Another day to go.

      " Sunday morning rain is falling,steal some covers share some skin..." i start my day with this lovely song sang by Maroon 5, though it's quite an old song already, but a good song never die. =)

So erm, today mom woke me up by 6.45 in the morning, and seriously i thought i couldn't wake up but glad that i make it somehow. The reason why i wake up so early today is because i have registration to be done in school, and frankly speaking, this is my first time ever had my registration on SUNDAY MORNING. But it's nothing special, judging from where i study. SORRY. but this is the fact.

      The registration went smoothly, except the fact that i had to sit there for hours, expecting the koperasi would open soon, so that the teacher could get our exercise books.Then BAAAAAMMM, we are told that we could leave, so i was like DAFUQQ? i waited there for hours and then you're telling me that i'm not going to get my exercise books? Then i should have just left after filling in the form and settled all the fees. And another sad thing to say is that i was elected to be the assistant monitor for our class, well, NOT BASED ON DEMOCRACY like how we elect the candidates in the elections. I WAS CHOSE RANDOMLY.Actually i'm fine for being the vice monitor, but i was told that all the monitors and assistant monitors, will have to join some sort of camp in school, and i suppose the school organise everything, well of course the aim for organising such event is to enhance our leadership skills. hahahahahahaha, like BARACK OBAMA became the PRESIDENT OF USA because he joined some sort of leadership skill camp in school. *sarcasm* I hate camp to the max, and i have never joined one in my life, not like i'm a big fan of campfire and canned food. whatever. this is bothering me since i have finished the registration. But fine, who cares. I will endure everything for one more year, if it'r not for my extra-curricular points, the heck i will become assistant monitor. DON'T misunderstood me for running this post because i'm a devoted students, you've judged me wrongly.

       Two days left and there i say goodbye to holidays. I have always wanted more but too bad there's nothing like 'extra holidays'. I promise myself that i would work my ass off as soon as the school starts, and i will not be slacking off no matter how tired i am. HOPEFULLY i will keep my words, *fingers crossed*. If you ask me whether i have regretted for not using my time wisely during the holidays, well my answer is NO. I have done things i didn't get to do during my study times, and I surely agreed the fact that holidays are meant to be spent on things other than tuition classes and text books. Life is a process where by we are constantly learning everyday, not just from text books, where you learn all those differentiation and integration and everything. We learn things, when we socialize with others. We learn that how much friendship will worth when you get to see people you haven't seen for ages. And we learn how to spare your ears and shoulders when your family members are bothered by troubles. Life is not just about getting good grades, well of course good grades ensure your entrance to your ideal university, but it doesn't ensure you have a bright future. Survival the fittest. Chances goes to those who knows how to grab it, not to those who study everyday and afraid of taking risks. I was rather sad when people know what is the relative atomic mass of oxygen, but doesn't know who is the second man to step on the moon surface. People remember Neil Armstrong as he was the one who leave footstep on Moon but the name of Buzz Aldrin, the second man to land on moon. People enjoy eating KFC, and often do not know the name of the Old Man with black bow tie is Colonel Sanders, who is also the founder of the No.5  largest fast food chain all over the world. See? learning isn't about getting good grades, what for if you learn things merely just to get good grades and you don't even know who is the founder of KFC?? =))

     So, be brilliant people. I figured somehow this has become my favourite phrase. LOL xDD So another day to go before 2012 ends, an early new year greeting from me : HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! repent for those wrong things you have done and don't forget to apologize and ask people to forgive you. =)) Adios！

When technology dominates the younger generations.

       I'm not trying to sound like an old hag, but like seriously we need to look into this problem. As  the great scientist Albert Einstein once said : " I fear the day when technology overlaps with our humanity. The world will only have a generation of idiots." 

      So as you can see on the picture above, there's a big difference you see up there. In our days, we only have barbie dolls as our toys, and as for the boys, they have the plastic star wars swords, toy cars,  tamagotchi, and bunch of toys made by plastics. But kids nowadays, they have iphones, ipads or anything digital products you can think of. And as a results, you see lots of small kids wearing glasses now, which is totally a sad case.

     There are some side effects regarding this issues, where by the kids are getting more addicted to the digital products and they refuse to go out and they end up being an anti social freaks, not trying to sound offensive, i'm just erm, being factual. Not like all of them will end up that way, but if no further preventive measures are taken i'm sure they will end up with something  pretty bad.

    And erm, also speaking of health, technology certainly have some bad effects on our health. When ones rely too much on technology, they eventually couldn't live without it. When things get serious, expect them to sit in front of the computer for a whole day long. And there comes eye sight problems, obesity due to low involvement in physical activities, and you have diseases associated with obesity are like hypertension, heart disease, probably Arteriosclerosis (hardening of the arteries),diabetes, and skeletal diseases. So the not only we have a generation of idiots, and also we have a generation of unhealthy people.

   Also, parents nowadays seems to be less aware of this issue. They think by providing their kids with those digital thingy and they became the best parents in their world. " I mean, hey i afford things that cost more than 1000 bucks, and it's not like any beggar down the street could afford these to their children. " Accept the fact people, i swear if your ancestor ever heard about this, they are going to jump out of the graveyard and smack hard in your head. Not only the younger generation have problems now, even the parents are having issues. And I know i'm in no position to criticize the way they raise the kids, as i don't even have any kids on my own. But seriously, the parents should bear in mind, raising your kids with love and care doesn't mean you let your children indulge in luxury. And studies have proven that,if kids have a higher accessibility to the digital products like mobile phone, computers, they dumber they get in the future. Which means it's not good to their intelligence quotient, or IQ. You want your kids get dumber?? easy, buy them all those stuff. ;)

    To cut it short, the purpose i'm writing this post is not condemn the use of technology. Technology makes our lives easier, that's the fact and indeed, under some circumstances we need it. But people should be rational, try not to let these rule your life. So, be brilliant, people. =))) 

Bones

     So, I have decided that before the school breaks ended, which means i still a few days to go before real nightmares start, I want to finish all the television series that i have always wanted to watch. Here comes, the series i'm watching----Bones.

     I directly start with the season 8, as i couldn't find any websites that actually allow me to download or watch it for FREE. So i have no choice but to start it with season 8. Honestly, it's hard for me to catch up with what they say, regarding the fact that i have a hard time recognizing all the characters' names. LOL, But things do get better after watching a few episodes.

    So, erm, this series is similar with CSI, thriller, solving crime, forensics and bla bla bla.haha. The only things it is different from CSI is that the dead bodies found were in a condition where by it is highly decomposed, or in a condition when u see it, you'll puke. But I really love the way they create the fake corpse, it's so real that you think it's a real dead body in there. My brother said that i might ended up being a sadistic or any disgusting psychopath, but who cares, i just love the series. HAHA =))

    So i have to go now, to finish the rest of the episodes, bye readers!!!

promises are...

  As usual, here i am again, to write about what's happening in my life lately. I've been trying hard to get my ass on the chair and study whatever i'm going to learn in the semester, sadly, things had just proven that my procrastination is directly proportional to my butt, it gets bigger as each day passes. woots. Sorry if you find this disturbing, i just can't think of any example that fits perfectly in this situation.

  So, speaking of promises, the first word that came to my mind is 'lies'. Somehow in my logical thinking, these two words are interconnected to each other. Probably i have been through situations which make me basically don't trust in promises anymore. I'm not trying to condemn every promise made by other people out there, of course there's always people who can actually keep their words, even in the most dire situation. What i'm speaking is my personal point of view, like it or despite it, it's your own choice.

   "Promises are meant to be broken."------ This is what you get when you google 'promises are...', the good thing is that i'm not the only pessimistic people out there, most people seem to be broken hearted about promises. Are promises meant to be broken?? For the majority, YES.

   People made promises, and eventually forgot about the words and responsibilities, if you were to ask me to provide something scientific reason to explain this phenomena, i would come up with like immaturity?? Well, albeit i'm a science student and i know you guys expect me to come out with scientific name, like they have too much hormones in the bloodstream, which prompt them to forgot whatever they have said when a second has passed, or perhaps, they've smelled too much chlorine gas and like have a short term memory loss, duh, i will passed on that. I am a science students, but it's not going to change the fact that i despise to dwell with the scientific name and all those mathematics expression, i've had enough of that already! Sorry, i'm kinda out of control. So let's get back on track, men are always linked to broken promises, don't they? I'm trying to sound not offensive as much as possible, but then i will waste too much times on this, so i'll just cut it out.

  People always wonder why men don't keep their words, and surprisingly, i do not know the answers too. Everyday on the newspaper, you read about husbands cheating on wives, or husbands being caught red handed while having intimacy with their mistresses. But, things has changed our perspectives right now. Even women has decided to turn their back on their husband, by having pleasure with their so called 'xiao wang/小王' in Chinese. And just yesterday, i read a similar news again, but this time, it's about a woman, who's old enough to be a grandmother,having affair, which means she cheats on her husband. And in Singapore, there's a white collar woman, is willing to sacrifice her body in order to get promoted. So does this means that their threw away their fidelity and respects towards their partner in order to trade for excitement, or whatever they have longed for?? well, who knows. 

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  If only people matters promises, taking it as a real important things in life, not merely just words they make to entertain, or to satisfy others. Promises are a sign of respect, a sign of commitment towards each other. Don't make it if you have no faith in yourself that you are going to keep every single word you said. If promises are meant to be kept, there will be no broken families, no dead bodies of infants found in the garbage, no broken hearted people, no children crying on the streets begging for foods and shelter, and lastly no wars. Let's make our days a better tomorrow, a better place to live by keeping our words, that is to love, to share and,to accept each other and to smile despite what may comes to destroy our faith. peace. MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! FELIZ NAVIDAD!

once in a while, i just want to...ROAR!

two post in a day, isn't too much eh, i guess?? LOL.

Been feeling not well this few days, probably caused by the heavy downpour during few days back then. I've been trying so hard to get myself away from any possible outbreak of infectious diseases, but this time, the virus won. I guess it's time to swallow a bucket of raw garlic, as studies has shown that garlic is a good choice to boost up your immune system. haha, but people can smell i eat garlic even they are miles away from me, so i might as well give up on this idea. well, people get sick everyday, so, who cares, it's not a big deal.

when i first wrote this post, i have no idea what to put in the title box, so i just whatever that came up to my mind, but like seriously, i just wanna get crazy right now. I have no idea why i am behaving this way, but i just did. haha, sorry for talking nonsense, i have no idea what i'm talking right now, err, i definitely did not smoke marijuana or any dose of drugs, and seriously i don't need that to get me on the cloud nine. 

there's one week left before school starts, and as much as i hate to admit it, THE SCHOOL IS REOPEN SOON. that's when hell comes. stacks of papers,exercises, and the teachers never seem tired of giving assignments, and the face they made when you couldn't meet their expectation, and the extra-curricular activities, the whole thing about school, seems WRONG. especially when you're studying in the deadliest place in town. ggrrrr, just one more year, i'm gonna be free from this hell, and there comes my getaway. woohoo!!!!!! but trust me, in the end i'm going to be just me, the social pariah who seems to forever got stuck at home. i have no idea where i'm going to after my studies ended, well, might as well, be an empty plastic bottle floating in the nowhere of Atlantic ocean, that was just so aimless and horrible. serious hair fall always happen when school is about to start, someone please get me outta here, i don't wanna go back to that school, to that stuffy classroom of mine and counting days when the whole thing is going to end.  by the way, wonder will i be able to fit in my school dress, gained few pounds as soon as holidays kick off. ggrrr, another thing to be bothered again. 

sigh! wish tomorrow is going to be a better day, fingers crossed. =)))

by the way before i end this post, allow me to share a song that i've been listening to recently.
a song written and sang by a talented guy came from china. i'm addicted to this song, hope somebody is going to sing me this song, i'm definitely fall for whoever sang me this song! *melting*

hope you guys enjoy the song!

unspoken dream

when i was a kid, there are times i wish i would grow up and be somebody me and my family proud of.

perhaps, a doctor who save people's life, or somebody with a high social status.

But when i grow up, i realized that things seldom work out the way we want them to.

it is always easier said than done, and that's when we realize that things are not as easy as we thought it would be. 

Somehow, deep within my heart there's an unspoken dream of mine. There it lies silently in my heart, so delicate that i'm afraid i might break it. 

I've always wanted to be a writer.

Someone who is able to express her feelings through words.

i have never share this dream of mine to anyone, or maybe i did it just that i forgot. LOL.

people say: never give up on your dream and eventually you are going to achieve it.

But given the situation right now, it is kinda impossible to achieve what i want.

when you grow up, you'll know you can't go straight forward when there's a huge bump in front of you, that's how sarcastic it is, we know there's bump, and we know there's a way to overcome to bump, but we ended up taking the easy way out-----to give up.

sadly, i'm the coward who has given up this unspoken dream of mine.

it might be the biggest mistake i've made, and maybe i am never meant to be a writer, WHO KNOWS.but one thing for sure is that i'm never ever going to give up my passion in writing.

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ANYWAY， rest in peace. to those kids and adults who died in the gunshot in Sandy Hook elementary school. Deepest condolence to the victims' families and friends and to all American.

first crush.

It was 5 years ago, just when i thought this school had already run out of nice, good looking guy, that's when i saw him.

It was never my intention, to fall for someone whom i have just met. 

Before that, i know nothing about him, all i know was that he's a senior of mine, a really tall and skinny guy. 

Pictures of him flashing through my mind whenever i see tall guys like him, and there's a corner in my heart wishes that the guys i see is him, but things never work out the way i want to.

Friends of mine was feeling a little whimsical about the thought that i'm falling for this guy, he was way too skinny, and they said he might break his bones if he ever want to give me a princess-hug. LOL, that was hilarious.

But then whenever you fall for someone, even if he is not the prince charming that you've always dreamt of, but for you, he's the best of all. He might have habits which you despise a lot, but when it comes to the matter of LOVE, all of that doesn't seem to be important anymore. 

well, you might be curious that if i ever declared to him, LOL, well, the answer is a NO.

I was too young to be courageous enough to declare my love, rather than that, i'm afraid of the answer, afraid that he might already have his special someone by that time.

till now, he is the biggest regret in my life.

just when i thought i'm never going to see him again, there i saw him walking his way to the basketball court nearby with his brother, i was in the car, on my way to chinese class. 

I'm glad that he's doing good, and erm...i'm just glad that he appeared in my life.

Though 5 years has gone since then, but my heart couldn't stop throbbing whenever i think about him.

i might not be his right one, but one thing for sure is that, he used to be the missing puzzle in my heart, and he will always be the missing puzzle in my heart, ever.

heartache

Am experiencing serious heartache right now, and this happens when i'm so into a drama. TT 

old habit dies hard, this always happens to me whenever i finish a drama. TT

and the drama i finished today is Time Slip Dr. Jin, oh why oh why, i wonder why jaejoong end up dying, i mean at first i watch drama mostly because of Song Seung Hoon, and then i don't know why but suddenly i feel like i want to see jaejoong more than song seung hoon. Gosh, i guess jaejoong has that certain charisma, the kind of swirling force that make u irresistible and get suck in by that strong force. GGgrrrr, i was hoping he would at least married with the woman he loved, but in the end, he died for her. oh why oh why *grief* the screenwriter-shi why you no pity him??? i have a serious heartache now. or maybe i will just imagine that he lead a happy life with young-rae in my own dream world, that will be great. ggrrrr.. and the next thing i hope is that JYJ gets to appear on variety show again, due the lawsuits against their former ageicy, they had a hard time appearing on the television (dramas are excepted of course), as SM entertainment is one of the most influential star agency in the entertainment industry in Korea, which means the broadcast station has to listen to SM if they want their programme to launch smoothly, well you know, people say there are certain things money can't buy you, but i'm sure fame is not  in the list. and now u get what i mean. ._.

and i wonder why the hell the music player won't work after sometimes, well that sucks a lot. GGGrrrr.

The day the exams ended.

so there you go, fly up and high and soar in the sky---- exams are over!!（should have posted this few days ago, but got no inspiration to write until today, ooopsss. sorryyyy)

after a month of continuous struggling, finally, I SURVIVED. 

so let's skip the exams part, cause there's nothing to talk about, except the fact that the questions are super duper hard, and  there'll be no doubt that i'll fail my papers, which means i have to retake the paper in next year, and that means i have to pay for the bloody RM50 for each paper i choose to retake.done. nothing to grumble, it's my fault for study at the eleventh hour, so IT'S MY FAULT. gggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

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So ignore the exams, what had been done is being done, and there's no such things like :" oh how i wish i have a time machine to go back to the past and ask the old me to study harder. but it would be awesome if i do have one in the reality. ;D so erm, i'm was squeezing my brain really hard to think about how should i spent my holidays. but before i could come up with anything beneficial, i've just finished some of the movies that i've longed for. teehee

1.Men in Black III

2. Hunger Games

3. Bait

4. The Amazing Spider Man (Andrew Garfield!!!!! xDDD)

5. The Avengers

6. Beastly

7. Drive angry

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and here's my want-to-watch movie list. teehee!!

1. In time

2. The werewolf boy (korean movie)

3. Cabin in the wood. ( blood and violence)

4. final destination 5

5.silent hill revelation

6. salmon fishing in the yemen

7.contagious

8. mission impossible - ghost protocol

9. battleship

and there's a lot in my mind right now, get so high in the sky whenever i talk about movies, movies are greattttttttttttttttttttttttttttt. Laugh out Loud. teeheee

barely survived.

I thought i am never going to survive this disaster, but i guess i did somehow. Exams are over, and which was a big relief to me. Was thinking would i end up standing in the crowd during the form 6 assembly, hmm, i guess there's a big possibility that i'm going to be standing. School days are tiring pretty boring, in which i was pretty fed up with routine, it's all about homework, revision, rushing assignments to meet the deadline, that's all. But enough with the grumbling, this is the path i've chosen, and no other is going to take the responsibilities but me, and i will walk on the  bumpy road even if it means i have to go on barefooted.

there's one more subject to go in this coming Saturday, hope i can strive for the best.

sometimes i wonder, if the everything in this world is about equivalence, then why can't we get the things we want even if sometimes we work harder than others, while others can get whatever they want with an ease. I'm not trying to complain, but sometimes i just couldn't help but wonder. Guess the law of equivalence doesn't work well in this world. So, hypothesis not accepted. LMAO, sorry readers, been really into my revision lately.

I thought i couldn't live without facebook, but then i did survived after i deactivated it for few weeks. LOL, but the habits of surfing facebook everyday does gets better after i deactivated it, well at least i'm not that addicted anymore. So, cheers for that.

untitled

hi peeps, long time no see. It's almost a month since my last update. sorry for the waiting though, been busy with the school stuffs, assignments and everything, which almost driving me nuts. @@ though i hate to admit that i'm fed up with the almost-the-same routine everyday, and speaking of which i am really running short of time, and i know i shouldn't be here, but i feel like if i don't let everything out here, i'm gonna die of suffocation.

Stressed can be desserts if you know how to spell it backwards. Awesomely said. But stress is such a nuisance, especially for someone like me who doesn't know how to handle stress. hmm, perhaps writing what i feel in this little, personal and not so private space of mine will be a good way to distress myself. sometimes i just wish i could be as versatile as possible, then every problem or obstacles will be nothing but a dirt to me.LOL, but being versatile can be really tiresome though. So, at the end of the day, i end up being old me, a girl who laugh like maniac at nonsense things, a girl who cry when she lost something precious to her, and a girl who smile when there's someone out there appreciate every little thing about me. ;)

It's been 2 months since the lost of my beloved Grandpa, tears still roll down the cheek whenever i think of him. Yesterday i came across an old video recorded 2 years ago during his birthday, Life is just so unexpected. You'll never know what's going to happen next, and you'll never know a decision of yours is going to turn your life upside down in which your life is going to change,eternally. I once expect that people will stay by my side, like forever, but then when i think of it, it was just so silly, i was really naive to think that way, to think that a relationship will last forever, that things will turn out right if i work hard on it. But when i was the one who only put effort, times and patient into what i believe in, it's never going to work when  others don't seem to care at all. Holding on is never going to be the best solution as you are the only one who get wounds and bruises all over the body. It might seem hard to let go, but i believe as time flies, you will eventually accept the facts. People come, people go, people change, people die. So it's time to let go now. and get a fresh start.

So, i think i better stop here. imma continue my revision. Study can be such a  pain in the ass. ;'(

holidays.

hi peeps, it's been a long time since my last update, probably like a week ?? or more than that.haha. time flies, and the one week holidays almost come to an end already, which is totally  a sad case. I wish i could be more efficient on my time management, but still, i ended up being the old me, which means, i suck at time management. Stupid. now i just feel like want to grab something and throw it against the wall, something fragile i guess, i really need to distress myself. i'm fed up with my life, though i always ask myself to look at the bright side, but easy said than done, sometime i wish i am a time traveler, whenever i feel like going back to the old days, i could just go without any hesitation. i used to say that my high school life is a mess, now whenever i think of it, it was the best part of my life, though it was a little boring at the beginning, enormous storms in the middle, but still it end up with blessings and laughter. By comparing with what i went through now, i wish i could go back to the life i once had. I used to complaint at my former school, like how bad the school was, how strict the rules could be, and the school policies, how stupid i was. now i wish i could go back to my former school and be there like, forever? growing up is part of our lives, but still i couldn't embrace this fact, i hated growing up.i hated  facing things i don't like in my life. i want to be a kid, forever. i wish there's something called forever-holidays-days in my life. argh, 2 more days before Monday come, someone or anyone please, freeze the time. i don't wanna go back to school.

绿茶

曾几何时，我很抗拒绿茶的味道。

尤其是市场卖的那种一包包的绿茶，我更是无法接受。

为什么？

没有为什么，就是不喜欢。

如果硬要掰个原因，那可能是因为我不喜欢它的味道吧。

感觉上是在喝肥皂水，就是对那个味道很抗拒。

就这样从小到大，我是个‘不喝绿茶主义者’。

直到去年，我对绿茶彻底改观。

还记得那时候跟好友去电影院，站在卖零食的柜台面前，正想着买什么饮品。

眼睛正忙着扫描呢，雪柜里有柳橙汁、可乐、100号......而绿茶就在那么不起眼的角落。

来电影院之前就已经跟朋友们享用了午餐，

吃什么倒是不记得了，大概是很油腻的东西吧。

所以到了电影院，总觉得口干干。

而我也不知道为什么，就买了一瓶绿茶。因为当下，能解渴又不甜的就只有绿茶。

电影播映当中，喝了一口绿茶。

我发誓，那是我第一次觉得市场上的绿茶是那么的好喝。

淡淡的、香香的，喝了又想再喝一口。

电影放映完了，而我买的那一冠绿茶也早就给我喝完了。

就这样，我彻底的爱上绿茶。

这世界上没有绝对的事情。

原来不喜欢的东西，并不代表你会讨厌一辈子。

原来喜欢的东西，也会有厌倦的时候。

叶会枯、花会谢、月有阴晴圆缺，即便是万物之灵也一样。

坏的人，也不见得坏。

好的人，也并不见得真的心肠好。

有些东西，或有些人，你看不见它、他的好，

但是一旦你接触过后，原来你一直想要寻找的就是这种感觉。

也许，你现在缺的就就是鼓起勇气踏出你的第一步。

而你，也永远不知道也许这第一步会让你对某些人、事、物彻底改观。

就像我，爱上绿茶一样。

Olympic Fever !

四年一度的奥林匹克运动会终于开幕了！

虽然没有七早八早爬起来看开幕典礼，但是至少我有看到传递圣火的那一幕啦～

能够见证这么有意义的一刻也不枉我活了18年。

想起四年前的北京奥林匹克，一切历历在目，感觉上是昨天的事情一样。

但是，时间告诉我说那已经是四年前的事了。

那时候的我还说：下一次的奥运会是我18岁的时候，哈哈，pmr都还没有过就想这么远的事情。

四年了，已经整整四年了啊！

时间啊，你可以走得再快一点，一天24小时简直不够用。唉！

今天没心情啃书，一不做二不休，干脆不读了 ;D 

做人爽快些，今天玩够了，明天再来读书。

‘所谓的成熟，就是以前得不到的东西，变得不想要了。’

几个月前在面书看到这句话，之后它就像强力胶一样粘在我脑中。

以前总会跟父母讨这个讨那个的， 但是现在反而明白做父母的辛苦，做孩子的就试看站在父母的立场想吧！不要老是在抱怨些鸡毛蒜皮的事情了，要知道你在别人眼中已经是很幸福的了。

所以，要少抱怨，多感恩！生命总会有低潮的，但是一个人不会永远处于低潮的状态。

累了，就歇会儿。

生气了，就发个脾气，不要瞥着。

看不过眼，那就眼不见为净吧。

闷了，就出去逛逛，呼吸新鲜空气。

人生总会有不如意的事情，学会看开点吧！

一直执着也不会带来什么好结果。

注定是你的就是你的，不是你的就算你拼了你的命还是一样，不是你的。

这不是向命运低头而是学会用另一个角度去看待事情。

就好像别人常说自己多向往天空，希望自己可以有双翅膀去触摸那蓝天白云。

但科技再怎样发达都好，也不可能出现像鸟人这种东西吧？

蓝天虽好，但是遥不可及；我宁愿躺在这矿阔的草原，感受着那泥土所带来的温暖。至少这感觉是真实的。

得不到，不代表你失败，试下往别的地方看，也许你会发现，这世界还有别的东西值得你去欣赏、值得你去珍惜。

得不到的，往往是最好的？也不一定，人们总是对自己得不到的东西有着太多美丽、不切实际的遐想，久而久之把它/他/她的缺点一概无视。

其实，生命无常，与其花时间去得到一些不切实际的东西，倒不如，就珍惜你已经拥有的。=)

于是乎，天气终于不再那么闷热了，好希望今晚来个倾盆大雨，让我睡个好觉。明天醒来了，依旧是美好一天的开始。加油！

我要快乐

今天难得忙里偷闲 跟赖子、怡铮、盈如一起去逛马来斋戒月市集

那个人潮还真的不是开玩笑的多

差点就变成人肉夹心饼了，哈哈

在这个人来人往的市集中，我看见了形形色色的人

有带着小孩的夫妻、有恩爱的情侣、有感情很好的朋友、也有独自一个人逛夜市的单身男女。

很喜欢观察这些人，喜欢猜想他们来自怎样的家庭，然后再想想以后自己会变成个怎样的人。

毕竟未来是个未知数，以后会发生什么事不是我说了算。

但，如果我能够选择，我希望我是个快乐的人。

并不是说我现在不快了，只是现在我发现自己总会想得很多。

总会想这想那，我觉得，这样的人生很不快乐。

明天永远是个变数，也许明天是世界末日，也许明天有外星人侵占地球，又或许明天我会因为一场意外而命丧黄泉。明日不知明日事嘛。

所以，如果明天真的那么不幸是世界末日的话，

我想我会很后悔。我不想至到生命最后的一刻都在担心那些鸡毛蒜皮的事情。

至少，我要我的人生是充满欢乐的笑声，

这，就是我憧憬的人生。

但，憧憬跟现实始终有个距离。而憧憬往往是离现实最远的。

现在的我，并不快乐。

我的生活就是不是读书就是功课，而我唯一感到开心的时候就是在班上跟他们车大炮的时候。

唯有那个时候，我才能把一切烦恼抛到九霄云外。

告诉自己要快乐，但就是快乐不起来。

什么时候我会介意那么多啦？

所以，如果上天你听得见我这个像灰尘般那么渺小的人的心声的话，

那么我希望我以后是个快乐的人。

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                                                                  又被爱伤了一遍 
                                                                  无所谓当作成长 
                                                                  刚刚走开的人 
                                                                  烟还点着味道却淡了 
                                                                  我并不是天生爱寂寞 
                                                                 却比任何人都多 
                                                                 就算把世界给我 
                                                                 我还是一无所有 
                                                                 我要快乐我要能睡的安稳 
                                                                 有些人不抱了才温暖 
                                                                 离开了才不恨我早应该割舍 
                                                                 我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声 
                                                                 心不是热的全都是假的 
                                                                 只有眼泪是真的 
                                                                 把从前想了一遍 
                                                                 谢谢了伤我的人 
                                                                 想做乐观的人 
                                                                 每种雨声听了都不冷 
                                                                 我并不是天生爱寂寞 
                                                                 却比任何人都多 
                                                                 就算把世界给我 
                                                                 我还是一无所有 
                                                                 我要快乐我要能睡的安稳 
                                                                 有些人不抱了才温暖 
                                                                 离开了才不恨我早应该割舍 
                                                                 我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声 
                                                                 心不是热的全都是假的 
                                                                 我的决定是对的 

disappointed

想你了

时间匆匆，已经一个星期了

虽然已经有心理准备

但是您不在了，

心中的世界仿佛失去了一大块土地。

说不出的失落感，

找谁来诉说？

我只能强颜欢笑，骗自己说：“我很好。”

说好不哭的，

但是眼泪还是不听话的掉下来了。

拼了命把眼泪擦干，但还是掩饰不了那泪痕。

伤心，

因为你已经不再了。

再也看不到那等待我们回家的老人家

再也看不到常坐在门前那瘦弱的背影

再也看不到了......

对不起，因为我到最后对您说的那句话还是：阿公，我要回美里了噢。

而你也只是握着我的手对我微笑点头

而我听说，那天你哭了。='(

其实我还有好多话想对您说，但是我不知该怎么说。

脑海里总涌现那些年的回忆......

请原谅我的不孝，

在这里我想对您说 ：阿公，、您放心走吧。能够做您的孙子是我这辈子最幸福的事。感谢您出现在我的生命里，让我的生命有了那么多的色彩。如果还有下辈子，那么我希望我还能够做为您的孙子来到这个世界上。

那，我们下辈子再见。约好了噢=')

Uncertainty

Hi readers, so here i am again. i'm trying hard not to neglect my blog, as it's a platform to distress myself. Tomorrow's a schooling day, hectic, stressful and exhausted. TT. 4 days of bio is really distracting, sigh. nothing much i can do about it, i've chosen the path and i'm going to be responsible for that. But there are times i'm just so lost, i'm really uncertain about the direction i'm heading to. Did i make a right choice??? i'm so lost about my future. People say adult carried a heavy load on their shoulders, but sadly, teenagers nowadays are just the same as the adult. rushing to meet deadlines every day, stack of papers need to be read and do, and all sorts of assignment need to be handed in time, and most importantly, they worried about their futures all the time. this kind of feeling is like floating in the middle of the pacific ocean, and you just don't know where the tides or waves are going to bring you. if you're lucky, you'll wash up on the shore of an unknown island. You explore the island, and be the owner of the little place. but if you're unlucky, you'll just end up in the nowhere of the pacific ocean, floating and wandering for the rest of your life. This kind of uncertainty is like a pain in the neck. GGGRRRR, guess it's part of our lives which we cannot avoid. Hmmm.....argh, i'm so helpless.

once in a blue moon

Hi readers! it's good to be here again, it's been a long time since my last update. Sorry, i have a rather packed schedule. The baby in the picture is very cute, don't you think so?? feel like want to kiss her right away. LOL, or is she a he? nahhh, never mind about that.LOL.

So today's a schooling day, our school had organized a Jogathon, in which the students in the school need to join this activity, no excuses, unless you have a very severe illness. LOL. erm, compare to the last jogathon we had before mid-term school break, this one was a short one. LOL, haha, though the route is short, somehow it's a total disaster for me. it's easy to be me, just eat whatever you want and don't exercise.haha. easy right.

ok will stop writing now. this is what happen when i have nothing to write. GGGGGGGRRRRR

T.G.I.F

  My lips curled without me realizing it, and when the bell rang, i quickly packed my bag and get in line, IT'S TIME TO GO HOME. most importantly, it'S FRIDAY!

  So i've been here for almost 2 weeks already, and which was quite a surprise to me. LOL, at first i had a hard time adapting myself with the surrounding and the academic staffs here, but now i am slowly adapting myself to it, which is a good thing to say right.haha.

  and i'm still working hard on making friends, cause i'm usually not the first to open my mouth and speak, well, unless you talk to me. Being the first one to speak is very AWKWARD, and i don't really like the atmosphere when everything turns bulky. But a good thing to say that i'm making progress on this,hahah, though it's not obvious but i know i'm moving forward.

   Orientation was rather boring and lame, nothing fun to talk about, the only good thing i would like to compliment is that i don't get to introduce myself! haha, when the teacher asked us to sit in a big circle, and when he stand in the middle of the circle with a white ping pong ball in his hand, i swore to God that my heart was about to jump out of my chest at anytime, and my palms are sweating. The rules are: those who get the ball must introduce themselves by shouting out loud your name, former school, where you live. luckily this self-introducing section ended quicker than i thought, yay!! and three days of orientation are enough to shred me into countless pieces, not to say it was carried out under the blazing sun, in which cold breeze is what i seek for in the open air. TT and consequently, i'm getting tanner than before. the next thing i would like to do when i shop in the drugstore is to buy VASELINE TRIPLE WHITENING. it's a must!

   Erm, currently i'm keeping my fingers crossed that i'm going to stay in the Biology Class, despite the fact that i couldn't confront my fear towards the disgusting creatures, to be specific, FROGS, LIZARDS, EARTHWORMS, SNAILS, SLUGS，and any other creatures which are extremely repulsive. forget about the creatures, i'm looking forward to my biology class, though no further information has been told to students, but i'm hoping that i could know which class i'm in by next week. FINGER CROSSED. speaking of which, i dreamed of a small lizard crawling on my hand last night, and today, this dream actually came true! first, when i entered the bathroom to change my shirt, a small lizard suddenly came out of nowhere when i closed the door. to my amazement, i didn't screamed or hopped or cursed, i kinda ignored it you know, haha, there's no point dealing with a lizard when you're constantly craving for an extra hour of bed time. LOL. and then the second time was when we are having row call, everybody sat on the floor, nobody is exempted. be it dirty or dusty, u have no choice but to sat on the concrete. and then here comes the almighty lizard, who is crawling like a boss, next to me.!!!! oh why the hell you're here!!! wanted to scream but i can't, wanted to jump but i don't wanna cause any uproar among the students,GGGRRRRR, !!the guy next to me quickly grab the little creature and played with the small creature. For who's sake i acted like nothing happened. i swore i would jump as high as i could or ran as fast as i could, just to get the hell out of the open hall. TT it was really torturing though. really frightening.

    enough with the lizard thing, and as for the conclusion for this short summary (SHORT?? DUMBO,it' very long!) is that i'm still looking forward to my life as a form 6 students, and hopefully i can enjoy it to the max. =) and i'm going to say bye now coz  i still have my own things to settle by tomorrow, and hopefully things goes smoothly. =)) bye readers, p/s:  next week is going to be a hectic week. TT. bye. hopefully i do lost some weight as an impact of the non-stop activities organized by the school.=0

   

 

i'm so speechless when i listened to the truth. i wonder why there are people who like to make up false stories and accuse others for things they did not commit? this is not a story telling competition, and i'm surprised that u even spread the false stories to others so that they believe in you. i feel sorry for the victim in this case, what she demand is simply an apology, was it being too harsh for you? or saying i'm sorry is going to cause you death?? tsk tsk tsk, such a bastard, a scumbag, a jerk. you know what you suck to the max. you are the suck-est person i have ever seen in this world.hahah. not satisfied ?? come and confront me then.im not scare at all, coz all u have is lies and lies and lies. LOL, you got your friends with lies, and i swear if they know your true colours nobody's going to stand at your side anymore. my patience is the only thing that i can't take control of, if u want to play with the bomb, you are most welcomed. =) don't blame me for cursing you. coz are the one who spread the malicious things first. don't wanna mess with me? then just keep quiet, bitches. =) sorry, no white eye, i don;t wanna see u die without eyeballs. LOL. get a life. whore. =)

knowing that u don't have much time left.

see the picture above?? i despised those words very much. GGGRrrr, frankly speaking,today's my last day. i'm kinda scared, but still looking forward to my new life in new school. =))))((((((

i have nothing to update actually, nothing's been good in my life. well maybe there's something good just that i forgot what is it. LOL. 

well i have to admit that it takes time for me to adjust everything, back to the life i had when i'm still schooling. but it's kinda hard you know.since i've been stuck in home for almost 6 months already?? that's really long. i'm used to sleep late, wake up late, online for whole day, be a full time potato couch. LOL, i'm still afraid that i will not be able to wake up at 5 in the morning, that's really torturing you know. not to say i will be back to home only like 4 or 5 in the afternoon, spent most of my day in school?? hell no!!haha like i have the option to say 'NO'. someone is gonna kill me.

and it's really inconvenient when my mom need to fetch me with my sis together, sometimes my sister need to stay at school, and guess what i'll have to wait for her then only mom will come to fetch me. (though mom hasn't say anything about it, but i guess things will go like this, fuel oil is not that cheap dude) 

i wish i have a car, though i have one, i have no license!!!! am so regret right now, should start my driving course right after Chinese New Year, and all i did is just giving excuses like: hey i'm not ready to drive and all sorts of excuses u could ever thought of. failure!!! what's the point for regretting now???what has done cannot be undone. guess i will just bear with it. but still if i get to drive to school it's going to be great! 

ok readers, gonna stop here. nothing much to write already. bye bye!

*though we could at least hold on a little longer, but everything is just as delicate as it seems to be.once hurt, everything will not back to the same place it used to be.*

i need an anger management class

seriously, i've never been so mad before! and u noe what the way u talked to made me pissed off. like i owe you money what. only now i understand being busybody is no use! no worry la, i will stop bugging u, like it? that's what u want. last but not least, hope u go die. fuck you.

lalalalalala ;)

hello peeps, how ya doing. i'm doing great here. LOL. so erm, there's nothing i can talk about my life, coz it's just boring. LOL, it's not like i hate boring life, boring life shows u're comfortable with it, at least i have foods, and shelter, and vehicles, thats what matter the most.

so today's the 2nd of May, mum just decided drag me out of the house to buy stuffs needed for form 6. so the first to settle in the list is uniform. i don't know why am i so scare to buy uniform, it's probably i'm scare people knowing how big my waist can be. that is just embarrassing. being a girl is so hard ;( but i love being one :) luckily there's only one worker in the shop and she appears to be friendly, and i guess today's its my lucky day.hahahahahah! and then i also bought the socks, together with the uniform. so uniform (checked), socks (checked).

and then we went to somewhere near mega Hotel are to have our breakfast, well because i'm constantly craving for chicken-feet-noodles (鸡脚面), the first thing the came out of my mind when i eat this dish is my childhood memories.haha, never miss this when i was small.haha. and then there's a pet shop next to this restaurant, oh my gosh!!!!!!! there's one cute golden retriever in there. oh my gee, when the puppies look into my eyes, i almost melt! it's like the cutest thing ever in this world, i wish i could take him home :'(( but money's the problem. it might a small amount for those rich people, but for me, it's a super huge amount. sorry, Matt, i can't take you home. ( i decided to name him Matt when i first saw him LOL) i wish someone lovely is going to take u home soon. ;((((

ok peeps, i will stop here, school starts next week, which mean i'm really nervous about it and i'm not going to update my blog frequently like i do now.maybe once a week, or once a month, who knows, hahah. bye readers, have a nice day.

it's me,again ;)

hi there readers, surprise much??? hehe 3 posts in a day is a bit too much i guess. well, nothing much for me to do, those dramas i've been enjoying so much is still broadcasting, which means i still need to wait for another week to watch a new episode, which is a pretty sad case for me. i feel like want to finish it all at once, i can't endure the waiting and guessing about the story line throughout the whole process. I HATE THIS SO MUCH.

speaking of dramas, i'm so surprised that up to 130 ASTRO channels are available from today till 6th of june, i was like : hell ya, are u kidding me, since when astro becomes so generous. LMAO, well since they won the putra award. haha, anyhow, i get to enjoy the channels i didn't purchase, which is a good thing for me. so as i'm done with my korean dramas, i've transformed into a potato couch for the whole afternoon, and of course the remotes are in my hand. hahah! i took control of everything. LOL, i immediately switch to channel 711, the channel i wish to watch the most in my entire life, LOL, mum said this channel is a little expensive so she didn't purchase it, so im not wasting this golden opportunity! LOL, I watched kim & kourtney, australia masterchef. fuhhh, last but not least THANK YOU ASTRO! hehe.

countdown 11 more days before my nightmare starts, gotta enjoy as much as i could, gotta play like there's no tomorrow, nobody's going to stop me,wakakakakaka!!!

OMG!!!

话说我近期都在追看韩剧——《屋塔房王世子》，我的妈呀，我只能说朴有天真的是太太太太太xN倍 帅了。 然后刚刚在看第12集的时候终于给我盼到啦！！！ 笨蛋王世子终于跟朴荷告白了！而且而且还嘴对嘴涅！！！ 人家最吃这套了 xD

 1.你很有guts，二话不说把薄荷给拉住了，秒杀啊！！！

   2.终于给我亲下去了！给我狠狠的亲吧！！！ xD (我疯了哈哈）

3.好唯美的画面啊 xD 我快崩溃了 哈哈哈哈 ！！！！

于是，还没看这部戏的朋友赶快去看吧！真的很好看啊 xDD

我好想...

于是，我终于看完这部连续剧啦！哈哈，只用两天就看完了而且超好看的说！没办法啦，我的假期只剩下短短的两个星期了，所以有什么好看的戏一定要想办法在这个两个星期内看完，那之后就要好好专心的读书了。 TT 

害我还以为你六月才会开课，哪里知道！我的计划全部被扰乱了。我好恨啊～～～～～～ 

话说看完这部连续剧，我的心脏快负荷不了了啦！谁叫男女主角真的太甜蜜了，啊～～～～～～我也好想谈恋爱哈哈 （十足一个花痴女）

已经十八岁了可是我连一次恋爱都没有谈过，

所以如果你问我会想要跟怎样的男孩交往的话我想我应该不能给你一个明确的答案

有时候我会认为阳光型的男孩不错，

有时候酷酷型的也不赖， 

哦不不不，也许聪明的男孩是我的选择。

所以说啊 女人是善变的。哈哈！ 不过管他的什么型，只要感觉对了，就算知道是错的也会一头栽进去吧？

也许我憧憬恋爱，也许我是看太多连续剧导致自己有严重的幻想症。

不过这种东西还是随缘吧 =)

该有的时候还是会有，也许你的他/她在寻找你的路途中迷路了。所以耐心的等待吧，耐心的等他/她的到来。=))

愿全天下的人，幸福快乐。

screw u!

here's a big 'screw you' for those who annoyed me.HAHA, sorry, hormone's fault.being a woman is hard! so first of all, i heard that form 6 is going to start next month, like in the early of May. well i thought it would at least starts around in June! OH-MA-BOY, my plan of getting my license next month is completely ruined. 

can i say F you instead of Screw you? nevermine, don't wanna get my blog x-rated for having explicit content.still want my readers support me.LOL, as if i'm having tons of supporters LMAO

and then secondly, my parents are being such a pain in the neck especially when they won't stop nagging. I know it's not right to say something like this about my parents, but i'm tired of explaining the same thing over and over again (like endlessly), but nvm i'll skip this one.HAHA

and then third thing is that i'm so so so depressed about my future school, in which i can't mention the name here due to several reasons. But trust me,you'll know this place as it is famous for its over-strict disciplinary issues. i guess there's a name pop out of your mind. though it's still not confirm that i'm study over there, but somehow the possibility is very high. =((( i'm scared though.hahaha. 2 years my mama, try to imagine it. i wonder how they manged to survive through 5 years of endless tortures in that school. No offense that, rumours about this school is spreading like wildfire. i'm sure i'm not the only who thinks like this. ;) so should i laugh or cry now. someone tell me please.

and then seeing my friends going to universities/colleges makes me a little bit down. i feel like wow everyone is going somewhere far and i'm still trapped in this little city located in northern Sarawak. LOL. but still it's my own choice for staying here. So i guess there's no difference in what path we chose, what important is how you manage get rid of the obstacles that block your way. It's not like i'm not going to U. just that i have to wait for another 2 years. HAHA, be patient la! xD

wow, i feel good after letting out all my dissatisfaction here. good thing i have a blog.hehe. BTW,Can't wait for next sunday, it's gathering time! =))))) can't wait to see my friends whom i have not met in ages. TEEHEE

the 3 perverts.

this is what happen when 3 pervert  start their conversation.LOL.

i said i will post it.hahaha!!! xDDD

hang out

that funny moment when you can't close your mouth when you're driving----

ok, let's accept the fact that i look ugly when i drive. shuts! x( lmao i don't even know i can't close my mouth at that time, lol, funny!!!!

this post is dedicated to PGIE =))

HI readers! Good evening! hehe, honestly i have no intention in updating my blog today until i saw something which really took me by surprise.

first of all, i would like to thank you for the 'present', i liked it. thought it has been five days after my big day but still i really appreciate it. THANK YOU. hehe. thanks for saying that i'm your good friend coz i have never expect i'm in your GOOD-FRIEND-LIST.anyhow, that is so sweet and kind of you. you're such a sweet girl. I do not know whether i have personally told you about this or not, but from some aspect both of us are really alike. i mean like our attitude, it's the hyper-crazy-type of girls. and yeah not to say the kpop group we both fancied. LOL. erm, what i have to say that i really glad that we are friend, though our friendship just started like two or three years ago and before we were in the same class we have never been so close before. it's my pleasure to have a friend like you. and i mean it literally. hehe. and though we are following different path in our lives now, and we might not be seeing each other so frequently like we used to be during high school days, but you know what, i will also pray for you so that you'll get what you want in life, and be a successful person. like what i said in the previous post, i'm such a pessimistic person, and you know what i really admire you last year coz everytime i see you. you'll always have a really bright smile on your face, like you're the spokesperson for some branded toothpaste.(perhaps colgate ?? xD) haha   hope i didn't offend you. xDDD
anyhow, thanks again for everything. hehe!

when the anxiety is slowly killing me inside.

sorry for posting such a horrible pic, hope you don't take it wrongly as a ghost picture.haha, though it looks like one.   three days left until the doomsday arrive. i've tried my best to ignore the date, but every time i wake up, my mind just remind me that i'm getting closer to the day, the day i wish that will never ever come.  oh god i'm doomed. btw, don't you think that emoticon is just adorable, can't resist its cuteness though.haha, okay back to the topic. i had a bad dream last night, i have no idea whether i should keep this dream inside or maybe i should talk to someone about this dream i had last night. i know this is kinda superstitious but some of the Chinese do believe that dreams are going to come true if you never reveal it to a single person. i don't want it to come true but i'm scare  of letting people know about this dream or hallucination i had, in fact it's really embarassing to talk about it.
for most of you maybe it's not a bad one, but for me, i have a high expectation on myself so i consider it as a bad bad bad super bad sign.<---; like  this, very very bad. despite the dilemmas and hardships i'm going through inside of me, i think i should be positive about the results. not like i'm positive about getting a good ones, but i should be positive-minded about my results. (now i realize how good i am when i'm comforting others, but when i'm the one who need to be comforted, i just suck at cheering myself up.) optimism is what i craved for my entire life, but somehow it's something beyond my approachable area. i want to be an optimistic person, in which i could just smile and embrace the failures i made in my life, and admit that it was part of me that it actually made me a better person.but instead, i grew up with a friend called 'pessimist'.what a sad case. TT thus, the anxiety is killing me inside, bye readers. i'm mentally ill.