来跟我们感情很好的数学老师也要转去另一个学校了..
什么嘛!!根本就不公平!!为什么对我们很好的老师一个一个都要去别的地方~!!!
我不要!!!可是..该走的的还是要走..要留的还是要留...
我们无法挽回..只能珍惜我们之前美好的回忆... TT老师我会永远记得你们!!!
你们永远是我心中最好的老师!!! 我会永远永远永远永远 记得你们~~ TT

今天是放假之前的最后一天...朋友们都哭到好惨..之后..大概是眼泪流干了, 就不大有眼泪了..
老师们!!你们要保重啊!!! 一定不要忘记我们哦!!

明天要去班的class party了..很期待..因为打算给老师们最后的礼物... ^^
好啦就此停笔..还是一句 : 老师珍重~

要放假了~XD

今天真的是超级闷的一天..一整天都是那个什么ceramah..厚..真的是不耐烦!!!==
真不想去学校..甘愿去帮老师的忙也不要去听那个无聊的讲座会...!! =.='''
然后..最近发现某某老师很针对我..
哼..她要针对就针对..反正班长又不是我要当的..
最多明年不要当咯大不了..==..我不稀罕!!!
每一次我做事情你没有看到..我没做工的时候..就当我是一整天没有做工样..!!
算了..你要针对就给你针对..反正我又不会少一块肉~~...
明年绝对绝对绝对不当班长了...当了不见得有好的回报~ ==
消气消气....~~
拜四要去老师家哦..欢送会..说真的很舍不得华语老师..虽然老师有时是对我们是过分了一点..
不过一日为师, 终生为师...她还是我们的老师~老师...一路顺风~千万不要忘记我们啊!!! TT

这个拜六要去班级BBQ了..很期待哦..因为好久好久没有去海边了..呵呵..双鱼座的地方~^^
可以在我喜欢的海滩上玩了..不过..如果是跟我喜欢的人去的就更好~^^

哈哈..目前专心读书就是了~..
好了..就此停笔~希望明天会更好~^^加油~

friends....

while we were the same smiles,
we passed through the years together,
the sceneries kept changing
and we struggled to accept it....

I throw away my useless pride..
may kindness come to this world..

I gotta say
friends..if i show off my bravely and my strength..
i cant survive alone..
our promise from that day..
it remains firmly in my heart..even now...

new encouner come after each farewell..
i find light down a new path, and move on...
since that day i was born..
that has been the way my life is molded..

through the changing seasons, and this fleeting moment,
i listen to this nostalgic melodies..
even when i become an adult..
some things won't fade~
like our precious memory..^^


its not my creation anyway..hehexx..its a japanese song..which is sang by a quite popular singer--stephanie..
the lyric is so meaningful..so i just write it in my blog..thx 4 my frenz hu owez cheer me up when i'm very down..^^thx fwenz..

痛~!!! TT

今天..起身时...腰真的是痛得要命...
==..故事得从昨天下午六点时说起...补习好了..
就跟朋友从楼梯那边下去..然后..那个楼梯不懂有什么东西湿湿滑滑的..
结果我脚踩下去时, 可能是太滑的原故..结果从楼梯那边摔了下来..!!!我的天!!
结果我的屁股就"代替"我的脚帮我 '下' 楼梯..真的是痛死我也!!!
如果无法想像我跌倒的样子, 就请你想像那个笨重的大象从楼梯滚下来的样子..虽然跌倒了, 我还得走路回家..
真不知道我这是什么命!!!回家的时候..跟妈妈说我跌倒的事情..
结果!哼~他自己也在那边笑!!真是气死我啦~~TT
不过虽然如此..我自己也在那边笑..哈哈..因为自己跌倒的过程真的很好笑..结果自己也跟妈妈一起笑起来..
=='''beh tahan..哈哈...我就是那种会自己笑自己的大笨蛋..哈哈..发觉自己真的很蠢...哈哈....
啊..我的腰又痛了起来...TT
今天不大有心情帮老师做东西..都在那边坐着睡觉..因为我的腰又痛了..不能做工啦..勉强做一点还可以啦..
然后今天他真的很幼稚在spbt room玩企躲猫猫..不过他跟他的朋友的躲功还真的很利害..
真的很难找到他们叻...==哈哈..幼稚又可爱..呵呵...
之后在接近放学的时间时..我们玩了一个新的游戏..叫做"杀手"...
很像是他自己自创的游戏还是什么我不大清楚...
结果在里面我的牌是spiderman..在这里面我的工作是猜谁是杀手..
结果我随便乱猜..杀手真的给我猜出来..哈哈..这还是我第一次跟他说那么多话呢..
心中真的很快乐..
以前..我心中期望的很多..结果我什么也得不到..
其实, 当你不再要求那么多时, 你会慢慢发现, 你得到的越来越多..
其实跟他做朋友也很快乐...^^

深海的孤独

现在真的很烦啊!!!
这件事藏在自己的心底就好..可是我越不去想, 确克制不了自己..我就越来越想去想..
越想就越气, 越想就越恨, 越想就越讨厌...
真不想待在这个学校了!!讨厌...
没人好倾诉..只好在这里发泄好了..
自己越来越少写日记了..因为懒惰动笔...唉...
最近要减肥了..放假的时候要勤跑步了.不然的话就会变成大肥婆了...(现在就已经是了..歹势哈哈..==''')

唉, 真想到海边一趟发泄一下...=(
起码海边没有那么的残酷, 会静静地聆听你的诉苦...唉~
听过一首歌...叫做深海的孤独..(一首日本歌来的)
深海, 往往是个神秘的地方..然而就算科技再发达, 人们也不会选择在海洋里面居住..
因为人们向往的是天空, 而不是海洋....
久而久之,海洋就变的孤独...可是我就是喜欢海洋...我喜欢它的篮, 喜欢它的孤独...
我也不知道为什么..就是很喜欢..没有理由的喜欢..
大概是它跟我很像吧....

恨!!!!!!

恨!!!!

**生病了**

今天不知道是走什么运...既然生病了..
今年生病很多次了..!!!我的天..不知道我的身体是干嘛啦~~
今天那个颁奖典礼真的是很闷..我都快闷死了...又不能看到他..真的是闷上加闷...=='''
昨天在彩排的时候...想不到中途会看到他哦..我真的是乐翻天了..
因为我还以为他回家了..哪里知道..他是放学的时候..跟他的好朋友..
去吃好东西之后..就一直待在我家..! 他跟他的朋友在我家玩psp叻...呵呵..
爽死我..可是他的psp是白色的..我的确是黑色的...哈哈...不过不用紧...黑白配嘛..==我在干嘛..
发花痴啊我..

呵呵..今天朋友跟他的男友吵架了..==
唉..恋爱真的很辛苦..他的男友太过分了啦..一直强迫我的朋友..
明明那时的状况就不allowed啊...还要强迫人家...根本就不会体量人家嘛...

该与不该???

今天真的是累坏了~TT帮老师贴叠书绑书绑到累到要死~
下午的时候还有那个彩排..==累上加累..呵呵...
可是累归累..开心的事情也有发生呵呵~
今天他把我的名字念到难听得要死...==
哈哈..可是很高兴他有机会看见我的名字...开心~^^
呵呵...
今天朋友喜欢的人有来哦..
他高兴的要死...
可是在他的blog里面..看见他说在中五毕业之前..绝不碰爱情这个东西...
可是..你真的能办得到吗??
想爱一个人勇敢的去爱..何必束缚自己呢??不会觉得很痛苦吗??这真的很值得吗??
也许在这个过程中你会觉得很苦很伤心...因为这是逼经的道路啊..我自己也想清楚了..我不会再抱怨他没有看我..我不会了..^^真的真的...因为毕竟是我单方面的单恋..
可是如果这是你所选择的道路..我也不会逼你不要走..
毕竟这是你的选择..我没权干涉...刚刚那一些只是我心里想对你说的一些话...
总之..一句话..加油...

幸福~开心~^^

今天真的很开心~昨天去了庆工宴到今天为止还是很开心喏~^^
呵呵,食物都很好吃~可是吃到一半就饱了~呵呵..现在想起那时的食物还会肚子锇~
呵呵...有人情果初开哦....呵呵, 真的很意外她会喜欢上他...
他给我的第一个印象应该是个很有艺术天分的男生..有点幼稚 (哈哈偶尔啦)
不过..无论如何, 你都要加油啊..不要因为一点小挫折就要放弃~!!加油加油~
我知道你可以的..呵呵..自己的幸福自己寻找~^^
祝你幸福快乐~^^


呵呵..昨天玩游戏的时候, 女生输给男生了~丢脸丢脸~
我最喜欢玩抢椅子的那一个~
因为c也有在里面哦~
呵呵..他是中途才加进去玩的..
玩到一半的时候..主持人说要换位子..一男一女~吓到我~卡卡~
然后就不偏不正他就坐在我的前面..我的天我快要飞上天堂了.!!
我的心跳那时加速, 真的好象快要跳出来了呢...
我跟他坐在一起时, 还不小心跟他磨擦肩膀了呢..
虽然只是这样..可是我已经很开心了..
我朋友说他一直看着我..可是..是真的吗..也许他是在看别的女生呢也说不定...
我不知道我该不该采取任何的行动我怕我会吓到他..以后连朋友都没有得做..
我该怎么办~

考试考完了~!!!

考试终于考完了!!!
爽死我~
呵呵~!!XD

今天真的不懂是不是我的灰色日子~
怎么都那么soi啊!!
现是朋友因为那个问题而被老师叫到办工室..
看到他哭的样子,伊莹都哭了...
我没有哭..因为如果我也哭了, 那么就没有人安慰他们...
所以我坚持不哭...

可是话说的好听..
到头来我还是忍不住掉眼泪~TT
我自己也不能控制..
看见自己的好朋友在哭..
自己也不能无动于衷啊...然后呢,就是扯铃表演的事情..
老师真的太过分了啦..又不是我们自己自愿要表演的..
结果一进来就破口骂人...难道你自己都不能用好好的口气说话吗???
真的好气哦~~!!!我们也是人耶...又不是你手中操从的傀儡...
没办法,只好硬着头皮去表演好了..虽然表演的人不是我
可是我还是为朋友打抱不平...!!!

**frustrated** TT

I FEEL SO TIRED!!!!

i hate study!!!my brain wan explode ady!!!
study sejarah until wan go crazy ler...TT
monday ady wan test lw...
i feel so depressed!!
sum 1 plz help me...!!!

juz hope tat i wont get a worst result..TT

tired day..~

another new day again...
the time passes so fast until i cannot adapted with it..
hmm..yesterday chat wif cai en..
she told me she started to use contact lens ady~kakaxx...
today..go 2 skul 2 finish the KT project with our frens..
but when we juz arrived the teacher asked us went back 2 home..=.='''
she said she got duty cannot guide us do d project..gosh...
y she dun told us early..i wouldnt wake up so early..TTjuz waste my time oni...

afterward..my mum went out wif my bro go buy sumthing...
my fwenz n i go back home lor..afterward..they all asked me 2 play violin..
kakaxx..kinda terrible i played..i swear tat the sound is damn freaky..lolx...

hmm..felt kinda bored den go play fatal frame 2..but coz of the sunlight i cant c d tv screen veli well..
so i went 2 close the curtain..but then i saw daphne was outside the skul alone...
i go outside n den she ask us go where she was at tat time..
den we all go there..
suddenly she cried..i was kinda shocked at tat time..coz she seldom cried 1..
she told us tat our dicipline teacher n other teacher saw she was dating wif her bf at skul..
hmm..i pray tat she will b save n eveli goes well..

k..gtg now..bye~^^

another chanllenges~xD

whoo...has been a long time din update my blog ady...
lazy use chinese so juz straight away use english...
forgive me eveli 1..dun blame if dun understand..TT my broken english~

hmm...i ady decided 2 attend the party...
cant wait 2 c other primary classmate...sashiburi desu..lolx(tiz is not english,k??lolx..tiz is japanese mean long time no see..kakaxx...)
hmm....tat day tuition saw shean shin..
he didnt change at all, except 4 his sound lar...eveli time he talk i cant adapted eh, coz in primary his talk wif the sound like gurl..hehexx..anyway, he is juz himself..^^
i ady said soli to tat person le..but she seems like she dont mind..hmm..anyway,
deep in my heart i juz wan us start from d begin..hmm...but its impossible 4 us..coz since we long time din meet ady..well, juz stay like tiz..den eveli things is ok le..

haixx..next week still got test ar..
cannot play until shuang shuang..my holiday spoiled..TT
hmm...i seems like owez worried about them..
they seems like change their personality and attitude ady...
its not like i wan 2 be kepo n control them..well they got their own right 2 wear wat they like..
but it is juz like..hmm..how 2 said..well..eveli thing happened in a blink of an eye?i guess..lolx..
hmm..i still can take it anyway..mayb i need time 2 adapted wif it..hmm...

k..gtg now..bye..n plz gib me sum comment yarhxx.~^^

累~XD

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呼~终于可以呼吸了~呵呵~我还没死啦~
考试的压力真的是压得我喘不过气来~
感觉好像快死了~XD

hmm..最近都没什么事情发生~
呵呵~最近开始我的小说了~
可是感觉上朋友写的比自己的还好看~

今天跟老师讨论关于camping的事情~
爽死~我没有camping过叻~感觉自己好像sakai那样~呵呵~
呵呵..老师和朋友们都讨论学校很像有那个东西哦~
伊莹还怕自己会遇到那个东西~XD~

下个拜六要去老师家拜年哦~跟朋友一起去~呵呵~
我的英文退步了~讨厌TT
本以为可以拿很高分的~吃大便~kns!!!!
可是很奇怪的我的数学却可以拿很高分~
唉~希望我其他的科目不要拿到那么烂~
我可不想退步叻~U_Uv

好啦~就此停止啦~要去听歌了~
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感动~TT

感动~!!
真的是太感动了啦~!!
无法形容此刻的心情..TT
上面是我最最最最最最最最最喜爱的卡通~
虽然看完了很多次~
可是还是忍不住再看多几遍..呵呵..没办法控制自己..>.<

呵呵..也许对你们来说..我真的很幼稚..~
那么大了~还看卡通~
呵呵~其实我有一点阿达阿达的...XD
再加上有一点宅女~呵呵, 所以应该很明白为什么我那么喜欢动画了吧???

我不喜欢少女漫画~
我喜欢打斗的, 战争的, 然后里面再加上有一点爱情的~
呵呵, 那就符合我的选择了...卡卡~
可是这种动画真的是太难找了啦~
呵呵, 唯有上面那个我提到的, 才是符合我的口味~
太对不起了~本人实在是太挑剔了~
呵呵~

在这个动画里面~黑色头发的男子和紫红色头发的女子是一对的~XD
这也是我在这个动画里面最最最最最最最最最最最最最最喜欢的一对了~
呵呵~男的长得帅~女的长的美~
真的是天生的一对啊~
呵呵, 他们的爱情真的是很浪漫~ **羡慕**

如果我有Doraemon的那个什么鞋我忘了年, 只知道那双鞋可以让你进去你虚幻的世界~
呵呵, 我也好想要哦...TT
真的很想活在动画的世界里~至少没有那么多压力...TT
也许你们会说我疯了~也许我是真的疯了..呵呵XD

好了~就此听笔吧, 虽然不是用笔写的呵呵~
还是乖乖做我自己~
活在现实又残酷的世界吧..TT

选择...

看见这个照片...真的让我很痛心....
对我而言, 我真的不知道什么叫做幸福..真的很可悲...TT
感觉我的部落格都好象很灰安....TT大家可别怪我啊...
如果有机会我也想和我心爱的人, 乘上摩天轮,
一起眺望者我们的幸福..可是...至今摩天轮上只有我一个人孤独的守着..
等待那一个, 只属于我的人来跟我一起眺望幸福...

每一次去逛街时, 都好羡慕那些情侣...
他们都好幸福..
我很喜欢和我喜欢的人, 一起手牵手的感觉..
我喜欢被人在乎的感觉..
可是要等到几时...
我才能感受到..????

曾经喜欢过一个人..
但是只是我单方面的单恋..(终于知道戏里单恋人的感受了..TT)
单恋人家又甜又苦....
至到他走的那一天太都还不知道...
曾经有过像我这样的人喜欢过他...
算了, 还是把这份感情收在心底好了....


这是我闲来无事时做的..hehexx...

题目:选择


如果
可以选择
那么
我希望我当初遇到的不是你....

如果
可以选择
我希望我不该开始这段感情...

如果
可以选择
我希望我爱的人..
不是你.....TT


题目: 何时

何时
你才会知道
我的存在

何时
你才会明白
我对你的爱

何时
你才会察觉
在你的背后有像我这样的一个人
偷偷喜欢你....???


感觉到好伤心...TT
好想哭了....TT

another lame day..xD

又是闷闷的一天哦..呵呵, 下午要去补习了,讨厌xD~没事情做就来这边乱乱写, 来发泄下, 呵呵之前的部落格没有用了, 因为都是些不好的回忆..哈哈, 很高兴也很期待~朋友昨晚约我出去哦, 哈哈, 虽然是每次都有出去, 可是都会很期待的说, 自己也不懂做麽, 大概是像三岁小孩子那样一点点也会兴奋吧~唉, 朋友们都很少来找我每除了一两个那样而已, 都不懂他们有没有当我是他们的朋友哦, 唉~算了, 还是凡事想开点吧, 也许他们很忙也说不定~哈哈xiao bi bi不用谢了啦, 反正我也想做一个新的嘛, 就碰巧帮帮你罢了~^^

旁边的图片很适合我哦, 很爱非主流的照片, 每一个都很漂亮的呵呵~有空自己也要学学怎样去edit照照了~^^...我们之间难道不能像以前那样好了吗?我到底做错了什么搞到这样..你不跟我说我也没办法的好不好, 不要让我一直在猜测我真的猜到累了!!!!发信息给你你总是冷言冷语的对待我, 你知道这种感觉是很难受的吗??也许你不这么认为, 可是这真的是很伤到我的心!!~也许我有些地方做不对, 但起码你得告诉我啊...=.='''..如果我有什么对不起你的地方我在这里跟你说对不起好了..:对不起!!!

lame and buzy..xD =)

tis holiday is kinda bz and lame..lolx...got nothing 2 do..juz trap inside the house and do nothing ..except study 4 my test which is coming soon..xD..juz wan 2 study hard..but still not sure whether i can achieve my target or not..well, juz study hard as usual n try my best..xD..hmm..i create tiz blog wif my fwen, coz she dun noe how 2 create her own 1..lolx..so i hv 2 help her...^^lolx...selamat hari raya 4 those hu got celebrate...^^i realized tat my skul life was boring..=='''...reli lame and boring, wan 2 try sumthing new eh..lolx..but tats the rule, no offense..xD...starting 2 learn violin now..its kinda hard when 1st time i learn it..lolx..*ashamed*reli admire those hu can play violin very well..but i'll try my best, nothing is gonna make me afraid..=)i'm so addicted 2 anime lately, sumhow its kinda veli..well...u noe...its hard 2 explain it..but those hu r addicted 2 anime like me will noe how i feel..^^..eventot it wasnt the reality but i juz love it..^^wakakakaka..~mayb u can try 2 watch sum nice anime next time..^^haixx...i wonder wat happen 2 u eh..sumtime u treat me nice but sumtime u dun...did i do sumthing wrong 2 u i wonder..if i ever did it, plz tell me, i cant u if u werent specific...=='''..but did u noe tat sumtime u oso neverk my feeling?its hurt u noe????i juz wan u 2 treat me as ur fwen, juz tat easy, nothing more than tat...haixx...juz wan my life b easy n happy..hope i can slove my problem as soon as possible...TT